Ok well I have been off the diet 3 weeks now, 2 weeks of it planned and this last night out of pure not wanting to go back on it again ! I had a all inclusive holiday whereby I totally let go, I knew I would so didn't pretend to myself that I wasn't going to do anything different. But what I'm cheesed off is, the way I have behaved since I have been home. I have binged and binged and binged, just no stopping me. I feel that I have hit the self destruct button, I keep making excuses to not starting, the current one is that it is Mother's Day next weekend and i have a really busy week at work so dont need to be distracted by it. i haven't weighed myself but I know I have put on at least a stone just by clothes no longer fitting. But I have made the decision that I will start again tomorrow. But I am dreading it, I always do until I start. I know that I will become completely obsessed, but I now have a focus. I have a wedding in 8 weeks, I have a choice, I can be 2 stone lighter or 2 stone heavier by then. The way I am out of control it will be 2 st heavier ! But DETERMINED to start again tomorrow ! Going to start to up my water today, I have this terrible mental problem that water is associated with this diet, when I'm good, I drink 3l but when I'm being bad, I just won't touch a drop. Terrible mental connection ! Anyway here is to starting agin tomorrow !