Jezebella
Playing the Angel
Maintenance Day 39
Mr Chai has arrived!!!! Albeit very late last night.... He really is the most adorable little man, very small but omg!! What a voice!! He does love to sing if left alone. I was planning to travel with Em to fetch him, but timing wise it was difficult and it seemed pointless for Em to drive from Kent to London and back to Kent again. Chai was the first of his litter to leave so Em spent lots of time with his other Mom Gwen. Then unfortunately hit bad traffic back home so by the time the little boy arrived here it was almost 11pm!
Lily, off course has her nose largely out of joint by the new arrival, but this is only to be expected. So far it has only amounted to hissing and spitting, and at least she is boxing me rather than him. He being a baby, takes no notice and just carries on. He did try to jump up and cuddle with her twice and was quickly rebuffed! Poor little man, he has never seen another cat hiss at him. I will post pictures of the new little man tomorrow. He is currently lying near the heater and he and Lily are just watching each other.
I popped into Westfield yesterday to pick up a different pair of gloves for the Burlesque class today, and oops managed to walk out with a summer dress and new bag too!! It was soo fantastic to see summer clothes coming in. I really am sick of all the layers and layers I have to put on to keep me vaguely warm. I feel about 2 stone heavier with them all on although I know that is not the case. Today was mildly warmer and wow it felt almost balmy compaired to the weather we have been having.
The burlesque class today was amazing.. It is such a huge amount of fun and really makes you feel sexy as hell!! I am absolutely going to do the level 2 classes after this. So today we practiced a bit of last weeks things and then got down to the serious business of how to remove stockings!! Woohoo, it was a laugh and I have met some really nice ladies. A great change in me has obviously occurred. It may be something to do with the confidence I am gaining and being slim. Previously, I could never do anything "just for fun" I was always very competitive and had to be the "best" at it or I wouldn't bother at all. Probably because I felt I had to compensate for being so fat??? This time it is so different, it is just a laugh, and although I am ok at it, I am by no means the best in my class. It really makes no difference now because it is just fun and I am far too busy enjoying every moment to worry about who is doing "better" than me.
Food wise things are going ok, my weight is still absolutely stable. I have had 2 half glasses of wine in the last week, for no other reason than that I felt like them. I enjoyed them for what they were and didn't want any more. I am also finding it a lot easier to balance my eating than I did previously. I have stopped logging again as it seems I am eating well within the boundries and not overdoing it.
I am not sure if any of you have been watching "the diets that time forgot" ? A fascinating look at diets of the past, namely the victoria era, the edwardian and the 1920's. The most successful of the 3 diets (the group experienceing the most consistent weight loss) was the Edwardian or the "chew chew" diet. Whereby they could eat whatever they wanted but it all had to be chewed 32 times before swallowing. The theory behind it is that the food is partially digested before you swallow. I started thinking about this from another point of view. A lot of us, have had problems in the past with eating too quickly and not savouring and enjoying our food. Something we learn to do in RTM. But as we grow more proficient at eating after abstinence sometimes we forget to slow down. So for the last 2 days I have been trying to see what it's like to chew food for that long. Very odd at first but it does make you a lot more conscious of the food going into your mouth and the tastes and textures it also allows ample time to slow yourself down and savour the food. It takes ages to eat.. you notice the feelings of satiety a lot better than usual. Perhaps they really were onto something???
Tonight I had a fabulous shepherds pie with swede and carrot mash. First one I have had since before LL. Breakfast was a bit of a break with the rules for me. I had some wholewheat toast. I am so wary of the stuff because it was my previous staple diet and I don't ever want to get into the habit of living off it again. The half loaf of bread has been in our fridge for ages now - lol previously that would have been gone between bliss and I within an afternoon!!! I had one piece with some anchovette (a south african fish spread and a real treat - also quite low cal!) and the other with a thin spreading of our home made cherry jam!! The first taste of last summers labours. Whilst delicious it was very sweet so only to be had in miniscule portions occasionally. I didn't want to eat too long before leaving for class so I had an apple only. So far so good on the cals today. I might allow myself the "count on us" chocolate dessert I got in M&S on the way home. I will however wait and see if I am actually hungry later before I indulge. I quite like the idea of having dessert in the evenings and do have it most nights. I think knowing that I have something to look forward to in the evenings even if it is only fat free yoghurt and fruit really stops me indulging in other naughtier treats.
So more Chai updates tomorrow and wishing all of you a relaxed and happy Sunday.
Jez
xx
Mr Chai has arrived!!!! Albeit very late last night.... He really is the most adorable little man, very small but omg!! What a voice!! He does love to sing if left alone. I was planning to travel with Em to fetch him, but timing wise it was difficult and it seemed pointless for Em to drive from Kent to London and back to Kent again. Chai was the first of his litter to leave so Em spent lots of time with his other Mom Gwen. Then unfortunately hit bad traffic back home so by the time the little boy arrived here it was almost 11pm!
Lily, off course has her nose largely out of joint by the new arrival, but this is only to be expected. So far it has only amounted to hissing and spitting, and at least she is boxing me rather than him. He being a baby, takes no notice and just carries on. He did try to jump up and cuddle with her twice and was quickly rebuffed! Poor little man, he has never seen another cat hiss at him. I will post pictures of the new little man tomorrow. He is currently lying near the heater and he and Lily are just watching each other.
I popped into Westfield yesterday to pick up a different pair of gloves for the Burlesque class today, and oops managed to walk out with a summer dress and new bag too!! It was soo fantastic to see summer clothes coming in. I really am sick of all the layers and layers I have to put on to keep me vaguely warm. I feel about 2 stone heavier with them all on although I know that is not the case. Today was mildly warmer and wow it felt almost balmy compaired to the weather we have been having.
The burlesque class today was amazing.. It is such a huge amount of fun and really makes you feel sexy as hell!! I am absolutely going to do the level 2 classes after this. So today we practiced a bit of last weeks things and then got down to the serious business of how to remove stockings!! Woohoo, it was a laugh and I have met some really nice ladies. A great change in me has obviously occurred. It may be something to do with the confidence I am gaining and being slim. Previously, I could never do anything "just for fun" I was always very competitive and had to be the "best" at it or I wouldn't bother at all. Probably because I felt I had to compensate for being so fat??? This time it is so different, it is just a laugh, and although I am ok at it, I am by no means the best in my class. It really makes no difference now because it is just fun and I am far too busy enjoying every moment to worry about who is doing "better" than me.
Food wise things are going ok, my weight is still absolutely stable. I have had 2 half glasses of wine in the last week, for no other reason than that I felt like them. I enjoyed them for what they were and didn't want any more. I am also finding it a lot easier to balance my eating than I did previously. I have stopped logging again as it seems I am eating well within the boundries and not overdoing it.
I am not sure if any of you have been watching "the diets that time forgot" ? A fascinating look at diets of the past, namely the victoria era, the edwardian and the 1920's. The most successful of the 3 diets (the group experienceing the most consistent weight loss) was the Edwardian or the "chew chew" diet. Whereby they could eat whatever they wanted but it all had to be chewed 32 times before swallowing. The theory behind it is that the food is partially digested before you swallow. I started thinking about this from another point of view. A lot of us, have had problems in the past with eating too quickly and not savouring and enjoying our food. Something we learn to do in RTM. But as we grow more proficient at eating after abstinence sometimes we forget to slow down. So for the last 2 days I have been trying to see what it's like to chew food for that long. Very odd at first but it does make you a lot more conscious of the food going into your mouth and the tastes and textures it also allows ample time to slow yourself down and savour the food. It takes ages to eat.. you notice the feelings of satiety a lot better than usual. Perhaps they really were onto something???
Tonight I had a fabulous shepherds pie with swede and carrot mash. First one I have had since before LL. Breakfast was a bit of a break with the rules for me. I had some wholewheat toast. I am so wary of the stuff because it was my previous staple diet and I don't ever want to get into the habit of living off it again. The half loaf of bread has been in our fridge for ages now - lol previously that would have been gone between bliss and I within an afternoon!!! I had one piece with some anchovette (a south african fish spread and a real treat - also quite low cal!) and the other with a thin spreading of our home made cherry jam!! The first taste of last summers labours. Whilst delicious it was very sweet so only to be had in miniscule portions occasionally. I didn't want to eat too long before leaving for class so I had an apple only. So far so good on the cals today. I might allow myself the "count on us" chocolate dessert I got in M&S on the way home. I will however wait and see if I am actually hungry later before I indulge. I quite like the idea of having dessert in the evenings and do have it most nights. I think knowing that I have something to look forward to in the evenings even if it is only fat free yoghurt and fruit really stops me indulging in other naughtier treats.
So more Chai updates tomorrow and wishing all of you a relaxed and happy Sunday.
Jez
xx
it def digests better aswell and makes you fuller quicker i think
