laurab53
Full Member
Hi Everyone
Thought I would start a diary as it might help me keep on track! I joined SW again in January for the 3rd time. Joined last January too and managed to lose just over a stone but by the end of the year my total weight loss was 6lb lol! So went back after xmas and it was cheaper for me to re-join than pay for missed weeks. Anway, got up to 7.5lb weight loss in first month but since then I had a 2 week break and put on 5lb, then lost 3lb then put that 3lb back on a again! So I am back to a 2.5lb total loss and we're 2 months into the year!!
So I need a bit of a kick up the bum to get going again. So far I have been really good this week. Asked my leader for some SAS logs as I have filled one in once and found it reallly useful. He gave me them for the week but said they wouldn't really help me as I already know what the problem is. The problem is sometimes I have a blip and start to eat rubbish inbetween meals and can't seem to stop myself. For instance I'll be at work armed with my supplies of syn free snacks for the day but I'll get it into my head that I want a chocolate bar so I'll go over to our tuck shop in the office and get one. But I won't stop there, I'll eat more and more rubbish for the rest of the day. In my head I know this is bad and that it will make me put on but I can't seem to stop myself.
In group this week we watched a DVD of success stories and while watching it I felt really emotional. In one of the stories one of the women spoke about having problems trying to conceive a baby and it made me think that if I carry on like this that could very well happen to me when that time comes. The leader didn't have time to talk to everyone individually and I was glad because at that point I thought I might start to cry if I started talking about how rubbish I'd done that week!! Anyway I had a quiet word with the leader at the end and he gave me the SAS logs.
So far I've managed to stay away from rubbish, but I worry that in a few weeks time I'll do it again. I've been dieting since I was at school and have never manged to lose more than a stone / stone and a half. And every time I join a slimming club I'm heavier than the time before. I'm 2 stone heavier now than when I met my boyfriend 7 years ago and I'm terrified that this cycle is going to continue. When I got back from WI this week I was so fed up and really felt like crying. My bf knew this and as I was watching telly downstairs he was looking through my SW magazine and when I went up to bed he announced that he'd been reading it and had found some recipes he wants to make this week! I'm really lucky to have a supportive bf, I just wish he could lose the weight for me - he's skinny as a rake!
Anyway enough rambling for now. I am feeling much more positive at the minute and have been trying to drink loads more water this week (our groups mini challenge is to drink 8 glasses a day this week). I'm just conscious that I never stay positive for that long and I don't want to get back to where I was the last few weeks. Hopefully writing this diary will help me keep the evil binges at bay!
Thanks for listening
Thought I would start a diary as it might help me keep on track! I joined SW again in January for the 3rd time. Joined last January too and managed to lose just over a stone but by the end of the year my total weight loss was 6lb lol! So went back after xmas and it was cheaper for me to re-join than pay for missed weeks. Anway, got up to 7.5lb weight loss in first month but since then I had a 2 week break and put on 5lb, then lost 3lb then put that 3lb back on a again! So I am back to a 2.5lb total loss and we're 2 months into the year!!
So I need a bit of a kick up the bum to get going again. So far I have been really good this week. Asked my leader for some SAS logs as I have filled one in once and found it reallly useful. He gave me them for the week but said they wouldn't really help me as I already know what the problem is. The problem is sometimes I have a blip and start to eat rubbish inbetween meals and can't seem to stop myself. For instance I'll be at work armed with my supplies of syn free snacks for the day but I'll get it into my head that I want a chocolate bar so I'll go over to our tuck shop in the office and get one. But I won't stop there, I'll eat more and more rubbish for the rest of the day. In my head I know this is bad and that it will make me put on but I can't seem to stop myself.
In group this week we watched a DVD of success stories and while watching it I felt really emotional. In one of the stories one of the women spoke about having problems trying to conceive a baby and it made me think that if I carry on like this that could very well happen to me when that time comes. The leader didn't have time to talk to everyone individually and I was glad because at that point I thought I might start to cry if I started talking about how rubbish I'd done that week!! Anyway I had a quiet word with the leader at the end and he gave me the SAS logs.
So far I've managed to stay away from rubbish, but I worry that in a few weeks time I'll do it again. I've been dieting since I was at school and have never manged to lose more than a stone / stone and a half. And every time I join a slimming club I'm heavier than the time before. I'm 2 stone heavier now than when I met my boyfriend 7 years ago and I'm terrified that this cycle is going to continue. When I got back from WI this week I was so fed up and really felt like crying. My bf knew this and as I was watching telly downstairs he was looking through my SW magazine and when I went up to bed he announced that he'd been reading it and had found some recipes he wants to make this week! I'm really lucky to have a supportive bf, I just wish he could lose the weight for me - he's skinny as a rake!
Anyway enough rambling for now. I am feeling much more positive at the minute and have been trying to drink loads more water this week (our groups mini challenge is to drink 8 glasses a day this week). I'm just conscious that I never stay positive for that long and I don't want to get back to where I was the last few weeks. Hopefully writing this diary will help me keep the evil binges at bay!
Thanks for listening