Hi everyone
It was a long afternoon at the hospital. They confirmed no change and no heartbeat still. Im starting to bleed heavily now and just waiting for the inevitable. I filled out forms and the surgicentre will contact me in 10-14 days but I think its going to happen naturally before then
I fought with the consultant about painkillers with her just saying that paracetamol etc should do the trick and me saying it did nothing last time. Managed to get some Codeine Phosphate out of them and Im hoping that it will be strong enough.
At the moment Im just sitting around waiting for the pain and for it all to start. Just trying to keep myself comfortable and not moving around too much
Its a horrible end to the year.
I have so much going through my head. The consultant said they definitely wont do any tests until 3 miscarriages. Hubby is keen to try again as soon as we can, however..im very nervous. I guess I am lucky that I seem to be able to fall pregnant with relevant ease...the problem with me seems to be staying pregnant.
Im worried about the same happening again next time. I wonder why so many women have perfect pregnancies with no problems and yet there are women who struggle to fall pregnant and/or lose their babies time and time again. It seems so unfair and it breaks my heart.
I also feel like the NHS could do so much more to care for women who lose babies. I had my scan yesterday where it was confirmed and then me and hubby were just left for about an hour on chairs in the corridor with other women all of us having just been told the same thing. All of us sitting there listening to a girl in one of the beds crying out in pain as she is going through her miscarriage. There was no private area..and I felt like I couldnt cry and let out any of the pain. After about 45 minutes i said out loud 'THIS IS A JOKE' to which a nurse came and said I am second on the list to see the consultant. I mean...I feel it may have been that slightly bit easier for me and I was prepared for what I had just heard. However, what about women/girls who had just heard for the first time that their baby has died *sigh*
Anyways - Im done. At least I suppose thats got some stuff off my chest. Thank you girls for your ongoing support/concern, it really does help. I do wonder whether I should start a different thread somewhere else on the forum now as I cant really stay in the pregnancy part. Shame there isnt a miscarriage support part where women who have all gone through or are going through this can discuss. I dont really fit into the pregnancy without the pounds or TTC parts at the moment