Sometimes you have to be your own hero

[jo-85]

We are booking it all very very soon!
I had 2 starbucks on my birthday. Iced Coffee frapp with soy milk, no whipped cream.
So not AS bad as it could have been since I didn't have a cake!
We walked around Reading for a couple hours on monday (my birthday) and
I went swimming for about an hour yesterday and I'm going to be walking for about 15/20 minutes today but
Weigh in tonight and I'm terrified I'm going to gain. But either way I'm going to face up to the scales and stay for class.
This week has been MAJOR syns and I'm just glad it's over with.
It's been a tough week.
I really wanted to start smoking again but didn't.
My bipolar is acting up and i'm going through a depressive phase.
Just all kinds of crazy stuff.
Time to put my head back on!

Well could have been better but could have been worse, birthdays are once a year so now it's about being back on plan

Well done for resisting having a smoke I know that feeling too I don't smoke consistently but when stressed etc it's the first thing I turn too!!

How was WI?

Hope that you can sort things out re your bipolar I work in MH and have family members who suffer with other MH problems so I know how hard it can be and how once the spiral starts how hard it can be to nip it in the bud x

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[ushotmedown]

I put on 1.5lbs but that was better than I expected.
The last week has been terrible mentally.
I just need to try and pull myself out of it.
I hate it, I just don't feel like i'm worth anyone or anything.