Yay Pipaluk, 4 1/2 stone lighter that is amazing!! I am so pleased for you hun, hey and its your 18th you deserve to have a good time, you only turn 18 once, I had a mega good time on my 18th, too much alcohol and too much food if I remember correctly! ha ha
I agree re health issues, I can't understand how it can't motivate you to change or at least try to change, its never going to be plain sailing turning your back on the habits you have had for a lifetime basically but for me when my health got worse all of a sudden it was a huge wake up call, I thought to myself "I'm not done yet", it brought out the fighter in me, I mean 34 and falling asleep the whole time I felt old, really old and I'm not really and at my age I should be living my life yet I was a recluse who needed to sleep the whole time, now I'm getting out there and the sleep issues have decreased so much and not having to wear that flipping mask at night has made it all worthwhile, I can't begin to tell you how much I hated that, it was like at night I became "the man in the iron mask" ha ha anyway prob the best thing that ever happened to me as it gave me the kick up the bum I so desperately needed!
Yeah I can understand your frustration with the woman at your slimming group, I find that for me people assume I want a gastric band, like gps seem to assume because of my weight I am wanting one, I am always like no I don't want one, I need to deal with my emotional reasons for eating and re-educate myself with regards to food, I don't want the op, they always seem shocked that I feel that way as they have assumed I am seeing them about my weight so I can get a referral which makes me mad as I am like that is not the way I want to lose weight. I was diagnosed with an eating disorder due to my starvation and binge tendencies and I know all too well that no weight loss surgery will sort that out, so for me its a case of trying as hard as I can to do this moderation route of healthy eating with treats and trying to go against my starvation and binge urges, its tough but I luckily at the moment have the support of an eating disorder therapist and will continue to have her support until Dec I believe so I am making the most of the time I have left with her to get as much help from her as possible.
Em xx