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Why I am Doing This & Why I Must Stop Mucking About!!!

#1
Yesterday was a very bad day for me, in lots of ways (not diet related) and as I have been picking at food for a week or so, it was no biggie for me to justify to myself eating food and drinking wine.

The thing is that last night I had a bit of a think and I really looked at things from the other side. I am usually thinking in terms of what I want to achieve by doing this but last night I received a wake up call about what this is actually costing me by messing about.

So here are costs I have been considering:

1. Financial
The initial costs of doing LL and get to goal for me were £1584 for food packs, plus all the extras I purchased such as water flavourings.

It is exactly a year since I moved back to Wales and since then I have spent approximately £2940 on VLCDs. Crikey!!! :eek: Sh!t :eek: and B*gger!!!!:eek:.

For all that money I am still 3 and a half stone overweight, so if I follow the program properly it is still going to cost me over £500 to get to goal!!!

I have scared myself silly by the financial implications!!!

The thing is that I am so upset because I have something that I want very badly at the moment but don't have ready cash to hand to implement it as soon as I would like. I should be able to get things going shortly but whilst you should never have regrets, it's not easy to think about the if onlies in terms of money I could have saved.

2. Clothing
I was ironing today and I was fantasising about all the lovely clothes that I have in suitcases that are too small for me. There are some lovely items that made me feel so special when I wore them last year. Today they are gathering dust and I am making do with baggy black items again (most of which I have had to buy - again another financial implication). The cost is making do and lacking confidence in my current outfits.

3. Health
Surely I can not be doing my body any good by going into and coming out of ketosis all the time. What will be the long term implications if I don't just get this over and done with? Who knows what effect it is having on my body and I really don't want to be finding out!!!!

So know having scared myself sh!tless I will print this off and read it as a reminder every time I want to eat!

Today I have had a pack, 2 litres of water and some coffee. I can do this, I know I can!!!
 
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#2
Wow, after my hols last week thats really made me sit up and listen !!!!!!!
I think I needed that, so thanks.
I hope you get to where you want to be soon x x x
 

DQ

Queen of the Damned
#3
Wow, Sarah, that is some powerful motivation you got going there - go girl!! :wow:
 

MsJMC

Strong women stay slim
#5
Hi Sarah
I have been like what you are saying there , this is my restart . Since April this has been going on for me , so i made the phone call to CDC and started on thursday . I think its a case of being in the frame of mind and you know whats ahead of you its not an easy diet thats why you get fast results . You have to really think whats it to be ? Keep with it till the end or cheat and LL , see thats what i was doing . Its not going to be easy i find the days long on this too , arrrrr hehe anyway good luck girl
 
#6
Last Friday when I went to my weigh in , I weighed the same again as the week before. I had done the same as you-sometimes sticking to it fully then letting everything overtake me, including eating for others pleasure in cooking for me. I was told to be more selfish and so far this has worked. I am aware that sometimes we blame others for our eating when really it is our own choice, but every time I want to put something in my mouth that is not Cambridge I am trying to make myself stop and think about what I want. Good luck-it is a lot of money but hopefully now you have written it down it will remotivate you. PS The other thing I have redone is started the 100 day countdown [I used to be on Lighterlife and wrote every day in a diary for the 100 days-including what I was wearing and how it felt. Then deliberately wearing the same outfit a few days later to feel the difference]
 
#7
It sounds like you've had a good long hard think about it all Sarah and you are right, when you see it infront of you in black and white, it does look quite scarey!

The financial part is worrying - god knows how much i've spent over the years with my yo - yoing - ww, sw, rosemary conley, diet pills etc etc. This must be the last time for me.

I think its really good to sit down and take a moment to reflect upon everything - its very brave too so well done to you.

I know you will see this through to the end Sarah

xxx
 
#8
Hi Sarah,

Written down like that it is very powerful.... I'm sure that will help you keep your eye on the ball... might sit down and look at how much i've spent in the last 12 months!!!!

Nas x
 
#9
Hi Sarah
I have been like what you are saying there , this is my restart . Since April this has been going on for me , so i made the phone call to CDC and started on thursday . I think its a case of being in the frame of mind and you know whats ahead of you its not an easy diet thats why you get fast results . You have to really think whats it to be ? Keep with it till the end or cheat and LL , see thats what i was doing . Its not going to be easy i find the days long on this too , arrrrr hehe anyway good luck girl
Good luck with your restart too Missleo.

This is definately a diet of the mind rather than the body and the right frame of mind is essential!

We can do this!!!
 
#11
Last Friday when I went to my weigh in , I weighed the same again as the week before. I had done the same as you-sometimes sticking to it fully then letting everything overtake me, including eating for others pleasure in cooking for me. I was told to be more selfish and so far this has worked. I am aware that sometimes we blame others for our eating when really it is our own choice, but every time I want to put something in my mouth that is not Cambridge I am trying to make myself stop and think about what I want. Good luck-it is a lot of money but hopefully now you have written it down it will remotivate you. PS The other thing I have redone is started the 100 day countdown [I used to be on Lighterlife and wrote every day in a diary for the 100 days-including what I was wearing and how it felt. Then deliberately wearing the same outfit a few days later to feel the difference]
Thanks Lisa, very good points there. I have blamed lots of things in the past for my struggles but when it comes down to it, it is about me and my choices.

As an ex LLer I did a 100 day countdown thingy when I started Cambridge but fell of the wagon so much I found it demotivating. However I had a break from all programmes in June and it helped me regain my focus.

Perhaps it's time to reinstate it. I used to write in my diary every singe day with my progress, with photos. I loved your idea about wearing an outfit then wearing it a few days later. I think I will adopt that one!!
 
#12
It sounds like you've had a good long hard think about it all Sarah and you are right, when you see it infront of you in black and white, it does look quite scarey!

The financial part is worrying - god knows how much i've spent over the years with my yo - yoing - ww, sw, rosemary conley, diet pills etc etc. This must be the last time for me.

I think its really good to sit down and take a moment to reflect upon everything - its very brave too so well done to you.

I know you will see this through to the end Sarah

xxx
Thanks Jodie, can't hide from the truth forever can you!

It's been a bit of a wake up call for me this weekend and the financial side is not something I really thought much about (well as a priority in my reasons for doing this anyway). When doing LL last year the money was well spent because I was literally saving money because I could easily spend a fortune on foods every day (lunches, chocolates, alcohol etc).

In my opinion, although this diet isn't cheap, it was certainly cheaper for me than any other diet I had done (I used to buy every WW branded product going when I did that, spend loads on other healthy things then fall of the wagon, eat junk and end up having to throw all those nice fresh healthy foods away, untouched).

However the frightening thing for me is the sheer waste of money at the moment - spending so much every week for not losing any weight at all, and putting myself through the hell of being (mostly) abstinent!!! Then the stress because I feel like a failure because I've cheated.

Ah well, it must stop here!!!
 
#13
Hi Sarah,

Written down like that it is very powerful.... I'm sure that will help you keep your eye on the ball... might sit down and look at how much i've spent in the last 12 months!!!!

Nas x
It is powerful isn't it!

However don't frighten yourself unnecessarily though by adding it all up ;)
 

Sez

has started again!!
#14
This is a brilliant thread so thanks to everyone who has posted. I am in a similar boat . Just mucking about,binging, promisng myself that this is the last time, I WILL be good now etc etc. THen I just loathe myself afterwards. I think that sitting down taking stock both mentally, physically and financially is a great idea.

This may well have a been another of those "I needed that " kicks up the bum......Thanks!!!
 
#15
This is a brilliant thread so thanks to everyone who has posted. I am in a similar boat . Just mucking about,binging, promisng myself that this is the last time, I WILL be good now etc etc. THen I just loathe myself afterwards. I think that sitting down taking stock both mentally, physically and financially is a great idea.

This may well have a been another of those "I needed that " kicks up the bum......Thanks!!!
I hope it works for you, it's certainly made me think by working out the figures. I definately needed a kick up the bum!!!
 
#16
Well this afternoon I have been up in the loft and brought down the 2 suitcases filled with clothes that are too small.

I had a bit of a root through them and picked a selection of those I love best and I have photographed them to remind me of how I have such gorgeous clothes just sitting there waiting for me to get myself into gear!
 
#17
Sarah you're a complete gem...I think you've just given me in black and white everything I've ignored for too long.

I was having a moan on the phone to an very good friend this morning and I was saying how much it was doing my head in just taking off and putting on the same few pounds.

After much discussion I've decided I'm going to commit to 1 month, my CB goes into gobby mode if I think of the final target!!! So hopefully with a short term target in mind I may just be able to get going again.
Reading your thread has really been so thought provoking.
Thank you for posting it. I think I should print it out and stick it in my diary too!

K xxx
 

pandora

finding my way again !
#18
gosh hun that really is thought provoking stuff & hopefully what you need to keep you motivated.
The clothes thing is one of the reasons i need to get this sorted, i can't afford & refuse to buy bigger clothes, to me that is walking backwards, & the way i want to go is foreward.
like the ide of photographing the motivational item, perhapse write how you felt in them too !
xx :)
 
#19
I'm sorry for being sad for adding this up but in the search for the "holy grail" I have also calculated that I have spent the following on "self help" in the last 6 months:

Self Help Books: £207
Life Coach: £100
Beyond Chocolate Course: £150

Gosh the costs keep on mounting, which is very scary when I know exactly what to do and how to do it!!

PS: Lisa thanks for the tip on the 100 days - I have used a nice note book and have started to note my outfits as well.
 

MsJMC

Strong women stay slim
#20
Yes ! Sarah you will have that frame of mind again , no one can say when but when it comes grab it hold on to it and by xmas you can be free of saying diets, then watch what we eat . Its day 5 for me today , I did have the a bad turn with the loo huh , but after that i felt really that i can could this . My worst time is really 3-5 i start to feel hungry and after that i'm ok . You can do this sarah and you will ! Best of luck . Post us how you are doing also
 


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