I need a reason, a strong reason to survive this diet, what do you do? what goes through your head? Please I beg you... give me hope
I used to be quite active, but my health and my fitness has been deteriorating rapidly. I was in Belize in December and took a trek through the rainforest, to an underground river, which we swam through and then waded, crawled and climbed to the back of a three mile cave system to find ancient mayan scarifices to their rain god.
Even though it was a relatively simple trek and the caving wasn't too difficult, I struggled all the way, and in some parts of the cave I felt that I couldn't get through as I was too big.
I managed it, but I realised that at 45, I should have been able to do this quite easily.
On that same holiday I also went sailing, and scuba diving in the sea around Belize, and each dive was a struggle, I just wasn't enjoying it.
I thought about what I wanted out of life, what I wanted to do when I retired, was it sitting in front of the TV until I died, or was it getting out and enjoying the world each day, visitng my children and their grandchildren and watching them explore the world too.
That holiday made me realise that, for me, being clinically obese meant that I would do less and less of the things I enjoy, and I would not live as long to enjoy them, nor to see my children enjoy them, and maybe not even live long enough to see my grandchildren.
On my return, I though about what weight I wanted to be when I turned 50 and then on to my retirement, and realised if I left it until then it would be harder to achieve, and I would miss out on a lot of my life inbetween, so having decided on what weight I wanted to be I decided to get there as quickly as possible, and to start now.
I might fall ocassionally, but I get right up again and focus on my life goal.