Porgeous to Gorgeous Diet Diary

[Porgeous]

Thanks Daisy and Dis it is really good to know I am not alone and not going completely crackers!! So I will happily go on smelling other peoples food and resisting temptation. Daisy I'm on Day 19 and it does get easier almost becomes a way of life, although not going to say the cravings completely disappear! Work through it and we'll get there. Dis you have done amazingly well, I just hope I can achieve what you have!

Georgie
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[DawnC]

Hi Georgie. Another fantastic installment From the start (1stJuly) I have sniffed every single meal I have prepared for my 3 kids, every packet of sweets/crisps I have opened for the younger one AND even my apple lipbalm & the dogs smokey bacon Bakers Complete! The kids look up at me as if i'm mad and I say 'just one more sniff' How sad am I? No, don't answer that! Being a single parent I don't have the extra stress of a partner bringing home goodies but instead I dream. The other night was a nightmare I dreamt I was just about to binge on a chinese takeaway. I woke up just before the fork went in my mouth and I was so relieved. The thing is why did I feel relieved - it was a bloody dream. I think I've come to the conclusion that VLCD can make you bonkers, lol but I love it really. looking forward to your next post Georgie

Dawn xx

 

[DawnC]

Hi Georgie,
Hows this week been?

Dawn xx

 

[Porgeous]

Hello all

Been really slack on keeping my diary up to date but here is the week 4 update.

Week started on Tuesday when I came home to find someone had smashed my beloved car window (could have been an accident I suppose!). Now you may find this really anal but I am somewhat obsessed with my little car, I absolutely love it and it puts a smile on my face every time I get in it. In fact part of my motivation to lose weight is to be worthy of my beautiful car – how odd is that!! So when I saw all the glass everywhere I will admit a little tear came to my eye. Now this was also WI day, so here I am faced with an unsecured car, desperately trying to sort it out and also needing to go for my WI. I rushed round to my CDC was totally distracted and when I jumped on the scales and she said WOW -6lbs I just jumped off through on my shoes and said yeah, great, got to go!!! Perhaps I have discovered the secret to solving my scale mounting and balancing issues, never in my life could I genuinely not have cared less how good or bad the WI was!!

After loads of phone calls I managed to find a windscreen place that would put the car into storage until they could find a window so all was resolved. The one big lesson I learned from all of this was that my normal reaction to stress, which is to eat, did not materialise which is amazing!!

Quite bizarrely, considering I am on SS, I ordered about 10 cook books off Amazon this week. Healthy quick recipes, which surprisingly are all on the dining table untouched as I can’t bring myself to look at pictures of food. The thought behind it was preparation for when I come off the diet but I think I may have been a little hasty bearing in mind I still have several months to go.

Also had a row with M&S which is most unlike me and actually hung up on them, which at the time felt really good but now I a racked with guilt!! Basically I ordered a pressie for my Dad a week ago and on the day of delivery they sent me an email to say everything was out of stock and no delivery would be made. Well that was it, I saw red picked up the phone and an absolute diatribe poured from my mouth. Is it just me or is it completely ridiculous to send you an email on the day to tell you they won’t be delivering???? When they started to apologise I said I’m sorry I can’t be bothered to listen to you and put the phone down – do you think this could be the start of a new assertive me or have I just become outrageously rude due to lack of food?! Anyway I couldn’t let me Dad go without a pressie so jumped in the car and up to Solihull we went. Aren’t Mum’s supportive, she was gushing with how different and well I looked, now I don’t deny that I have lost nearly 1.5 stone but when you are 4.5 overweight I don’t think it’s that noticeable. But you would think from my mum I had dropped to a size 10!! Bless her, made me feel really good and I have been desperately looking in the mirror to see if I too can see the difference but to no avail, soon, I’m sure!

The obsession of looking at other women’s bodies has continued and may actually have worsened, I may get to the point when I see someone I think is perfect of asking them how heavy they are and what size they take?? Do you think I would get arrested??

The other thing I have noticed this week is that everyone who was really sceptical at work is becoming more and more interested in the diet. Even people who only have a stone to lose are starting to say, wish I could do you SS diet for a few weeks, it really works! Who’d have thought!

Anyway WI is tomorrow night and the scales don’t seem to be moving for me this week for some reason but I actually feel fine about it as I know it will come off next week. Oh and thinking about next week is AAMW and I have a plan!! I have been reading about how difficult everyone finds it getting back to SS after AAMW so my plan is to make it as boring as possible so that I don’t miss it when I have to go back to SS. I am going to have cottage cheese and cucumber every day, it doesn’t get much boring in my opinion and hopefully after 7 days of it I will be glad not to have it – do you think it’ll work??

Good luck to us all for the forthcoming week, we will prevail!

Gx

Couldn’t resist putting a little piccie of my car, sorry!!

 

[minilady]

Hi GP

Haven't read your diary for a while, so it's taken me some time to catch up. I'm loving it

I also love your car!!!!!!!!!! I'm a little bit of a petrolhead, I have an old Austin Mini (my pride and joy) and we also have a couple of old american Fords (more hubby's thing) How awful that you found the window broken

With regards staring at other women, I like to think that this is normal, as I do it too I thought it was a passing phase and that maybe I was obsessed because of being on a diet, but I still do it after reaching goal I even comment to my husband 'oh hasn't she got a nice bum' He just replies with a 'mmmmmmmm'. Something else I did/do is think she needs Cambridge Diet if they are overweight Even my children nudge me sometimes and say that lady needs to do the diet you did mummy

I'm so glad you're doing so well, I've read many of your posts to other people, giving everyone encouragement and support, I think you are a lovely lady.

Tracey
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[Porgeous]

Thank you Tracey for your lovely reply and your support. :hug99:

I had a classic mini before I got the Figgy, even though I passed my test nearly twenty years ago the mini was my first car and I had it for about three years and loved it. Had it resprayed and all chromed up, unfortunately I got fed up with having to defrost the inside in the winter!! With the heater on and the ice scraper I used to look like one of those snow globes!! I still smile whenever I see one though and have a piccie on my wall at work.

Glad I'm not alone with looking at other women and just like you I think larger ladies should do cambridge but always feel kinda of guilty for thinking it!

Georgie
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[Delli]

oohh love the car georgie!! im a bit of a car fan as well, both my dad and my brother are rally drivers so hadnt much choice in the matter! however have disgusted my father by becoming completely infatuated by a vintage pink mini that our neighbour is selling. i dont think it could reach 65mph but i want it! but just like u said, i dont feel worthy of it! its as if only slim good looking girls can drive pink minis and therefore im not allowed one.

congratulations on the 6lb off tho!! ur doing so well!!

 

[Porgeous]

Hi Georgie,
Hows this week been?

Dawn xx

Sorry Dawn didn't see this one, think I was posting my update. The week from a diet point of view has been surprisingly okay despite all the stresses and strains.

Your comment about dreaming you were eating made me laugh, I keep having thoughts that I will suddenly come round and find chocolate all over my face and like a naughty child will say "it wasn't me honest!".

How are you getting on at the moment?

Georgie
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[Porgeous]

oohh love the car georgie!! im a bit of a car fan as well, both my dad and my brother are rally drivers so hadnt much choice in the matter! however have disgusted my father by becoming completely infatuated by a vintage pink mini that our neighbour is selling. i dont think it could reach 65mph but i want it! but just like u said, i dont feel worthy of it! its as if only slim good looking girls can drive pink minis and therefore im not allowed one.

congratulations on the 6lb off tho!! ur doing so well!!

Delli you are sooo allowed to drive one, I always work on the principle that nice fun cars and driven by nice fun people so you go for it. You'd be surprised how pokey the little things can be, I could get up to over 80 in mine although it does make your bones shake and your teeth chatter and there is the slight concern that bits of the car might fall off but hey, it can be done!!

Georgie
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[minilady]

I had a classic mini before I got the Figgy, even though I passed my test nearly twenty years ago the mini was my first car and I had it for about three years and loved it. Had it resprayed and all chromed up, unfortunately I got fed up with having to defrost the inside in the winter!! With the heater on and the ice scraper I used to look like one of those snow globes!! I still smile whenever I see one though and have a piccie on my wall at work.

I wanted a mini when I passed my test (many moons ago now:sigh I didn't have much money and my grandparents bought my first car for me, although I was very grateful it wasn't a mini. I got my first mini 10 years ago, I loved it! Then had my 4th child, so had to get something bigger. Now the kids are older and going out with mum is a chore rather than a pleasure I can once again drive a mini

oohh love the car georgie!! im a bit of a car fan as well, both my dad and my brother are rally drivers so hadnt much choice in the matter! however have disgusted my father by becoming completely infatuated by a vintage pink mini that our neighbour is selling. i dont think it could reach 65mph but i want it! but just like u said, i dont feel worthy of it! its as if only slim good looking girls can drive pink minis and therefore im not allowed one.

Delli... You are so worthy of it!!!!!!!! My mini is matt black, flamed, pinstriped and has cadillac taillights frenched in at the back! He's a cool beast. I'm a 40 yr old mum of 4 and although slim now, was fat and frumpy when my husband did the car up for me.

Go ahead and buy it, they are such fun Plus I get lots of people taking pics and showing interest in it (normally 18 yr old boys though)

Delli you are sooo allowed to drive one, I always work on the principle that nice fun cars and driven by nice fun people so you go for it. You'd be surprised how pokey the little things can be, I could get up to over 80 in mine although it does make your bones shake and your teeth chatter and there is the slight concern that bits of the car might fall off but hey, it can be done!!

Lol That's what makes them so much fun!

Tracey
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[Dis]

hiya! where ya been? hope all is well!

 

[Porgeous]

Howdy doody everyone

Sorry for being so tardy with the old diary entries but life on CD tends to just roll on I find which I suppose in a weird way is a good thing.

Well here I am in week 5 – how on earth I have managed to get to week 5 is quite quite beyond me. I am commonly known to be completely and utterly fickle and change my mind with the wind so to have stuck with this for so long is pretty amazing. It’s the dreaded AAM week and I have put my “keep it boring plan” into action, so cottage cheese and cucumber it has been. I mistakenly thought this would be so unutterably dull that I couldn’t possibly miss it when I get to Monday – who knew how yummy cottage cheese can be when you haven’t eaten for four weeks, despite all my best efforts it has been the highlight of my day. When you think about it that is really quite sad. Perhaps I need to get out more!!

Now just to enlighten you I am the kind of overweight person who works on the principle that if you cover it up with baggy clothes no one will know it’s there. So my staple wardrobe consists of black trousers, loose linen vest top and an over shirt. I am constantly told by others that I am not half as big as they think I am because I wear clothes that don’t fit but hey ho! But today I got dressed for work as normal and had a slight revelation that actually the clothes really were too big. Being 5ft nothing I looked a bit like the new kid at school on their first day at big school with the blazer that is huge and whose Mum says don’t worry you’ll grow into it! It was actually a really nice feeling because it made me feel really small inside these giant clothes. I am still intent on holding out as long as poss though before I buy any new stuff as a) don’t want to waste money when hopefully I will shrink out of it in no time and b) don’t want to start feeling too good about myself incase I lose this new found motivation – does this sound daft?

For the first time since I started I have actually felt hungry this week and put it down to the pesky cottage cheese (did I mention how yummy it is??!!). I went out for a wander at lunch today and everywhere I looked there was food, I work in London near Spitalfields Market and they sell all manner of home baked yummyness (won’t go into details) but I could literally feel myself drooling.

I have also developed the habit of wearing my trainers to work in true commuter fashion. Now don’t get me wrong I am not doing and so far have showed zero intent to do any exercise but somehow wearing my trainers makes me feel sporty. Although I have noticed that as my trainers are flat and I am not used to it I get back ache so now I have decided there is surely a niche market for high heeled trainers – it could catch on comfy yet fashionable.

Think I am also suffering with water retention as losses seem to have slowed right down and TOTM is all over the place. I keep looking at myself in the mirror saying where are you water, where are you hiding? Wouldn’t it be good it we could give ourselves a good twist to wring ourselves out.

Love to all, and thanks for all your continued support.

Georgie
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[minilady]

Hi Georgie

Glad to hear your doing so well , your post was as positive and enjoyable to read as usual.

Cottage cheese! one of those foods we associate with dieting and therefore avoid as much as possible as it looks and tastes so vile! Well that's how I perceived it before I tried CD. Then something strange happens and it's the food of the gods. I have to have my CC intake at least twice a week. Never thought I'd crave CC

Well done on holding back on buying new clothes, you're right it is a waste of money. I couldn't resist though and have given many things away that have either been worn once or still have the tags Thank goodness for Primark

Hope you have a great weekend

Tracey
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[canireallydothis!!]

OMG, I thought I was the only secret cc eater!!!! I hated the stuff prior CD, now its lovely!!!

Just wanted to add my thought on clothes really, I know its tempting to hide in baggy clothes, I was nicknamed the bag lady after a few weeks, but i do recommend that you do buy a size (or 2) lower, its amazing how you feel in new clothes, I found some fab bargains in charity shops.

It just gives you a lift.

Try it and see x

 

[Sambucca]

Hey Georgie,

You are doing so well. 19.5lb already hun. You'll be at target in no time. Im so not with you on the cottage cheese thing... yuk... it even looks revolting.

I would definitely buy a couple of smaller items of clothing to tide you over because it really will make you feel good about yourself, or at the very least, go to the shops and try on the smaller sizes. Its such a morale boost to hve it confirmed that you are shrinking.

And pmsl at the wringing yourself out - be great if we could do that before Wi each week to get a better result hehehe...

Your doing Fab mate. Keep up the brilliant work.

 

[Dis]

uhhhh i cant let this thread pass me by without posting on this cottage cheese thing...
yuck-o! i think its a texture/mouth feel thing for me because i dont mind having a tiny bit with fresh peaches...i just cant get past the lumpy bits.
very similar to eating tapioca pudding or semolina.


otherwise, well done on your loss so far.
and goooood morning to yoU!

 

[Hedgemag]

I must one of the few that LOVES Cottage cheese, could eat it by the tub full.

Love you diary Georgie always makes me smile..

Keep it up you will be at goal in no time, and I agree with the others, go treat yourself to something a size smaller. It really gives you a boost,

Take care
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[Porgeous]

Morning all

Thanks for all your replies!!

Dis - there must be something in the texture thing as I also loooovvee Semoline and Tapioca, or frog sporn as my Mum used to call it!

Oh and cottage cheese with peaches sounds just yummy!! Not sure if it is a change in my taste buds or just whether I am so happy to be eating something - sawdust would probably be yummy!

I have a lateral thigh trainer coming today - though I should finally put those trainers to some use rather than just posing, what doesn't kill you will make you stronger!

Thanks for all your thoughts on new clothes and I think maybe I might treat myself to some smaller tops, I have ordered some new bras as my boobs are heading towards my navel as the band on my bra is too big and keeps riding up so maybe a few more bits and bobs......

Love to all
Let's have a great weekend.
Gx

 

[Dis]

hahahah! my father calls it frog spawn as well.

 

[boofaloo]

LOVE your diary! Made me smile this morning. I too wear my trainers adn think i'm the sportiest person ever, even though all i do is walk from the car to the playground and back to the car again!!

Well done on the weight loss - go and treat yourself to some new clothes, it'll make you feel good.

Oh and I LURVE cottage cheese too.