Enough
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I just made the disasterous mistake of telling someone at work..
I've had no problem telling anyone else... family and friends are supportive, OH has been brilliant and is happily cooking his own meals etc...
now, I know this is about me not her... when you write the conversation down on paper, she's not said anything wrong... but when she told me that her friend had gone on the CD, I didn't feel able to keep it to myself, so I told her I'm on it too... and instantly regretted it! I felt Vulnerable, Judged, Criticised.. I feel at risk of it being talked about amongst others in a gossip/derriding way.. there's no reason to suggest she would do any of these things.. she doesn't tend to.. it's MY INSECURITIES... but I haven't felt this about telling anyone else..
her only comments have been:
"it doesn't sound very healthy"
"it's much better to go to weight watchers and learn how to look after yourself properly"
and:
"Your body's clearly not getting enough nutrients or calaries, otherwise you wouldn't have that coldsore."
(DOES SHE HONESTLY THINK I'VE NEVER BEEN TO WEIGHTWATCHERS??? OR THAT I BELIEVE IT IS HEALTHIER TO EAT LARD THAN FRESH FRUIT AND VEGETABLES???!)
I feel annoyed/insulted/upset.. and strangely violated in some way, like she's found my deepest insecurities and poked them with a big sharp stick!
It's not like I have any other vices.. comfort eating has been a gradual reaction to distress developed subtly over many years..
I ended up saying to her "I'm not sure I want to talk about this", she said "well you brought it up".. "Yes, I guess I could have kept it to myself when you mentioned your friend, but I'm not feeling comfortable talking about it"
I'm HOPING that things will simply return to normal, but I'm feeling really uncomfortable...
Just thought I'd share!
Right - end of lunch break... back to work!!
x
I've had no problem telling anyone else... family and friends are supportive, OH has been brilliant and is happily cooking his own meals etc...
now, I know this is about me not her... when you write the conversation down on paper, she's not said anything wrong... but when she told me that her friend had gone on the CD, I didn't feel able to keep it to myself, so I told her I'm on it too... and instantly regretted it! I felt Vulnerable, Judged, Criticised.. I feel at risk of it being talked about amongst others in a gossip/derriding way.. there's no reason to suggest she would do any of these things.. she doesn't tend to.. it's MY INSECURITIES... but I haven't felt this about telling anyone else..
her only comments have been:
"it doesn't sound very healthy"
"it's much better to go to weight watchers and learn how to look after yourself properly"
and:
"Your body's clearly not getting enough nutrients or calaries, otherwise you wouldn't have that coldsore."
(DOES SHE HONESTLY THINK I'VE NEVER BEEN TO WEIGHTWATCHERS??? OR THAT I BELIEVE IT IS HEALTHIER TO EAT LARD THAN FRESH FRUIT AND VEGETABLES???!)
I feel annoyed/insulted/upset.. and strangely violated in some way, like she's found my deepest insecurities and poked them with a big sharp stick!
It's not like I have any other vices.. comfort eating has been a gradual reaction to distress developed subtly over many years..
I ended up saying to her "I'm not sure I want to talk about this", she said "well you brought it up".. "Yes, I guess I could have kept it to myself when you mentioned your friend, but I'm not feeling comfortable talking about it"
I'm HOPING that things will simply return to normal, but I'm feeling really uncomfortable...
Just thought I'd share!
Right - end of lunch break... back to work!!
x