Determinator is Determined to get to goal :)

Hi Hon, how are you doing today? I was quite shocked to hear that your CDC shouted at you! :eek: I don't think they're meant to do that. A 3lb gain wasn't that bad either. I'm sure you'll lose that this week anyway. Hope you survived the soft play area with your kiddies. I am not brave enough to take Jessie there during half term, plus I find that she wants to play in the "big childrens" bit, which isn't good when there are a lot of rough older children there.
Anyway, hope you have a great evening. xx :D
 
hey , dont worry about my CDC she knows me and knows I need her to be tough .. it was the right thing to do and I do try harder so as to keep her happy :D

had a great day , got to soft play just as it opened so was quite quiet . Abbie wants to play in the big bit now too ( she is 20 months ) and I just let her now .. she is very tough and I think you worry less with your 2nd .... :rolleyes:

went to my friends and got my eye borws waxed and my eye lashes dyed , and a good old natter :D

ten off in search of gym clothing .. finally found what I needed in peacocks

got home just in time to make a rushed tea for the kids , and grill my chicken and fry my mushrooms and cabbage in balsamic vinegar (mmmmmmmm) , wash up then rush off to gym induction as soon as hubby walked through the door ( he was not happy .. grrr men !!) had a good induction and learnt how to use everything , I hope to ave a proper go tomorrow just gentle introduction and step it up a bit next week when I start 1000 plan :)

thanks Mm , I have been thinking about the RC ..... I am sticking with CD till I get to goal as I feel its very important for me to finish what I started .. and CD is working at the moment , and my CDC keeps me on the straight and narrow .. i also cant commit to an exercise class on a set night as I work different nights every night ...... I have been thinking about stuff and how to maintain .... and I need to go it alone ..... I cannot class myslef as 'on a diet ' for the rest of my life .. I need to 'eat normally ' like a 'healthy person ' I am going to use my knowledge of SW and use their principles to keep myslef in hand .. and will continue t weigh myself daily to keep an eye on whats happening .... I will NOT let myself gain more than 7lb without reining it in and sorting it , I have not been through all this for nothing .. but I also dont want to become obsessed with my diet .. I want to change the priority of food in my head and am going to try hypnotherapy ... thats my plan anyway ...... :eek:

Now gonna watch master chef for my fix of food porn .. then off to bed .. got a chiled day tomorrow , not going anywhere so lots of house work and facebook / minimins and films with the kids .. may take a walk round the big stately home 200 yrds from our front door ....... hubby is off to ireland tomorrow working so will have my lovely king sized sleigh bed all to myself ( and a few cats ) and then he should be home mid afternoon on friday and we going t see Paul at the cinema :D
 
Hi Katie,

I hope your day went well. Do you have the Beck book? Mine came yesterday wilst I was in "Space". I started readng it this morning -- and I can see already how it will be very helpful. (I strongly suspect that Lighter Life borrowed heavily from the Beck's work in CBT in developing their programme. So, some of it is familiar.)

My RC instructor lets us go to another class on different day/time if we can't make it to one we usually attend. I like the fitness class/being weighed and having it recorded part. (I lie to myself too easily.)

It is good your CDC knows you and your a comfortable with her "giving you what you need".

MM
 
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Hey hon... I totally understand what you mean about cdc shouting do you good... Mine doesn't shout but i love that she can tell me off if i cheat or crave food... i get on really well with her and she (other than hubby) is the only one who CAN tell me off and get away with it lol.. I love the fact that she's there to keep me going etc!!
Wow, you have done soooooo well hon... how amazing are you!!!!?!! I am a lil terrified though about maintaining now lol. OMG, does this mean i won't ever be able to pig out again????? Aaaarrgh why can't i be one of those skinny *****es who eats and eats but remains a size 8..lol

Hope ur ok...not long til half term is done yayyyyyyyy :)
 
sunday 27th feb

hey :eek:

well i was having a great week , till thursday , not sure wat hapenned but the bisuit tin was opened ( only had a few ) and 2 bowls of cereal were consumed .... and then I pulled it in and been 100 % on 810 sine .. but looks like its going to be a STS for me this week :cry::cry: arrg , how can 3 bicuits and 2 bowls of shreddies undo allll my hard work for a whole week ??????

I am now so unsure about what to do next week , should I do another 810 week ? or stick to the plan and start 1000 as i am starting the gym ?? if I do another 810 week then I will just do gentle toning work at the gym , or will I be ok on 1000 ?? :cry: oh bum bum bum bum !!!!

Well we will see at weigh in tomorrow morning ...

Me and hubby went to see The Streets last night , oh they were totally awesome , great music and real entertainers too , he very bravely crowd surfed whilst singing .. and lost half his clothes to craved fans !!!!
I didnt think and took along my bottle of flavoured CD water ..which got confistcated at the door , so a glass of warm tap water had to do me :eek: but it was still great , and sooo glad we made it up onto the balcony as we got their early .. the main floor was a proper mosh pit and there was beer .. and vomit .. and wee ... flying around everywere down there :jelous:

Today we are off to test drive a new car .. our is up for renewal in nov ( but may see about early settlement ) so we are looking , I have fallen in love with the new Kia Sportage in orange , and it has a 7 yr warranty too , hope they an work us a deal out :)

Then I have to rearrange y kitchen cupboards as the cuboard I keep all my baking stuff in seems to suddenly be damp so all the flour and stuff is getting soggy ... ahhh fun !!!
 
Hi Katie,

It sounds like a fun evening out. I hope you get the car -- those are so cute and fun to drive.

Re: Moving the kitchen about. Are you working through the Beck book? I am going to do the "exercise" for the last page of week one -- which is to remove all the "bad food" that tempts me, etc. from the kitchen.

As the cereal and biscuits were your downfall -- do you really need to have those in the house?

I have children, too. I buy them cereal and biscuits that they like that I don't. Then, if I am tempted I can tell myself -- "If you are going to eat those calories and have those carbs, then at the very least you can wait until you can go and get the type of biscuits/cereal you like."
I "had" to buy some Girl Scout cookies (the kind I like) because I had ordered them ages ago. They are in a plain cardboard box in the boot of my car. That way I can forget they are there -- and I do.

After my DD's birthday, as the guests left, they took a lot of cookies, cake and candies with them. I wanted to get it out of the house.

You can always "treat" them when your out and keep your house as a "healthy eating zone". I am working towards that. No "body" needs cereal and biscuits.

MM
 
hey Mm :) I ave just ordered the Beck book as I have heard its great so hopefully it will be here soon :)

as for removing all the food from the house that I like .. the problem is I like ALL food , so think the kids and hubby may starve if I did that ... I like all cereal , but am hoping that as i start the 1000 plan tomorrow it will help as I am allowed 2 shredded wheat , 2 weetabix or museli for brekkie ... so looking forward to that :D

The kitchen is now all reorganised .. hubby always moans that I dont do enough tidying ( OMG I spend my day tidying after the kids ... ) but now he knows why I dont do extras ... as when I start I get totally carried away .. and 3 hours later .. the kitchen is reorganised !!!!

well its done now , I didnt test drive the car in the end , as we worked out the finane and it would have been £450 a month for 4 years with £7000 left to pay at the end , which I thought was a lot ..... and to be honest we dont need such a big car .. and think we will try and find something about 6 months old as buying new you pay loads more .. just a shame there arent any 6 month old sportages out there .. guess we could wait a few months :)

Diet wise been a good day , we went to asda after the car dealer and they have a McDonalds so i left hubby and the kids there having lunch whist I went and had a look at the clothes .. and bought the most gorgeous spring jacket in a 12 .... so very very happy .. my goal was to be a 16 .. so a 12 is stunning :D

weigh in tomorrow ... a bit sad that looking like I have STS .. but not a lot I can do about it now , it does make me reluctant to start 1000 tomorrow but if I am going to go to the gym 2-3 times a week I really need to up the calories so gonna give it a bash :D wish me luck .. its not as simple as SS :confused:
 
looks like we are all going for cbt books. i've bought the beck book and i've had allen carr's book there for a while. the biggest thing i find is that i do have a feeling of depravation if i can't have something i deeply want. hubby was on about how nice it would be to go for a family lunch out but with weigh day tomorrow there was no chance at all of that happening. it's a shame as i feel like my diet is getting in the way of these events where before i didn't feel that way.
 
determinator said:
as for removing all the food from the house that I like .. the problem is I like ALL food , so think the kids and hubby may starve if I did that

ROTFLMAO!!! I have wondered how I got fat because I am such a picky eater.

... I like all cereal , but am hoping that as i start the 1000 plan tomorrow it will help as I am allowed 2 shredded wheat , 2 weetabix or museli for brekkie ... so looking forward to that :D

I like cereal, too - but I know I am carb sensitive, so need to watch stuff like that. (I used to get a kick out Seinfield and how he seemed to live on cereal.)


The kitchen is now all reorganised ..
Most of my food areas are resorted, fridge done, etc. I had to stop to help DS, but will finish up tomorrow.

hubby always moans that I dont do enough tidying ( OMG I spend my day tidying after the kids ... )

One of my favourite stories is one about the man who drove up to house coming from work. He can't get into his drive because there are bikes, trikes, wagons, skateboards, trash bins, etc. in it.

As he parks on the road and walks towards the front door he stumbles over the newspaper, milk bottles, children's toys, etc. and steps in dog doo.

He opens the door, and the dog has wee'd on the floor, the kids are in their pajamas and covered with jam and who knows what else. They obviously did not go to school or any of their activities. It looks as if the cupboards and fridge are pretty much empty, too. There is laundry, rubbish, dirty dishes, food, etc. everywhere.


He walks up the stairs calling his wife's name, as he climbs over more piles of toys, clothing, etc. When he gets to the master bedroom door he opens it and there in bed, still in her PJs, hair uncombed, face unwashed (much less made up), and teeth unbrushed... is his lovely wife.

Stunned, he asks her if she ill. She replies, "Remember yesterday when you came home from work and asked me what I did all day? Well, today I didn't do it!"

think we will try and find something about 6 months old as buying new you pay loads more .. just a shame there arent any 6 month old sportages out there .. guess we could wait a few months :)

If you can wait until the next years' models come out, sometimes you can get a good deal.

Diet wise been a good day, we went to asda after the car dealer and they have a McDonalds so i left hubby and the kids there having lunch whist I went and had a look at the clothes .. and bought the most gorgeous spring jacket in a 12 .... so very very happy .. my goal was to be a 16 .. so a 12 is stunning :D

That is so impressive, and a new jacket beats a heart attack on a bun, anyday.

weigh in tomorrow ... a bit sad that looking like I have STS .. but not a lot I can do about it now ,

STS beats a gain!

it does make me reluctant to start 1000 tomorrow but if I am going to go to the gym 2-3 times a week I really need to up the calories so gonna give it a bash :D wish me luck .. its not as simple as SS :confused:

Agreed. Portion control is key. Plus, it requires more planning. Try to low carb as you 1000 -- it'll make a big difference. If you can get a GI Guide it'll be very helpful.
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Nite Katie --

You are doing so well. I hope that you enjoy the exercise and can make it a regular part of your life. I am working on that myself.

MM
 
Monday 28th Feb

weigh in this morning and lost 2lb :D happy with that although could have been 4 if it wasnt for naughties on thurs :(

Thanks Mm , love love your joke about housework .. how very true :D

well officially day 1 on 1000 , have had my green salad for lunch and 2 weetabix for brekkie so far .. not sure what to have for tea ... need to have a good think ...maybe sweet potato baked with tuna and cottage cheese .. hmm
I am really looking forward to the gym tonight , just hope there arent too many fit blokes there or i may feel embarrassed wobbling around next to them !!!
 
don't you ever worry about your wobbly bits. you'll be fit in no time. even i wobble hun. when i run my arm skin flaps around :) when i run in shorts they ride up because of my extra skin on my legs. when i do zumba my bum wobbles when i shake my thing.... and i am toned :8855:
 
Well done on the 2lb loss... love love love the gym.. can not wait to get back there in April!

Stick with the 1000 plan and go for it at the gym! You can do it..
 
Hi Katie --

Here is another chuckle for you. I put this on my Facebook Status this morning:

Finally, figured out why I cant lose weight!
The shampoo I use in the shower that runs down my body says "for extra volume and body".
I'm going to start using "Dawn" dish soap. It says "dissolves fat that is otherwise difficult to remove". Repost if you have the same issue.
(Thanks Sabrina and Lori)

MM
 
friday 4th march

well after my last post on monday I lost the plot and stuffed my face till thursday !!! followed 1000 plan till about 3pm then I felt starving ... the green salad I had for lunch just seemed to make me hungry , and I spent the afternoon eating cakes, toast , crumpets .. anything that contained a load of carbs really ....

I went to the gym and resolved to get back on track but i didnt ...... I stuffed my face all day and night on tuesday as I worked the night shift , then again on wednesday night .. OMG .. 6lb gain :cry:

thurday morning I finally regained control and have managed to do SS+ ( with 4 packs ) really well since then , managed to loose a few of the lbs since then , but again I am so disappointed in myself , once I start I really struggle to stop , and the amount I can eat is aweful , I had 1/2 a box of chocolate shreddies in one sitting and still wanted more :eek::break_diet: I also went to the shop and bought a whole swiss roll , 3 bars of chocolate and a bag of crisps and sat in bed , hiding and ate it all ... this is pretty scarey behaviour and I really need to sort it

I recieved my copy of the Beck Diet Solution today and have started reading it and have planned to carry on with SS+ till monday then start 1000 a fresh . I have bought a diary and will record what I eat , I also have the Beck work book which I am going to follow , it seems to have some great strategies to help cope with food cravings and over eating

so I have control at present , but I seem ok until I am given a little more flexibility in the diet , the 1000 plan is qute different to SS or 810 , its not controlled by ketosis and the allowances etc are more open to interpretation . I have thought about trying to stay on the 810 till goal but I think my CDC is right in that I need to be introducing the food back and boosting my metabolism now and LEARNING to control this eating , I have spent the last 33 years eating in secret , binging and thinking about food , its going to take a while to change this , I hope the Beck book and working through the work book can help me retrain my brain and the way it sees food and eating ......... i HAVE to do this .. I CANNOT and WILL NOT fail !!!
 
Hi Katie --

The Beck book will help. You can do this -- just take it slow and easy.

MM
 
hun I really think you give yourself too hard a time when you eat something that you *think* your not meant to, and so the binge begins. It took me a while to realise I can eat carbs and its not wrong to eat carbs - self education is the hardest lesson on Cambridge - this really is the hardest part now. You will "get" it soon enough. I have gained 4lb this week but I'm hoping its water from early pregnancy, but I'm not gonna beat myself up cos Sam goes back next week and I know I will get back on track then and I know its carb overload.

Please don't destroy yourself over this, it really worries me when I see you beating yourself up cos you don't realise yourself how fab you have done and how bloody fab you've done ! just because your not at your goal yet you have made a lifechanging choice and you should learn to praise yourself for that. The binging is years of self hating and not understanding that you are not that person anymore - you are slim and you are bloody amazing - believe it !!!!

Sorry didn't mean to sound like a lecture I just get frustrated for you cos your bloody fab !! xx
 
Moleymole said:
hun I really think you give yourself too hard a time when you eat something that you *think* your not meant to, and so the binge begins. It took me a while to realise I can eat carbs and its not wrong to eat carbs - self education is the hardest lesson on Cambridge - this really is the hardest part now. You will "get" it soon enough. I have gained 4lb this week but I'm hoping its water from early pregnancy, but I'm not gonna beat myself up cos Sam goes back next week and I know I will get back on track then and I know its carb overload.

Please don't destroy yourself over this, it really worries me when I see you beating yourself up cos you don't realise yourself how fab you have done and how bloody fab you've done ! just because your not at your goal yet you have made a lifechanging choice and you should learn to praise yourself for that. The binging is years of self hating and not understanding that you are not that person anymore - you are slim and you are bloody amazing - believe it !!!!

Sorry didn't mean to sound like a lecture I just get frustrated for you cos your bloody fab !! xx
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thanks Nicki , you are totally right :) at the end of the day i am now a healthy BMI and I have lost a lot ...... I dont seem to be able to let myself feel proud or good about myself till I see that magic number on the scales ... but I should .. and the beck book gives you tasks to praise yourself every day , so hopefully I will be able to start feeling good about myself :D
I also dont feel slim yet ... I still sit here and 'feel ' the rolls of flab on my tummy and still 'feel huge' .. I guess that takes a while too
 
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