Hey everyone -
Sorry I joined then went awol. Im having a few internet connection problems, but they should be resolved now!
Its so nice being part of a team - havent ever done that before. Its so nioce to have some background on each other too.
Ive made some friends from the last time I did it but they are mainly over in maintenance now so it would be nice to have some mates that are ssing or ss+ ing.
This is my 3rd time of doing the diet and the next bit is my background (sorry if it goes on forever!)
I am a classic yo-yo dieter and am absolutely fantastic at diets as Im an all or nothing kind of girl, but its the keeping the weight off I cant do hence the yo-yoing. Its the classic of I have been deprived on my diet so need to make up for it now Im off the diet.
So this time it is going to be different!
Ever since I was a young girl I was a little bit overweight. So my childhood was spent doing one diet after another to lose about a stone to get to healthy weight range and then the crunch came at 19 when I was told at 11st 7 I was too fat to start my nurse training and I would only be allowed to start if I was 10st or under. (Healthy Weight range for me is 8.1 to 10.1)
So from the Feb to the September I lost the weight and started my training (and no-one weighed me which really peed me off) and being away from home relished the delights of student life!!!
Over the next 3 years of my training I was on one diet or another and weight was swinging anywhere between 11.7 and 13.7 Once my training ended I was 11.7 and I came home and proceeded to put weight on (AGAIN) and yo-yoed up to 13.6 and then a friend was getting married so dieted again down to 11st.
And as the story goes again after the wedding I put about a stone on and then lost weight for the millennium and managed to get down to 10st 4 which was my lowest in 7 years.
As usual once the occasion was over I put weight on again and went up to about 12.7 and then we set a date for our wedding in 2001 and got down to 11.5
Then I got pregnant with DD (honeymoon baby) and put 5st on as I ate for 22 never mind 2! I lost 3st of that weight and then got pregnant with DS 10months after she was born and was determined I wasn’t going to put as much weight on and was a bit more careful what I ate and only put 4 st on, so was pleased with that!
6wks after he was born I went back to WW and got all the weight off (6st from the day before he was born) My goal had been for his first birthday that I was back at my wedding weight pre-babies and I did it.:family2:
Unfortunately I then had a horrendously stressful year at work and put 3st on and undid all the hard work!:cry::cry:
Then in October 2005 I started LL which changed over to CD in Jan 06. It was the best diet I had ever done and was like an epiphany moment of why was food ruling my life etc etc,
but because I didn’t have proper CBT with the LL leader cos she was crap, all my old habits returned once off the diet. I also didn’t do maintenance properly either which didn’t help.
Then in September 06 my Mum offered to pay for a tummy tuck as I couldn’t get it on the NHS in my area as I had put 2st on after finishing the diet. So I had it done in Nov 06 as my tummy was horrendous hanging down and was NEVER going to go back as my muscles needed repairing too.
You would think that would make me keep the weight off but no – probably subconsciously because I hadn’t been at goal when I had the tummy tuck my emotional heating habits returned.
Once back at work I was involved in a major incident and investigation (not about me) and proceeded to put on about 2st as I comfort ate to get through it. Then I spent Sept 07 – 08 doing a course and put on another 1½ st and started a new job, and I had got to my heaviest non-pregnant ever at 15.7
So in Jan 09 I started back at WW and lost half a stone and thought it needs to come off quicker for my holiday in June I need to do CD again. So Feb 5th I started CD and by my holiday I had lost 4st which I was proud of, but annoyed at myself as I took the scenic route by having planned meals off and weekends off. I could never recapture that original enthusiasm and determination like the first time I did it.
The diet took more of a toll on my life the 2nd time, it was affecting my moods beyond belief
Over the next few months I put on about a stone and then something kicked off at home with HB and I proceeded to put on 3st in the last 3 months so here I am back at the beginning again at 15st and needing to lose 5st to get to a healthy weight range.
Im hoping by being in a team we can all support one another and with me being an old hand at it will be able to help point people in the right direction but also you can all give me a kick up the ar*e when I need it.
Look forward to getting to know you all better.
I did start on Monday so my WI day is a mon morning but dont know whether to change it to a weds evening to keep it the same as everyone else.
Im swinging between ss and ss+ days as somtimes I feel like I need chicken to get throught the day and doing ss+ is better than eating somet I shouldnt.
Ive had 2 shakes 1 cup of tea, 500ml water and some chicken and then will have my shake at teatime. AM very naughty am terrible at having water but will try to get some more down me as I know the more you drink the more you shrink!
keep up the good work everyone
xxx
