I've was an average weight child, then at secondary school I wasn't average anymore, I needed the bra before all my classmates did (and the support knickers!), basically I hit the puberty and shot out everywhere!:sigh:
Kept growing and then lost weight and then gained, lost, you know the score.....and then met my soon to be ex hubby, fell in love, got pregnant after three years of horrible infertility problems after losing almost three stone at SW, got married, had another miracle baby (missed pill), and then lost again, then got fed up and lonely and ate as my friends all waned off to their apartments and their jobs and their social lives!
And 'he' drank and I got more isolated than ever!
Late last year had a bad time healthwise with gallbladder probs and breathing/chest pains and then the ultimate fear.....a breast cancer scare, the dreaded lump that took on and off four months to give me the all clear....as one lump would disappear a new one would emerge. At one of my consultants appointments the Doctor who was sooooo blunt and tactless he would make FTT seem like ' a new man' (no offence, just a reference!) told me to 'go home and lose the five year old child that you are carrying around on your back'.......i.e. "Hey, Fat Slob, lose the tyres!"
(TBF, I needed to lose a twelve year old!)
Being the stubborn woman that I am pigged myself sensless for four months before deciding to get on and do something positive....I also wanted my confidence back, summer was approaching and my kids need a healthy mum, not the memories of one that died in their childhood, so here I am and going downwards in body size, but upwards in self esteem and happiness!
Lisa xx