Ruthie's Weight Loss Journey - 3lb away from next stone bracket!

[IreneH]

You can do it
Irene xx

 

[rufusdoofus]

Does anyone remember me?

I hope some of you do. This journal was so precious to me, and yet months on I haven't been on here once. I've been experiencing the most stressful time in my life. 3rd year at Uni whilst working, and the result was I became very very unhappy with myself, and my issues with eating/food became so unhealthy...to extremes both ways....and I'm really trying to sort myself out. I intend to go back to weightwatchers once my coursework is in....and I guess I came back on here for a bit of inspiration.I'm seeing a counsellor for a lotof stuff but I really hope it can focus me back onto liking myself, sorry if this is all a bit deep! But this place was my comfort and helped me lose so much weight. I've still practically lost it, I fluctuate a lot but I'm around about the same weight. I hope everyone has been okay....I really regret not keeping up this diary, but I just have felt so awful.....really hope I can turn it around.

 

[omnomnom]

Welcome back I remember you. I feel the same with all my coursework and working on my days off. I've never been stressed before, even when I did my A-levels which was a big work load and long days. Just coursework and working AND running a household/paying bills is just too much! I cried in front of my tutor

I think waiting to get all your coursework out the way is a good idea. Coming back here was a good choice too, cos the support is great You don't have to do it alone x

 

[rufusdoofus]

Welcome back I remember you. I feel the same with all my coursework and working on my days off. I've never been stressed before, even when I did my A-levels which was a big work load and long days. Just coursework and working AND running a household/paying bills is just too much! I cried in front of my tutor

I think waiting to get all your coursework out the way is a good idea. Coming back here was a good choice too, cos the support is great You don't have to do it alone x

I had to go on beta blockers I got so stressed! What's worse, is that I doubted my abilities on top of the time constraints. Believed avidly that I could not do it! Then got amazing grades and still wasn't happy, this year has brought out a lot of realisations about WHY I have problems with food and maybe that's a good thing. Been a bit scary and lonely. I'm sorry to hear you've found it tough too - but I have learnt that with persistence it does pay off. I cried in front of my tutor too...I rationalised that I 'have to eat crap when stressed' and then shocked myself by NOT eating because of stress. My body has been through the ringer, and I really really think weightwatchers is the most balanced healthy approach. Gotta get my mind right first. Thanks a lot!

 

[nuneczka]

Hi,

I joined ww in January so I never had a chance to post in your diary. I know how frustrating, worrying and stressful is working on the assignments and trying to meet all deadlines. Last year when working on my assignments I was binging on chocolate and other stuff and later on was starving myself and eating one meal a day hoping to loose some lbs for summer. Now, I got three weeks to my deadlines and end of second year and with ww and support on this forum I didnt have a single binge which was assignment stress related (had some bad days on holidays and easter). I think you did well starting to post again in your diary. You know it did work for you last time so it will this time. Hope you are feeling better and looking forward to reading your posts.

 

[Starlight]

Welcome back

 

[rufusdoofus]

Hi,

I joined ww in January so I never had a chance to post in your diary. I know how frustrating, worrying and stressful is working on the assignments and trying to meet all deadlines. Last year when working on my assignments I was binging on chocolate and other stuff and later on was starving myself and eating one meal a day hoping to loose some lbs for summer. Now, I got three weeks to my deadlines and end of second year and with ww and support on this forum I didnt have a single binge which was assignment stress related (had some bad days on holidays and easter). I think you did well starting to post again in your diary. You know it did work for you last time so it will this time. Hope you are feeling better and looking forward to reading your posts.

Sounds just like me. Thanks for you encouragement. I got my dissertation completely finished today! Shocker. I'm really feeling down about my weight though, looking for some motivation or change in attitude. well done for having no bingeing in stressful times!

 

[rufusdoofus]

I'm scared of the weightwatchers path again, scared I won't be able to do it, feel guilty for eating. Got so many issues to deal with. Surely weightwatchers is the best approach. ​

 

[Curlz]

I am really worried. Really not sure if I can go from being so close to a eating disorder (I don't say that lightly - I have SCARED myself) and obsession...I'm scared of the weightwatchers path again, scared I won't be able to do it, feel guilty for eating. Got so many issues to deal with. Surely weightwatchers is the best approach. ​

Good Morning,Rufus
Firstly welcome back that is the biggest step to make.
You dont need to feel guilty about eating hunny with WW no foods are banned,you have done well with your college/uni work and now is the time to start your weightloss journey,you have come to the right place for advice and there are lots of lovely helpful peeps here to help you along the way... Good luck and enjoy xx

 

[rufusdoofus]

so, I think the day is coming ......well.....Friday to be exact! At 1pm I intend to trundle along to weightwatchers and join again. My final essay is due on Tuesday, which I am working on now, and I aim to get my life back on track avoiding all the stress. Got my dissertation done! Woohoo! But my eating has not been great. Really want to start again. I am going home to London Tues-Friday next week, so will miss the first week weigh-in, but I really just want to rejoin and for it all to be recognised when I do get back. It's a shame..I've looked at the ones in London, I just can't get to them around my plans. But I just want to get started!! That's the only thing giving me hope as I sit here feeling like an elephant AND with totm being irritating. I really want to pick up where I left off! When I left London to come back I was XX.7 and now I'd say I'm XX.10 according to my scales. But I did get down to XX.3 in the first (non stressful) term....so to me, it feels like I've put on loads. But in a way, I could have put on 3lb and just gone "get it off in no time"...and that's how I have to view these...erm.....8 months LOL. But laughs aside, I want to CARE for myself.. something that I just do not do. I hope to be sensible, come on here for support and advice and new ideas. I gotta let go of the regret that I haven't lost it all, because it was ridiculous to expect sitting infront of a computer most of every day was going to be a great calorie burn...let alone the work being so stressful that minstrels were my friend. I really, really want to do it right. I am at home for most of 1st week, another reason I want to join Friday cos at home I will be active and mum will be cooking healthily and I can re-energise. I know I've waffled..and I keep coming back and disappearing..honestly it's been the university work...makes me want to not be on the computer when I don't have to!! But here I am to stay!

 

[Karenlou]

welcome back ruth x

 

[rufusdoofus]

I'm really excited now!! I only have 1,500 words left to write...for Uni EVER and then I can go weightwatchers tomorrow and start again there. It's probably the nicest thing I could do for myself! Just booked my flat for the summer, so am working full time at ODEON which, trust me, is a calorie burn!! It's all very exciting! I'm going to America on 27th June and I want to buy new clothes and for it to be worthwhile..and also have instilled some self control for when American portions look at me and poke me! Ahhhh! My sister has assured me that Joe's (her husband..from Kentucky) house has a treadmill lol! Good job! Right, need to get this essay done!

 

[rufusdoofus]

Oh Oh Oh, today's the day! And I have finished my degree pretty much! Man, I CANNOT believe it! Am starting today.....get weighed at 1...here's too a new beginning!

 

[blackwidow]

good luck with your first WI back with WW and congrats on finishing your course xxx

 

[rufusdoofus]

good luck with your first WI back with WW and congrats on finishing your course xxx

Thanks! Got weighed in and that's that done. Moving on now!!! GOING DOWWWN. I went to Iceland - how good is that shop for weightwatchers stuff. I am stocked up on lots of meals and yogurts, and ww pizza. They have the weightwatchers oven chips, and the eclairs. I didn't have time to look around more but such value for money to! Yum! WW Sweet and Sour Chicken for lunch!!!

 

[mommyB]

yes the ww stuff is really usefull, and iceland great for it!! our local one stopped having ww stuff for a while but its back now, think the mass exodus of customers made them reconsider

 

[blackwidow]

good luck for your first week - why not join one of the teams for added inspiration? x

 

[rufusdoofus]

HAHA! It's 20 past 6 and I still have 11 points left. LOL. Going to have 5 point WW Pizza. But still? I CANNOT believe that I am concerned about USING my points! How things change LOL!!!! Cor blimey! Really exciting!

 

[Curlz]

Wow you sound really super motivated im pleased for ya..
Nice to get the Uni stuff out the way and heres to a fab week for you x

 

[rufusdoofus]

I love Chicken in White Sauce tins, and used to buy the tin from Sainsburys that was quite big and was SO many points. Marks and Spencer do half tins of it, for 4 points...and it tastes good!! I love it!!! I have cooked some brown rice and have that tin for my lunch tomorrow at work I still can't believe I'm within my points....infact I have 3 1/2 left. I'm SO glad I have started this again!