Yeah I agree that can be quite disheartening, I lost loads the first week and am now on day 5 of second week and have only lost about 1.5 lbs, so nowhere near as good as first week
but still, a loss is a loss and if I were doing SW or WW I'd be over the moon-- and I still have 2 days to go, so who knows...
I am also doing working solution, not total solution, I just know that I wouldn't stick to total simply because I have quite a sociable life and go out a bit, and also I have a 2.5 year old that I like to sit down and have meals with (in the evening, at lunch he's at nursery) so that he doesn't grow up with any of my freaky eating habits!
It's weird, I can still remember my own mum just living off slim fast shakes for weeks on end when I was little, she wouldn't have meals with me and my dad, just drink these revolting shakes. I know she never meant to traumatise me (hahaha) but I honestly remember thinking "is she crazy?" and now here I am, doing the same!!
So yeah, I don't want my son to realise what's going on. My plan is to lose the weight and then go on to a strong maintenance plan and keep it off forever, without really talking about it, making an issue of food, or yoyo dieting, if you know what I mean...
Basically, I know my mum would be mortified if she knew I think this but I reckon a lot of my eating issues come from her. She has been on a constant diet my whole entire life, and tells us every day (and has always done this) how fat and disgusting she is. The crazy thing is that my mum has never been bigger than a 14, maybe a 16 at a stretch after having my sister, but even that isn't really what I'd call 'fat and disgusting'! But in her mind, she is this massive fat thing, and she constantly obsesses about her diet, and slimming down for this, that or the other.
For years growing up I just assumed my mum was fat, because she told us so often! One day we were looking back at old photos and I just realised she had actually never been fat! All those years she has wasted (and still does) thinking how minging she is, when she was (and is) actually lovely... Really sad and brought tears to my eyes when I realised...
So anyway, my mum did put me on a diet when I was a teenager (and I wasn't actually fat, only 58 kilos at 15) which began the endless cycle I'm breaking out of now, at 35... Oh dear! Don't get me wrong, ive had a load of fun over the years and ive been slim a few times too, and I don't think I'm delusional like my mum (although I have my moments hahaha) but now is the time to put an end to this, definitively. Otherwise I'll be 65 and telling everyone how rancid I am-- no way! I'm gonna be a hot mama!
How about you guys? Have your parents (even inadvertently) affected your weight?
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