Argh. Had a rubbish day, my anxiety is through the roof today and anything sensible goes out of the window. I have had anxiety for about 8 years as well as panic attacks. I think its got worse the last few weeks due to stress I've been feeling at work, as well as losing sunlight hours and clocks going back this weekend which usually sets me off. (I have really awful Seasonal Affective Disorder) To be fair, my anxiety levels this year have been really low, and I've not been on medication either, so I've done well. Tried to get a doctor's appointment but there's none except emergency appointments until November so am going to ring early doors on Thursday and hopefully get an emergency appointment with the GP. I'm having an early night tonight, am already in bed with some sleeping tablets and a film, hopefully will have a decent night's kip before work tomorrow.
I'm hoping with all the changes at work that my worries and anxieties around my job will reduce enough or even disappear. Its such a stressful job, but at least now i'll only be working two days a week (with optional overtime) so I can focus the other 5 days on good things like my allotment, music, house etc etc. The only time I felt good today was when I was on my allotment in the mud, even though it was pissing down with rain
distraction is the greatest cure
Foods not been great today, have gone way over my syns. I think I'll be OK once I've seen the GP, even if its just a reassuring chat to put my mind at rest. I used to sit in this state of turmoil for months as i didn't want to be a hyperchodriac, but actually it used to cost the drs more time in the long run then me going in and 'nipping it in the bud'. I'm not keen on going on medication again, but would like to just see what other options there are and just get checked over. arghhhhh stupid mind
pretty sure I'll be set up for a gain this week but ahh well. theres always next week!
