My eating habits are strange, I've discussed this with my mum as I can be frank and open and honest with her, but I'd like to share them.
Eating habits when not on a diet: I starve myself during the day then binge massively on anything I can get my hands on at night, then the cycle begins again the next day. I don't drink or eat t all, this gives me massive headaches and makes me vile and grumpy.
Eating habit when on a diet : Similar to above, except i will worry myself for days about starting a diet even going 72+ hours with no sleep cooking, preparing and planning food, only to then crash out for 24 hours and then starving myself as I'm scared to eat and ruin my diet. I over think it too much and end up sabotaging myself because I dont think I deserve to be slim and happy.
We all have our demons and some we can't work out on our own, but thats why support is crucial, to help us battle our own demons and give us that bit extra we need to make our weight loss a success.
Some of us will need more help than others. Being this overweight doesn't make me happy it stops me from leading a normal life and having the thing I want most, a baby. Even though I have some of the most compelling reasons to loose weight I still sit here and make the same mistakes over and over again. I'm scared I'll still be unhappy if I'm thin. I sometimes say to myself ( even though I know it's completely wacko and food doesn't make you happy) hey, I might not be happy now, but atleast i can eat what i want and it will make me happy for short while, isn't that worth the risk of not loosing weight and still being unhappy but not being able to eat what I want every time? I have health issues caused by my weight or not helped by it (pre diabetic, PCOS and fibromyalgia) and the fact I have weight induced infertility I still can't see that I'm the one who holds the key to my happiness and that food is merely fuel.
Sorry for rambling on, and I hope you didn't all die of boredom I just wanted to put my story across.
Health Vs happiness? whats living a long life if your un-happy, but whats living a life cut short by unhealthiness, it's a chicken versus the egg situation. it's about what you want from your own life.