Hi everyone, I realized that I've been really rude, I mean not being online and checking up on you guys on how you are all doing. That was really selfish of me. I hope you are all doing great, and by the looks of it, it seems you are all doing great, much better than me . By the looks of things, I was eating mostly from boredom, I've gone back to my lazy self again too. You know, going through LT, I would of thought that I wouldn't want to go back to my old self and yet I just couldn't stop myself from picking, eating things without thinking and just eating for the sake of eating. I'm not sure if I was also eating from stress, I mean I'm not one to eat when stressed, but then again, I have never in my life, binged like this before. I guess in a way I was testing myself to see if I could enjoy things like choc as part of a balanced diet, but from my experience, it looks like i can't. One bite of it and I'm hooked, I can't settle for just one piece, I have to have the whole bloody lot . I may just have to cut it out completely, but if I do that, I may just go on another binge because I feel restricted. It's so confusing!! I want it but I can't trust myself with it. I think when I am allowed a certain type of food, I give myself the excuse that because I'm allowed it, I can have as much of it as I want. Like the time when I binged on fruit. I had about 5 mangos in about 1 hour. I've also gone back to picking. But I was picking things like strawberries, but I had a whole box of it. God I'm terrible. To add to my worries, I'm going to Morocco on the 21st of July and I really needed to get rid of the weight that I put on. Even though others say that I don't look different, I know there has been an increase in fat as my trousers have gotten tighter. So the plan is, LT for 3 weeks, with exercise, and refeed for two weeks. But another thing worries me, it's the food that my aunt cooks for the family. We usually eat from a very large moroccan plat and we all share from it. We eat lots of fish, meat, chicken and lamb. It's tradition, culture, so it can't be changed. I mean it would be so rude for me to ask for different meals. We also eat bread at 2 meal times, we have to as it's part of our culture to do so. Maybe if I just try eating only when I'm hungry and stop when I'm full might help, I'm not exactly sure. But I am also so active there, I go out a lot and go to the beach, swim for about 5 hours everyday. I usually lose 1 stone every year, this is before dieting, would i get the same effect even though I've been on TFR? Anyways, I hope you are all fine. Thank you all for your concerns it's really sweet. And Mary, welcome back, I hope you had a fab holiday .