Ack...firstly, you're not C**p. You are just chosing what feels like the best option at the time.
But how does it make you feel after? Rubbish eh.
So what happens. Do you get a craving and just go for it, or does it keep nagging at you until you don't feel you can cope with the nag anymore and go for it?
Either way, can you just accept that you want it, but think about it first. How will it make you feel after? How will you feel if you do without? Imagine you didn't have that drink, is it impossible not to? You have to put a peaceful thought in there somewhere rather than fight with the nag. It's not the enemy. In fact, the nag is a friend. It wants you to do what it thinks is the right thing for you at that moment in time.
If you can get past that and find the right thing for that moment in time to replace it, then you are onto a winner. That great feeling of accepting the nag is trying to be a friend, but it's a rubbish one for your longer term goals.
But hey...who wants to even think about longer term...weeks, months ahead? Not me for one! I live in the present. So how will you feel if you don't give into it. If you can find something else to do or to comfort yourself and make yourself feel good without going off plan?
As I say, don't fight it. Don't even object to it. Just accept that you have the nag and you don't have to give in to it.
Of course, if alcohol is proving a real problem for you, it could be that you need more help than we could ever give you here.
Either way, there's light at the end of the tunnel. If you want it badly enough, you'll manage it. Hugs.