Short/Sweet
Full Member
I know its stupid, but im wishing the next few years to fly by, In a perfect world I would lose the weight in a day be married and pregnant by next week.
Ive had enough of being the fat one, atm im practically too scared to go outside to the beach as i know everyone there will have beach toned bodies in skimpy bikinis. I currently reside in Newquay, Cornwall. It is the start of the summer season, students, stag dos, hen night and families flock here for the brilliant sunshine and its epic beaches. I know the beaches will be full, I know there will be nowhere to hide. Today has been my first day off in a while, yet im just staying indoors..
I wish I had the confidence to just stroll out in nice summer clothes and lie on the beach getting a tan, not have to worry about what others are thinking about me.
Also I've been broody for about a year now, I love the idea of being surrounded by my own little family, but I dont want to be a fat mum, I want to be healthy for my child, be able to run around with him/her, take them swimming etc but at this size I would not be able to.
It disheartens me to think that I will not be able to even try for a little one for at the very least another 2 years. OH wants to get married before having children and I refuse to get married until im at a better happier weight.
Why can't time go faster!? :sigh:
Ive had enough of being the fat one, atm im practically too scared to go outside to the beach as i know everyone there will have beach toned bodies in skimpy bikinis. I currently reside in Newquay, Cornwall. It is the start of the summer season, students, stag dos, hen night and families flock here for the brilliant sunshine and its epic beaches. I know the beaches will be full, I know there will be nowhere to hide. Today has been my first day off in a while, yet im just staying indoors..
I wish I had the confidence to just stroll out in nice summer clothes and lie on the beach getting a tan, not have to worry about what others are thinking about me.
Also I've been broody for about a year now, I love the idea of being surrounded by my own little family, but I dont want to be a fat mum, I want to be healthy for my child, be able to run around with him/her, take them swimming etc but at this size I would not be able to.
It disheartens me to think that I will not be able to even try for a little one for at the very least another 2 years. OH wants to get married before having children and I refuse to get married until im at a better happier weight.
Why can't time go faster!? :sigh: