Cariad Mawr
Member
I'm not entirely new to SW and hopefully this will be the last time I ever say that!
First weigh in last Thursday and I've hit an eye watering 18st 12lbs. Now I'm no dainty little baggage (even in my thinner years) and I have topped 19st in the past but what you see now is not what I feel like inside.
Next April I'm going to be 50. My son is about to start uni and his sister will follow suit next year. Then it'll be just me and the cats. I've spent the last 11 odd years working full time and raising them and I can just about see some light at the end of the tunnel. Not that I don't love them dearly - they are great kids - but until now my life has been about putting them first even to the extent of remaining resolutely single (although lousy self image issues ingrained by ex also contributed! ).
From a personal POV my forties were pretty much a write off although not without some good times and great friends but it really is time to get back out there and start living.
So here I go. It was an awkward weekend to start back but I knew if I didn't leap in it would be another excuse next week and the week after. I have dinner (and wine, lots of wine I'm sure) with some friends this evening. But I have to pick my daughter up at 9.30pm so have a reason to avoid alcohol until then. Goodness knows what's being prepared to eat so I'll have to take that on the chin and promise to fit in a swim at some point to atone for any transgressions later! So far today I have been spot on and not a syn has passed my lips. My book is calling to me and an early start this morning is tempting me to catch 40 winks before this evening but I will grab the hoover for some fast vacuum action before giving in.
Initial target is 2st off by December when a small reunion of former school mates is planned. Then onwards to April via a small festive detour around the mid winter solstice. Luckily one of my oldest friends has also just started SW and we're egging each other on. I hope between that, my own will power and any help and support you lovely people here can provide I'll keep chugging on until I can look in the mirror and not recoil in horror.
Sue xx
First weigh in last Thursday and I've hit an eye watering 18st 12lbs. Now I'm no dainty little baggage (even in my thinner years) and I have topped 19st in the past but what you see now is not what I feel like inside.
Next April I'm going to be 50. My son is about to start uni and his sister will follow suit next year. Then it'll be just me and the cats. I've spent the last 11 odd years working full time and raising them and I can just about see some light at the end of the tunnel. Not that I don't love them dearly - they are great kids - but until now my life has been about putting them first even to the extent of remaining resolutely single (although lousy self image issues ingrained by ex also contributed! ).
From a personal POV my forties were pretty much a write off although not without some good times and great friends but it really is time to get back out there and start living.
So here I go. It was an awkward weekend to start back but I knew if I didn't leap in it would be another excuse next week and the week after. I have dinner (and wine, lots of wine I'm sure) with some friends this evening. But I have to pick my daughter up at 9.30pm so have a reason to avoid alcohol until then. Goodness knows what's being prepared to eat so I'll have to take that on the chin and promise to fit in a swim at some point to atone for any transgressions later! So far today I have been spot on and not a syn has passed my lips. My book is calling to me and an early start this morning is tempting me to catch 40 winks before this evening but I will grab the hoover for some fast vacuum action before giving in.
Initial target is 2st off by December when a small reunion of former school mates is planned. Then onwards to April via a small festive detour around the mid winter solstice. Luckily one of my oldest friends has also just started SW and we're egging each other on. I hope between that, my own will power and any help and support you lovely people here can provide I'll keep chugging on until I can look in the mirror and not recoil in horror.
Sue xx