Angie, just wrote a massive post and lost it, despite trying to copy and paste it, I have to go, but basically it said ,your not alone, I know thats not much comfort, but your not my darling, we need to find a way to work together to find a way to get over this, huggles lovely lady.
Some of it is below
Angie, darling, I dont think I could understand more if I tried, its impossible or seems it,but we have to find a way to cope with food and the fact that it will be in our lives forever, much easier said than done.
I was much happier and go lucky when I was fatter,and a much nicer person, maybe it was because I felt I had to try harder for acceptance, now Iam a tearful, emotional wreck of a woman, begging for it all to end, I will tell you my theory, if I die, in 6 months I'll just be a bag of bones,just like i always wanted , but most days I dont see the point of any of it, not a damn thing.
When I was fat, i used to get very depressed,but i had a focus then, how could I be happy being so big, so there was a reason for the depression, that reason has gone, but the saddness is stronger than ever.
The weight clearly wasnt the problem,it didnt help,but its something deeper in me, and I remember debs saying something simiular.
We all need to learn to live again in a way,the way I coped with stress, saddness, was food thats gone, ohhhhhh sorry Just want you to know your not alone, and cant put into words that there must be a way to work this out.
