Really good at restricting my eating when I'm not with my boyfriend, but when I'm with him I just think "awh he loves me, I'm so happy, I don't care, I'm going to eat 42 lbs of cheese" (slight exaggeration) but then I pretty much immediately regret it. About a year ago or so I was 105lbs and now I don't dare to look but it's probably creeping up to 140 lbs as none of my clothes fit me anymore. I've tried a few things, I was on the implant from a prior boyfriend and though I didn't eat that much more then I still found it hard to lose weight, I then decided to switch to the injection because it doesn't put more weight on you but it makes you hungrier (carbs and dairy are my life at the moment). I've tried a few things, like trying to eat healthier, diet suppressants but when I'm with him I literally just don't care, he likes me squishy so isn't bothered by my weight and isn't the reason I want to go back to my prior weight, I want to lose the weight for me, but how do I remain focused and motivated to lose weight when I'm with him?