Well, this hospital did nothing either, just sent me away, told me to register with docot here and get referred to gynecology outpatients.
Trying to eat healthy, no idea what weight is. I was just saying to my sister seeing as nobody is doing anything about my problems really tempted to go back on sole source. Surely it is better to have these peoblems while losing weight rather than put some of it back on and still have same problems.
Yeah lose weight, change name, get new hairstyle. And maybe I should go to police commissioner seeing as so far they have done nothing and just ignored everything he has done. Trying to stay strong, praying every day that things will work out.
My friends are mad that I am so far away and that nobody has done anything about him and that hospitals are not doing anything to help me. One of my friends from home is coming to see me tomorrow and asked if I need him to get me anything. Bless him, just over 2 hours on train each way and not cheap. He is praying for me as well. Will be nice to see a familiar face. When he found out I was in hospital he dropped everything to come and see me and bought me a few nice things. Purely platonic, as in not if he was the last man on earth but a really good friend. Even my new really good neighbours are missing me. Might have a plan in the pipeline to get back home within a few months, I have a housing association flat and may be able to do an exchange with someone but he is on holiday for 2 weeks. If it works out I may still be back just in time for college which would be really great. Not in Chelmsford but near Lakeside so not too far from home. Turns out it is literally the one place in Essex that he doesn't work at the moment but he may be working there in a couple of years time, however by then I will long have lost the weight etc so hopefully he wont recognise me by then.
Don't need to worry about Facebook, he can't read and write, I hardly ever write on there, I have nobody on there that knows him, I haven't updated my location and I don't intend to for a long time.
He works indirectly for my housing association doing all the communal cleaning in all their blocks of flats, in 2 years despite everything they have never even given him an official warning, in fact it turns out they have promoted him!!! I am so mad about that. I am considering legal action as it clearly states in my tenancy agreement that no person working for or on behalf of them is allowed to harass, intimidate, threaten, abuse etc. My friends think I should take it all to the media and local MP so I am going to look into that as well.
Meanwhile I am staying out of the politics and drama in this place. All young girls, only just left their ex's and already in new relationships. Can't be dealing with it. They are going to end up in the same situation again. Just keeping my head down and myself to myself, best way to survive these places in my experiences.
Wow, day 6 now!! Told you it gets easier!!! Hlad you haven't got the bad 'voices' but if they come then tell them to shut up and F**! off!!! And when you are tempted remember now I am on the other side the grass is definitely not greener. Just your mind playing tricks on you!!
however, I definitely do not want to go backwards, feel determined to at least maintain even if I can't lose anymore. Strangely food tastes nowhere as good as the idea of it did in my head. Doesn't even smell half as good as when I was on sole source!!! Tastes weird now, feels weird eating as well. trying to not overeat, stopping at that full feeling!!! Feel stuffed for hours!!! I used to easily be able to eat like 4 sandwich, crisps and chocolate, now one sandwich leaves me full!! Not had any chocolate or crisps or anything like that. Food is making me really thirsty as well. Still sticking to water and coke zero!!! Trying to eat food really slowly because then it fills you up more and quicker anyway.
