**UPDATE** found out we are pregnant on 30/09/13, so weight loss is on hiatus. will only be attempting healthy maintenance and minimal gain over the pregnancy. you see, 25kg doesn't sound like a lot and i need to take this seriously, for the sake of my knees, back, hips... and my small child, who needs an active momma. so i'm counting in lbs, even though i do my weigh-ins in kg. losing 2lb is more encouraging than losing *nearly* 1kg, after all. to the pedants - don't rage. i rarely use initial capitals. this is choice, not ignorance. now that's out of the way (and before my 10-week-old son wakes up), a little bit about me: i'm 31, married, a new mom, and ooooooh autosave! easily distracted. that said, i find it easier to diet than most - i can calorie count and stick to it... it's just coming out at the other end where i fall down, so this needs to NOT be a diet. this needs to be a sustainable way of eating for now and forever. building new habits and breaking old ones, knowing my boundaries, cheating my metabolism but not cheating myself. my diet is loosely based on slim fast - if my breakfast or lunch options are over 230cal, i'll have a shake instead. dinner i try and keep to 600cal, snacks to less than 300cal a day; i try to get at least 5 portions of fruit/veg including fruit juices and dried fruits, though my goal is 7 portions this often clashes with the calorie count (this stands at 1500 currently). my base metabolic rate according to myfitnesspal.com is ~1700 so i'm doing my best to only go through 1500cal on a bad day, 1300cal where at all possible on most days. :sigh: my real struggle is exercise. i tried going out walking, pushing my wee boy in his pram... and then it got cold. bitterly cold. i don't have the clothes to keep me warm and i'll be damned if i'm buying clothes that will (WILL) be too big for me in the next 9 months just so i can get out in this godforsaken weather. so i'm doing housework instead. oh, life you are so cruel to me! you see, i also hate housework. but hey, 29 mins burns me 100cal, so i'll bloody do it. grr arg. and i'll rearrange furniture - only need to do that for 14 mins for another 100cal to burn off. basically, i'm trying to fool myself into doing exercise without realising i'm doing it. my hubby and i went to our local health point, got hints and tips there about portions (i need to make 7 portions fruit/veg, 7 portions carbs, 2 portions each of dairy and protein and 3 portions of fats fit into 1500cals.... hmmmmmm....) and i registered on myfitnesspal to help me plan meals, as we are living with my mum and share the cooking responsibilities (and therefore we have no control over our dinner for 3-4 days a week, bar choosing smaller portions). portion control is something we're both getting better at, though i still despair that i can't sit with a jar of peanut butter and a teaspoon anymore, kidding myself that because it's natural it's healthy.... no, MUST CONTROL THE PORTIONS RAWR. i feel it's going well so far. we're deliberately not weighing at home, the scales are just too unreliable (you stand on them in a certain way and you miraculously lose 5kg ), so we're going to the health point every fortnight to weigh in, catch up, discuss concerns. i have a week til our next weigh in and this is the week where we are now counting calories and not JUST counting portions. oh joy. i've learned to love black coffee with sweeteners; if i can do that, i can do pretty much anything.