Yo GBS! Blimey you did have a terrible year last year didn't you!! I can't believe all that bad luck- you must have been so fed up! I'm so glad things are looking up for you much more now!! Things usually come right in the end, it's just a pity we can't see that at the time!! I should really count my blessings! Yes there's a lot of injustice in the world-evil people in force, people suffering everywhere, people getting sick and dying far too young, my Mum with this flaming ovarian cancer...but the truth is despite not everything in my life being perfect- my Mum's situation, money worries, so much work to do on our house, there are so many things that are right! My dh and I both have steady jobs (for now!), a business letting our 2 cottages which is ticking along quite nicely which allows us to live in a nice rural area, we have good health, we have loving family and friends and we are able to enjoy the small things in life either together or separately! So it's not all bad!
I take my hat off to you for still being here and still carrying on and doing your best on the plan!! Think how many people embark on a 'diet' or should I say healthy eating plan with all the will and motivation in the world only to fall at the first hurdle, if not the second, or the third!! But you have come back time and time again which is what it's all about!! I know how you feel about hitting a certain weight and just not being able to get under it! I got my 4 stone award at the end of October (4 months ago) and I've been playing about with these 7lb ever since! Up, down, up, down, my lowest (before Christmas) was 11 st 6 1/2 lb and I kept hitting it and going back up again! I have been like a dog with a bone though and nothing was going to stop me, so I'm so glad I persevered! I have broken my last 9lb down into such small steps- my next one is to lose another 2lb which will mean I can say I have 1/2 a stone to go! Then another 2lb will put me at a NORMAL weight for my height, a BMI of 25! Then another 1 1/2 lb will get me into the 10s (wow!) and so it goes on....I am a bit too obsessive with the numbers, I must admit, but this does seem to help drive me on!! If I can do it, I know that you can! I'm no more capable of it than you are believe me! I'm such a faddy person usually- never stick to things for long, but for some reason this is different, probably because it's so important to me!
I thought I'd post this quote which Cocktail Princess posted back in January! I keep referring back to this and read it over and over again because it makes so much sense and I find it really reassuring and motivating!! Even if you have seen it before, read it carefully and slowly so that the words really sink in!!!
“When you stand on the Start Line, you join the club. When you stand at the Starting Line you earn your membership. Millions dream of being where you are. You are no longer a dreamer. You are a doer.
Thousands more started a training programme but never finished. They started with the same enthusiasm as (or more than) you. They started with more or less the same physical gifts or disadvantages as you did. They had no more and no less reason to be successful than you.
But somewhere along the way, they lost that enthusiasm. Somewhere on the road or on the track or treadmill, they decided that the rewards just weren't worth the effort. They decided that they could live without finding their limits, without challenging their expectations of themselves and without taking a hard look at their image of themselves.
You didn't. If you’re standing at the Start Line, you've not only accepted the challenge, but you've also beaten back the demons. You've conquered your imagination and self-imposed limitations. You've gone further, got stronger and become tougher than you ever imagined."
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