Hello everyone
So, last night. Came back from the gym about 6.00 ravenous to find my housemate was in. And she says, 'I'll cook', at which my heart sinks because she never cooks anything that takes less than an hour, and she never wants to eat till at least 8.00.
I spend about two hours sitting salivating with hunger and by the time dinner is ready I'm literally dizzy, having done an hour's gym on my lunchtime salad, and somehow the meal doesn't satisfy.
Afterwards housemate goes out and I'm sat around thinking, 'hmmm chocolate and crisps would be nice'. It's TOTM and my weightloss this week is really disappointing, which kind of demotivates me further. I manage to persuade myself that I need to go to Tesco to get some dental floss [to be fair, at this point I did phone a friend as a distraction, but she was out].
I stride off to Tesco wearing a skirt I haven't been able to squeeze into for two years, reminding myself about my weight loss, and vowing not to buy crisps and chocolate. Get there, and suddenly can't bear not having anything. I end up buying philedelphia, cheese twists and a box of Lindt truffles. All the way home I keep telling myself to chuck 'em in a litter bin but I don't.
Get home, find I left the dental floss as Tesco's checkout by mistake, climb into bed [it's quite late now], and demolish all the food. I quite enjoyed the cheese twists and philidelphia, but I went off the chocolate and ate the last lot of truffles because I did, not because I even wanted it.
Have a rubbish night's sleep due to being too full and now:
I'm tired
My stomach really hurts
I have a foul taste in my mouth
I feel that I can't enjoy my weight loss, and I deserve to put the 21lbs I've lost right back on.
I want to starve myself for about the next week as punishment.
I feel so stupid for doing this even though I knew what the likely consequences would be.
HELP!
So, last night. Came back from the gym about 6.00 ravenous to find my housemate was in. And she says, 'I'll cook', at which my heart sinks because she never cooks anything that takes less than an hour, and she never wants to eat till at least 8.00.
I spend about two hours sitting salivating with hunger and by the time dinner is ready I'm literally dizzy, having done an hour's gym on my lunchtime salad, and somehow the meal doesn't satisfy.
Afterwards housemate goes out and I'm sat around thinking, 'hmmm chocolate and crisps would be nice'. It's TOTM and my weightloss this week is really disappointing, which kind of demotivates me further. I manage to persuade myself that I need to go to Tesco to get some dental floss [to be fair, at this point I did phone a friend as a distraction, but she was out].
I stride off to Tesco wearing a skirt I haven't been able to squeeze into for two years, reminding myself about my weight loss, and vowing not to buy crisps and chocolate. Get there, and suddenly can't bear not having anything. I end up buying philedelphia, cheese twists and a box of Lindt truffles. All the way home I keep telling myself to chuck 'em in a litter bin but I don't.
Get home, find I left the dental floss as Tesco's checkout by mistake, climb into bed [it's quite late now], and demolish all the food. I quite enjoyed the cheese twists and philidelphia, but I went off the chocolate and ate the last lot of truffles because I did, not because I even wanted it.
Have a rubbish night's sleep due to being too full and now:
I'm tired
My stomach really hurts
I have a foul taste in my mouth
I feel that I can't enjoy my weight loss, and I deserve to put the 21lbs I've lost right back on.
I want to starve myself for about the next week as punishment.
I feel so stupid for doing this even though I knew what the likely consequences would be.
HELP!