Trefoil
Gold Member
Hi Everyone,
Just looking for a bit of advice really.
I have done weight watchers 4 times, SW 3 times, Dukan Diet and tried Calorie Counting/Eating Normally. I have never ever got to goal.
When I was younger I struggled to cope with changes, deaths and other things happening in my life and turned to food as a way out. I used to stand looking in the fridge, bite bits out of cheese blocks and hide them back in the fridge, I used to hide chocolate bars down the elasticated waistband of my jeans and under anything I was carrying, hiding the wrappers in the drawers. I used to take puddings to my room and hide the cutlery in my trousers, my parents had to count what was in the house just to make sure!
I struggle everytime I start a new diet- super motivated and then fall off the wagon a month into it and can't be bothered, then I eat myself into oblivion and feel dreadful and then start the cycle again. I can binge so easily it's untrue and the amount I can eat is truly shocking. I can eat until I have no breath left and then instantly regret it and overdo it on the exercise front! I have a major problem- in frightened about the future as I cannot ever get anywhere with my weight loss and it's worrying me. I have seen a counsellor for bits and pieces but the sessions have ended.
I have gone from binging to refusing to eat meals and relying on water and alcohol to get me through- just not sure what to do! I need to tackle this head on but I dunno what to do! Or how to get there!
I have awful stretch marks on my stomach and I feel grotesque I just need some kind of push to get me out of this rut I'm stuck in before it's too late!
I have been with my partner 6 years this year and were he to propose (highly unlikely in my opinion) I would refuse because I don't think I look or feel good enough to have that kind of commitment! I feel as if I owe it to him to lose this weight as when I met him I was nearly 50lbs lighter than I am now and I feel like a beached whale!
Sorry to write an essay but I need somewhere to put this before I go stir crazy as no one I know understands that it's not just about what I put in my mouth for me, it's definitely deep rooted and I'm at a loss as to how I can lose weight whilst I'm like this!!!
Thanks
Ruth
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Just looking for a bit of advice really.
I have done weight watchers 4 times, SW 3 times, Dukan Diet and tried Calorie Counting/Eating Normally. I have never ever got to goal.
When I was younger I struggled to cope with changes, deaths and other things happening in my life and turned to food as a way out. I used to stand looking in the fridge, bite bits out of cheese blocks and hide them back in the fridge, I used to hide chocolate bars down the elasticated waistband of my jeans and under anything I was carrying, hiding the wrappers in the drawers. I used to take puddings to my room and hide the cutlery in my trousers, my parents had to count what was in the house just to make sure!
I struggle everytime I start a new diet- super motivated and then fall off the wagon a month into it and can't be bothered, then I eat myself into oblivion and feel dreadful and then start the cycle again. I can binge so easily it's untrue and the amount I can eat is truly shocking. I can eat until I have no breath left and then instantly regret it and overdo it on the exercise front! I have a major problem- in frightened about the future as I cannot ever get anywhere with my weight loss and it's worrying me. I have seen a counsellor for bits and pieces but the sessions have ended.
I have gone from binging to refusing to eat meals and relying on water and alcohol to get me through- just not sure what to do! I need to tackle this head on but I dunno what to do! Or how to get there!
I have awful stretch marks on my stomach and I feel grotesque I just need some kind of push to get me out of this rut I'm stuck in before it's too late!
I have been with my partner 6 years this year and were he to propose (highly unlikely in my opinion) I would refuse because I don't think I look or feel good enough to have that kind of commitment! I feel as if I owe it to him to lose this weight as when I met him I was nearly 50lbs lighter than I am now and I feel like a beached whale!
Sorry to write an essay but I need somewhere to put this before I go stir crazy as no one I know understands that it's not just about what I put in my mouth for me, it's definitely deep rooted and I'm at a loss as to how I can lose weight whilst I'm like this!!!
Thanks
Ruth
X