Porgeous
Chilling
Well I've decided to have a go at keeping a diary. I thought it would be a good way to track my thoughts and feelings along with, hopefully, my progress! It also will have the added benefit of keeping my hand and mind busy during the long evenings which I find the most difficult time.
Anyway where to start..... bit of background. I am 37 years of age and currently 14st. When I was younger (early 20s) I never really struggled with my weight I was alway a healthy 8.5/9 stone and never really thought about what I ate. I married at 22 and all that changed, called it contentment, greediness or just a change in my body but since then I have battled.
I got to a stage in my thirties where I tried to convince myself that this was just the way I was meant to be and that it was more important to be happy and eating than miserable and dieting. My husband has always loved me for what I am and supports me in whatever I do - for that I am grateful. However, sometimes this support can just give us the excuses we need to remain overweight which is what I did. I even applied to How to Look Good Naked recently in a bid to convince myself that I could be happy the way I was but I am only kidding myself.
Increasingly over the last few months my weight has really been getting me down. It always gets worse in the summer as deep down inside there is a really feminine girl trying to get out and the site of everyone in pretty summer dresses always gets me down. So after a big of investigation I decided to try CD. Originally looked at LL but it was considerably more expensive and I didn't like the idea of the old group psycology.
Met my CDC on Monday night and started on Tuesday. Not sure why but I have kind of made an unconscious decision to be quite open and tell people what I am doing. Quite perversely I think it puts more pressure on me as I wouldn't want to admit that I had failed after convincing them that it is a good and safe diet to follow!!! I share an office with someone and they have been really great, getting to work a bit earlier so they can eat their breakfast before I get in (how sweet is that!) and my husband has tried to get home before me to do the same.
Days 1-4
Hard to explain really.. I think the hardest part for me has been the psychological side of things. I haven't actually felt too bad, apart from a splitting headache on Day 1. I during the afternoon and late evenings I get an unsettled feeling, a feeling of being slightly on edge and my mind wanders. After analysing it I think it stems from a desire to do really well and a hope that this will work for me with an underlying worry that sooner or later it will go wrong (as all previous attempts at dieting). Not sure if I am explaining it properly but it is almost like wanting something so badly you are so scared that you will blow it! I entered Ketosis on Day 3 which was a great feeling because now I know I am burning away all that horrible fat. I am hoping that once I get more into the swing of things my confidence will grow and I will stop doubting myself so much. I have also decided to try and come up with some ideas of things to do when I am feeling weak to keep me on the straight and narrow, so far I have:
Put some of my worst fat pictures on the fridge
Stand naked in front of the mirror
Put inspirational pictures of dresses I would love to own on display
One other method I have been trying is from Paul McKenna... imaginging yourself standing in front of you thin, stepping into that body and feeling how it feels ... ITS GREAT!
I do have the concern looming that I have four days in Barcelona with my husband for his 40th at end September and week in Gozo in October. I am planning on sticking with the shakes and introducing chicken or fish for one meal in the evening. Whilst hubby is very supportive he draws the line at sitting in a restaurant with me on holiday whilst I drink water and watch him eat. I am hoping this won't do too much damage and hopefully by then I will have shifted a bit of weight to inspire me to keep going on my return. One step at a time aye.
Well here we are Day 5. Feeling really positive, must admit to having sneaky peaks at the scales which I know I shouldn't but it is keeping my going through week 1. Can't wait until WI on Monday night and to have this first 7 days behind me. Reading all the posts on Minimins has really kept me going and other peoples weight loss stories are truly inspirational .... think I may be addicted it's such a great way to pass the time during the evening.
Anyway will sign off for now. Good luck to anyone who is on the journey or just starting out and remember if at first you don't succeed try try again.
Started Tuesday 4th August at 14st
Week 1 ?
Anyway where to start..... bit of background. I am 37 years of age and currently 14st. When I was younger (early 20s) I never really struggled with my weight I was alway a healthy 8.5/9 stone and never really thought about what I ate. I married at 22 and all that changed, called it contentment, greediness or just a change in my body but since then I have battled.
I got to a stage in my thirties where I tried to convince myself that this was just the way I was meant to be and that it was more important to be happy and eating than miserable and dieting. My husband has always loved me for what I am and supports me in whatever I do - for that I am grateful. However, sometimes this support can just give us the excuses we need to remain overweight which is what I did. I even applied to How to Look Good Naked recently in a bid to convince myself that I could be happy the way I was but I am only kidding myself.
Increasingly over the last few months my weight has really been getting me down. It always gets worse in the summer as deep down inside there is a really feminine girl trying to get out and the site of everyone in pretty summer dresses always gets me down. So after a big of investigation I decided to try CD. Originally looked at LL but it was considerably more expensive and I didn't like the idea of the old group psycology.
Met my CDC on Monday night and started on Tuesday. Not sure why but I have kind of made an unconscious decision to be quite open and tell people what I am doing. Quite perversely I think it puts more pressure on me as I wouldn't want to admit that I had failed after convincing them that it is a good and safe diet to follow!!! I share an office with someone and they have been really great, getting to work a bit earlier so they can eat their breakfast before I get in (how sweet is that!) and my husband has tried to get home before me to do the same.
Days 1-4
Hard to explain really.. I think the hardest part for me has been the psychological side of things. I haven't actually felt too bad, apart from a splitting headache on Day 1. I during the afternoon and late evenings I get an unsettled feeling, a feeling of being slightly on edge and my mind wanders. After analysing it I think it stems from a desire to do really well and a hope that this will work for me with an underlying worry that sooner or later it will go wrong (as all previous attempts at dieting). Not sure if I am explaining it properly but it is almost like wanting something so badly you are so scared that you will blow it! I entered Ketosis on Day 3 which was a great feeling because now I know I am burning away all that horrible fat. I am hoping that once I get more into the swing of things my confidence will grow and I will stop doubting myself so much. I have also decided to try and come up with some ideas of things to do when I am feeling weak to keep me on the straight and narrow, so far I have:
Put some of my worst fat pictures on the fridge
Stand naked in front of the mirror
Put inspirational pictures of dresses I would love to own on display
One other method I have been trying is from Paul McKenna... imaginging yourself standing in front of you thin, stepping into that body and feeling how it feels ... ITS GREAT!
I do have the concern looming that I have four days in Barcelona with my husband for his 40th at end September and week in Gozo in October. I am planning on sticking with the shakes and introducing chicken or fish for one meal in the evening. Whilst hubby is very supportive he draws the line at sitting in a restaurant with me on holiday whilst I drink water and watch him eat. I am hoping this won't do too much damage and hopefully by then I will have shifted a bit of weight to inspire me to keep going on my return. One step at a time aye.
Well here we are Day 5. Feeling really positive, must admit to having sneaky peaks at the scales which I know I shouldn't but it is keeping my going through week 1. Can't wait until WI on Monday night and to have this first 7 days behind me. Reading all the posts on Minimins has really kept me going and other peoples weight loss stories are truly inspirational .... think I may be addicted it's such a great way to pass the time during the evening.
Anyway will sign off for now. Good luck to anyone who is on the journey or just starting out and remember if at first you don't succeed try try again.
Started Tuesday 4th August at 14st
Week 1 ?
) and have kept track of that too. My friend and I started CD at the same time and she is totally phobic of mirrors, camera's and measuring tapes but now wishes that she had taken the plunge and photographed and measured her progress.
