Helen
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Hi
I my name is Helen and I originally did lighterlife back in 2007 and lost 108lb. Unfortunately I did not do route to management and regained this weight pretty much at the same speed that I lost it. :break_diet:
I have now had private counselling and have read self-help books and listened to hypnosis and CBT tapes and now feel ready to start lighterlife again.
My first meeting is booked for 25th May but I am starting my diary a bit early so that I can enter my thoughts leading up to abstinence, as well as my reasons for doing lighter life again. I can then look back through this when I struggle and hopefully this will help me to continue with the diet.
I want to lose about 8 stone again but this time I am thinking of doing 14 weeks and then route to management and then doing 14 weeks again early in the new year. I feel that breaking the journey down into two shorter blocks will be much easier for me than trying to stay abstinent for 7 months. Losing this amount won't make me an officially healthy weight - I would still need to lose another two stone for that - but it is a weight that I will be happy with and which I can always adjust at a later date.
My old Lighterlife counsellor is no longer 'trading' so I am having to drive for half an hour each way to my meeting instead of 5 minutes, however the new lady seems much more approachable and the environment seems much nicer. I am hoping that this will feel more like a fresh start than going back to the old offices.
A couple of things have made me realise I need to do something drastic, urgently:
We are emptying the fridge and freezer, there is only 2 days meals left, this will then be defrosted and filled with healthy meals for husband and daughter which need minimum preparation so I have limited contact with food over the first couple of weeks of diet. I will be doing some batch cooking next week.
I start on a Wednesday evening and have asked for the following Thursday and Friday off work. I haven't had a big problem with going into ketosis before (although I haven't always managed to stay there) but I have thought I will start the journey off by making it easy for myself - no stress- and with a non food treat!
My biggest problem last time was with drinking the water. I have invested £10.99 in a water bottle with a filter. The filter is supposed to last two months and should make tap water taste like bottled water. I have only ordered it today but reviews seem to be good. If it works then tap water should be nicer to drink, saving me money from drink flavourings and/or bottles of water and helping the environment too. I was getting through a tub of flavouring a week back in 2007 which is very expensive.
I am filled with trepidation. I am worried that I won't I stick to it, I need to in order to justify spending such a large amount of money on myself. I am dreading the lengthy explanations to people asking me why I am not eating and saying 'but that can't be healthy' and 'can't you just have a salad?'. Been there and done that, (which bit of 'nothing' can they not understand lol) as a result I am telling as few people as possible in the early days. However I have tried to think of everything I can in order to make the transition as easy as possible.
I have enjoyed reading everyones diary's for motivation and to psych myself up and hope that you will all enjoy reading mine, and leave comments and advice please!
Phew, didn't realise that this would be so lengthy - sorry!
Helen
I my name is Helen and I originally did lighterlife back in 2007 and lost 108lb. Unfortunately I did not do route to management and regained this weight pretty much at the same speed that I lost it. :break_diet:
I have now had private counselling and have read self-help books and listened to hypnosis and CBT tapes and now feel ready to start lighterlife again.
My first meeting is booked for 25th May but I am starting my diary a bit early so that I can enter my thoughts leading up to abstinence, as well as my reasons for doing lighter life again. I can then look back through this when I struggle and hopefully this will help me to continue with the diet.
I want to lose about 8 stone again but this time I am thinking of doing 14 weeks and then route to management and then doing 14 weeks again early in the new year. I feel that breaking the journey down into two shorter blocks will be much easier for me than trying to stay abstinent for 7 months. Losing this amount won't make me an officially healthy weight - I would still need to lose another two stone for that - but it is a weight that I will be happy with and which I can always adjust at a later date.
My old Lighterlife counsellor is no longer 'trading' so I am having to drive for half an hour each way to my meeting instead of 5 minutes, however the new lady seems much more approachable and the environment seems much nicer. I am hoping that this will feel more like a fresh start than going back to the old offices.
A couple of things have made me realise I need to do something drastic, urgently:
- my weight is becoming a disability, I am struggling to get upstairs and stand for long - by the time I have walked from the car to the veg aisle in Sainsburys my back is screaming in pain.
- My self confidence is at an all time low. I don't want to leave the house.
- I saw myself in a video on Facebook, it was made at work on Friday and I look hideous, far worse than I imagined. I am cringing still
- I don't want my daughter to be teased at school (she is now at senior school)
- My daughter is putting on weight too and I want to eliminate unhealthy food from the house without her feeling like she is being put on a diet.
- My family has a history of heart disease and diabetes, I am nearly 47 and don't want to die or become disabled at such a young age
- I am continually out of breath and snore dreadfully
We are emptying the fridge and freezer, there is only 2 days meals left, this will then be defrosted and filled with healthy meals for husband and daughter which need minimum preparation so I have limited contact with food over the first couple of weeks of diet. I will be doing some batch cooking next week.
I start on a Wednesday evening and have asked for the following Thursday and Friday off work. I haven't had a big problem with going into ketosis before (although I haven't always managed to stay there) but I have thought I will start the journey off by making it easy for myself - no stress- and with a non food treat!
My biggest problem last time was with drinking the water. I have invested £10.99 in a water bottle with a filter. The filter is supposed to last two months and should make tap water taste like bottled water. I have only ordered it today but reviews seem to be good. If it works then tap water should be nicer to drink, saving me money from drink flavourings and/or bottles of water and helping the environment too. I was getting through a tub of flavouring a week back in 2007 which is very expensive.
I am filled with trepidation. I am worried that I won't I stick to it, I need to in order to justify spending such a large amount of money on myself. I am dreading the lengthy explanations to people asking me why I am not eating and saying 'but that can't be healthy' and 'can't you just have a salad?'. Been there and done that, (which bit of 'nothing' can they not understand lol) as a result I am telling as few people as possible in the early days. However I have tried to think of everything I can in order to make the transition as easy as possible.
I have enjoyed reading everyones diary's for motivation and to psych myself up and hope that you will all enjoy reading mine, and leave comments and advice please!
Phew, didn't realise that this would be so lengthy - sorry!
Helen