Dont apologise, we all need to get things off our chest. The trouble is I find with problems, its easy to cope with one or two, but when there is more than that, all the little ones group together & become one big huge problem & then its seems near on impossible to sort that huge big problem out! You need to split them up again into 'little' problems & slowly work thru each one methodically, as they will be 'fixable', just dont seem it when its huge! Does that make sense?!
Did you ever measure your thighs? Who's to say that 'chunk' is not muscle & you're becoming toned. It takes a long time & wont happen overnight, as Im sure you know! Do you need your trainer? Are you putting added stress on yourself to perform for the trainer? These are things you need to ask yourself. We are all the worst culprits of adding pressure to our already stressful lives, so why add to it?! Take a step back & think if a friend came to you with these 'problems', what would you say to her? Probably, take a step back & prioritise!
Thats one of the reasons I dont like going to class! I know on here we have little blips with food/booze, but to sit week in week out listening to the same people.......grr, does my nut in! So, why not take a break from class & see how you get on.
Sorry, I do ramble on & hope it makes sense!!! x