I can relate to every single comment made here. I recognise myself in everything that has been said, confidence, health, being able to buy cheaper clothes, blending in, embarrassment. For me, when I initially started this thread, it was like facing up to my fears. I have always ignored my thoughts and feelings as I didn't like what I saw. As I said, no photos of me exist in the house as I didn't like what I saw, and if I didn't see it, I didn't need to worry. I know the problem won't go away and it was up to me to change my eating habits.
I have more confidence now. I am on a journey and I am halfway there. We are all on this journey together, but what I needed to do was to face up to the truth and admit to myself what my fears were and how I truly felt. I've now done that and don't feel embarassed about what I've written as I know I am not alone.
Thanks guys, you're going to make my journey that bit easier as I know I have you with me every step of the way x