jemimarobin
Full Member
Oh dear me. well all was going well, I lost 12lb by sunday (11 days on lipotrim) and then I had very small roast chicken meal on sunday and then tuesday I wasnt feeling so well with a sore throat and felt sorry for myself so thought right thats it I'm going to scoff myself silly and I blimmin well did, it was like it was inevitable and I had no control over it. stupid thing to say I know as its obviously just me in control of my body and mind.... anyway I ate a mountain of cheese and biscuits and a whole pack of marshmallows and 2 fried eggs in a roll. the eggs made me feel sick so i stopped but I dont know what was wrong with me i just wanted to eat and eat and I thought bugger it.
well now I have probably put on about 5lb properly... great. I've just been ss'ing the last 2 days so I hope I will get back up but I dont expect to lose any this week in fact I'll be lucky if I stay the same and dont put any on.
really annoyed with myself as I have a night out on friday saturday and wanted to look and feel good about myself and now I have ruined it- what an idiot. I know I thought ooh I've lost a bit I'm alright now but I'm blummin well not and I obviously havent even got close to having a handle on my eating habits otherwise I wouldn't be bingeing like that. I'm disgusted with myself and am determined not to veer from now on. I suppose I need to get my head around the fact that I cant just eat anything I want whenever I want again even when the diet is over as such there will then be maintenance. Everything needs to be thought out so that I am not falling into comfort/bored eating again.
Anyway if anyone wants to take anything fom this its that if you just cheat a little bit even if you tell yourself it wont- it will inevitably snowball into more 'bits' of food and it will show on your body and at your weigh in and seriously who are you really cheating anyway? just yourself...well thats what I think anyway.
lesson learned. :sigh:
well now I have probably put on about 5lb properly... great. I've just been ss'ing the last 2 days so I hope I will get back up but I dont expect to lose any this week in fact I'll be lucky if I stay the same and dont put any on.
really annoyed with myself as I have a night out on friday saturday and wanted to look and feel good about myself and now I have ruined it- what an idiot. I know I thought ooh I've lost a bit I'm alright now but I'm blummin well not and I obviously havent even got close to having a handle on my eating habits otherwise I wouldn't be bingeing like that. I'm disgusted with myself and am determined not to veer from now on. I suppose I need to get my head around the fact that I cant just eat anything I want whenever I want again even when the diet is over as such there will then be maintenance. Everything needs to be thought out so that I am not falling into comfort/bored eating again.
Anyway if anyone wants to take anything fom this its that if you just cheat a little bit even if you tell yourself it wont- it will inevitably snowball into more 'bits' of food and it will show on your body and at your weigh in and seriously who are you really cheating anyway? just yourself...well thats what I think anyway.
lesson learned. :sigh: