Slinky_Malinky
That pesky stone crept back.
YEAH BABY, YEAH!! :austin powers:
I need to get my own diary here as I keep littering the main page with "I feel miserable" posts.
End of Day 5 in the Slinky house, and I feel like I am still not in ketosis because I am still starving and am sat up in bed resisting gnawing one of the bed posts. I don't know how much of this hunger is emotional rather than actual, but it feels pretty real. I don't have any ketostix, and to be honest when I did Lighterlife a couple of years ago, they always were the same inbetweeny pinky-purple colour before I started, during and throughout.
Although I do have a memory of it being easier once you are at it for a week or so, I do remember feeling quite "hungry" throughout last time too, and this makes me slightly worried. My craving for Carbs (preferably with lashings of tomato sauce, cheese and olives on top. You know what I'm thinking of right?) and alcohol is such a profound force that I am concerned that I will never be able to keep it in check and that I will spend my life in a cycle of chasing ketosis and binging.
I am at the end of day 5, and it felt like a very long 5 days. Surely I must be in ketosis by now? Or can it take longer than that?
Either way, I need to get a more positive vibe. Or PMA as they used to call it in that advert. So with that in mind, I am going to come up with some positive statements, and attempt to train myself to summon them up whenever I feel like saying "oh BLITHER! (or something more profane) it's so UNFAIR. I really want some [insert object of longing here]." and then wishing the days away.
Sometimes I feel like I am not a member of the adult population, that I cannot be trusted with food because I cannot control myself. That I cannot just head out to a restaurant or a pub and eat and drink like other grown ups who manage to do both in moderation. And as a result I am forced to cage myself into this cage of starvation. Pacing and drooling.
I need to rethink that and say to myself that as an adult, I am CHOOSING to allow my body to use up some of it's excess fat because I am CHOOSING to be healthier, CHOOSING to feel more comfortable in my own skin, and CHOOSING to wear, ultimately, that pair of size 10 skinnies again. I need to think that I have this OPPORTUNITY on a VLCD, and isn't it great luck and fortunate that not only such things are now available to me, but I have found one that is reasonably priced, and I am saving a shed load of money by not shelling out on all the cooked breakfasts and takeaways, wine and general rubbish I usually scoff during the average week. It's all good. I'm CHOOSING not to order that pizza because, frankly, I'll feel like rubbish before during and after eating it, it will plug the gap only for a very short time and I'll feel just the same within a day or two afterwards, and besides, why would I want to when I have this cool opportunity to lose some weight rapidly and feel so much healthier and better about myself.
There is a thin line between berating myself (e.g.:"You are lucky and not appreciating it, you spoilt, miserable, fat sod"- my usual inner critic) and slapping myself on the back and saying "you're doing so well. keep it up! go for it, girl!" I'm so not used to doing the latter.
That said, I do like moaning. I hope I don't pee anyone off by moaning too much here.
I need to get my own diary here as I keep littering the main page with "I feel miserable" posts.
End of Day 5 in the Slinky house, and I feel like I am still not in ketosis because I am still starving and am sat up in bed resisting gnawing one of the bed posts. I don't know how much of this hunger is emotional rather than actual, but it feels pretty real. I don't have any ketostix, and to be honest when I did Lighterlife a couple of years ago, they always were the same inbetweeny pinky-purple colour before I started, during and throughout.
Although I do have a memory of it being easier once you are at it for a week or so, I do remember feeling quite "hungry" throughout last time too, and this makes me slightly worried. My craving for Carbs (preferably with lashings of tomato sauce, cheese and olives on top. You know what I'm thinking of right?) and alcohol is such a profound force that I am concerned that I will never be able to keep it in check and that I will spend my life in a cycle of chasing ketosis and binging.
I am at the end of day 5, and it felt like a very long 5 days. Surely I must be in ketosis by now? Or can it take longer than that?
Either way, I need to get a more positive vibe. Or PMA as they used to call it in that advert. So with that in mind, I am going to come up with some positive statements, and attempt to train myself to summon them up whenever I feel like saying "oh BLITHER! (or something more profane) it's so UNFAIR. I really want some [insert object of longing here]." and then wishing the days away.
Sometimes I feel like I am not a member of the adult population, that I cannot be trusted with food because I cannot control myself. That I cannot just head out to a restaurant or a pub and eat and drink like other grown ups who manage to do both in moderation. And as a result I am forced to cage myself into this cage of starvation. Pacing and drooling.
I need to rethink that and say to myself that as an adult, I am CHOOSING to allow my body to use up some of it's excess fat because I am CHOOSING to be healthier, CHOOSING to feel more comfortable in my own skin, and CHOOSING to wear, ultimately, that pair of size 10 skinnies again. I need to think that I have this OPPORTUNITY on a VLCD, and isn't it great luck and fortunate that not only such things are now available to me, but I have found one that is reasonably priced, and I am saving a shed load of money by not shelling out on all the cooked breakfasts and takeaways, wine and general rubbish I usually scoff during the average week. It's all good. I'm CHOOSING not to order that pizza because, frankly, I'll feel like rubbish before during and after eating it, it will plug the gap only for a very short time and I'll feel just the same within a day or two afterwards, and besides, why would I want to when I have this cool opportunity to lose some weight rapidly and feel so much healthier and better about myself.
There is a thin line between berating myself (e.g.:"You are lucky and not appreciating it, you spoilt, miserable, fat sod"- my usual inner critic) and slapping myself on the back and saying "you're doing so well. keep it up! go for it, girl!" I'm so not used to doing the latter.
That said, I do like moaning. I hope I don't pee anyone off by moaning too much here.