Well.............
I cheated last night and I think im already understanding whats goes on in my head.
On sat night I felt starving... i just wanted to eat and eat.. I told my partner and he was really supportive and I didnt. I also text a friend and she (on CD) kept me strong. I realised that I felt that way because sat night usually = takeway/meal out and major snack fest.
Anyway yesterday was diffrent story.... I started to study for my theroy test and did two mock test. I failed both (by 2/3 points) so not much. But my partner passed his (he's doing it the same day) and he passed. Anyway I laid on the sofa feeling crap and then harped on about eating for a hour. Evenually my bloke gave in and said ok have half a pack (id had my four) so i went in the kitchen and ate the whole Raspberry bar (which is really tasty btw) and ate it all with no intention of eating just half. Damn those bars........
I felt awful afterwards and felt teary this morning. Anyway i've been on the scales and they have gone down again. So I might be safe and am going to only have 3 packs today and as much water as I can before weigh in.
But I feel like such a faliure......... I cracked after just 6 days.
Agghhhh so angry with myself. Im just glad it wasnt normal food. My mind is telling me im a idiot and will never last the 100 days.
Peanut
I cheated last night and I think im already understanding whats goes on in my head.
On sat night I felt starving... i just wanted to eat and eat.. I told my partner and he was really supportive and I didnt. I also text a friend and she (on CD) kept me strong. I realised that I felt that way because sat night usually = takeway/meal out and major snack fest.
Anyway yesterday was diffrent story.... I started to study for my theroy test and did two mock test. I failed both (by 2/3 points) so not much. But my partner passed his (he's doing it the same day) and he passed. Anyway I laid on the sofa feeling crap and then harped on about eating for a hour. Evenually my bloke gave in and said ok have half a pack (id had my four) so i went in the kitchen and ate the whole Raspberry bar (which is really tasty btw) and ate it all with no intention of eating just half. Damn those bars........
I felt awful afterwards and felt teary this morning. Anyway i've been on the scales and they have gone down again. So I might be safe and am going to only have 3 packs today and as much water as I can before weigh in.
But I feel like such a faliure......... I cracked after just 6 days.
Agghhhh so angry with myself. Im just glad it wasnt normal food. My mind is telling me im a idiot and will never last the 100 days.
Peanut