charlies_mummy
all for my little man x
Sorry to unburden myself on you lot but need to let this out and hopefully it will make me feel better.
My partner has decided that he doesn't love me anymore and so is leaving me and our little boy behind. He can't afford tomove out just yet though so have him sleeping on the sofa until at least the first week of October, which means he will be here for what would have been our 4 year annivesarry. I cannot actually believe that this is happening. We have been engaged for nearly three years and were hoping to get married once Charlie was a bit bigger (he is not even two yet). I love my little boy to bits and would not change having him for the world, but would never have entertained the thought of having children if I didn't think I would be with their daddy for life. I grew up with a seperated family and my dad let me down big time, and am terrifed the same will happen for my wee man.
He is not going to be moving far away and so will have Charlie overnight whilst I work, which means two nights every week, and then for tea once a week aswell. It sounds fine, but am not sure how long it will last when the allure of single life takes hold, which will then mean working will be really hard to manage.
It was only in May that I had a miscarriage, and now can't help feeling that he is pleased about this as it meant he did not have to leave two children. On top of this I am due my second lot of biopsies on my throat in a couple of weeks, and now am going to have to come home to him afterwards.
I really feel like my life is falling to bits and am not sure I would be able to cope at all if it wasn't for my little man.
Sorry to ramble, just needed to clear my mind a bit, and this is as good a place as any as no one really knows me! xxx
My partner has decided that he doesn't love me anymore and so is leaving me and our little boy behind. He can't afford tomove out just yet though so have him sleeping on the sofa until at least the first week of October, which means he will be here for what would have been our 4 year annivesarry. I cannot actually believe that this is happening. We have been engaged for nearly three years and were hoping to get married once Charlie was a bit bigger (he is not even two yet). I love my little boy to bits and would not change having him for the world, but would never have entertained the thought of having children if I didn't think I would be with their daddy for life. I grew up with a seperated family and my dad let me down big time, and am terrifed the same will happen for my wee man.
He is not going to be moving far away and so will have Charlie overnight whilst I work, which means two nights every week, and then for tea once a week aswell. It sounds fine, but am not sure how long it will last when the allure of single life takes hold, which will then mean working will be really hard to manage.
It was only in May that I had a miscarriage, and now can't help feeling that he is pleased about this as it meant he did not have to leave two children. On top of this I am due my second lot of biopsies on my throat in a couple of weeks, and now am going to have to come home to him afterwards.
I really feel like my life is falling to bits and am not sure I would be able to cope at all if it wasn't for my little man.
Sorry to ramble, just needed to clear my mind a bit, and this is as good a place as any as no one really knows me! xxx