i'm here for you Gem, don't give into the ready brek. You have been here before (several times I think if you look back) - at this point you dont' know whats going to happen, and your a strong woman able to deal with what gets thrown at you. I know its hard, and yes you may well stumble along the way but you will come out the other end whatever happens. You can't control what Mike does but you can be in control of what you do, start by staying strong and dealing with what comes up a bit at a time. PM me if you want to chat and i'll give you my number
I'm around all day (was going to moan about the amount of work to do but thats nothing in comparison to what youve got going on
You've every right to go out tonight, you've respected him by telling him your plans, you weren't asking for permission just informing him. Nothing stopping him going out. He should be glad that you have a support network outside your relationship . J xxx