Katkins SW diary
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Hi Jules,
Just been reading your thread. I know what you mean about feeling like you're eating too much.....it really does work though. Good luck for the WI on Thursday hun.
Mini meltdown!!
I'm soooooo annoyed with myself.
I've been rubbish the past couple of days, don't know whats come over me. I've done OK mealwise but every evening I've had chocolate or biscuits and i'm not talking the small amount that you can syn....i'm talking biiiiiig bar of dairy milk!!! And several chocolate digestives:break_diet:
I feel so disappointed with myself, I always seem to do this. I have a few good weightlosses and then go silly and eat cr*p for days on end. I wake up the morning after feeling dreadful about what i've done and then I'm stuck in the horrid cycle of feeling rubbish and eating more because I feel rubbish arghhhhh. I even got on the scales this morning to see 3lb up!!! That just made me feel worse....why did I weigh myself??? Its like i'm in self destruct mode or something. :cry:
Anyway, I am desperately trying to get myself back on track today, hence the big confession. I've figured if I just avoid syns right up until WI on Tuesday, I may be able to undo some of the damage.
:wave_cry:So sorry to anyone reading for such a negative post but I felt I needed to fess up so I could move on and get back on track.
Feel free to give me the kick up the bum I need lol
I'm soooooo annoyed with myself.
I've been rubbish the past couple of days, don't know whats come over me. I've done OK mealwise but every evening I've had chocolate or biscuits and i'm not talking the small amount that you can syn....i'm talking biiiiiig bar of dairy milk!!! And several chocolate digestives:break_diet:I feel so disappointed with myself, I always seem to do this. I have a few good weightlosses and then go silly and eat cr*p for days on end. I wake up the morning after feeling dreadful about what i've done and then I'm stuck in the horrid cycle of feeling rubbish and eating more because I feel rubbish arghhhhh. I even got on the scales this morning to see 3lb up!!! That just made me feel worse....why did I weigh myself??? Its like i'm in self destruct mode or something. :cry:
Anyway, I am desperately trying to get myself back on track today, hence the big confession. I've figured if I just avoid syns right up until WI on Tuesday, I may be able to undo some of the damage.
:wave_cry:So sorry to anyone reading for such a negative post but I felt I needed to fess up so I could move on and get back on track.
Feel free to give me the kick up the bum I need lol 
Julslynne
No pain, no gain
katkins77 said:I'm soooooo annoyed with myself.
I feel so disappointed with myself, I always seem to do this. I have a few good weightlosses and then go silly and eat cr*p for days on end. I wake up the morning after feeling dreadful about what i've done and then I'm stuck in the horrid cycle of feeling rubbish and eating more because I feel rubbish arghhhhh. I even got on the scales this morning to see 3lb up!!! That just made me feel worse....why did I weigh myself??? Its like i'm in self destruct mode or something. :cry:
Anyway, I am desperately trying to get myself back on track today, hence the big confession. I've figured if I just avoid syns right up until WI on Tuesday, I may be able to undo some of the damage.
:wave_cry:So sorry to anyone reading for such a negative post but I felt I needed to fess up so I could move on and get back on track.
Awe bless. I know how u feel hun. I'm a serial binger myself. It's a vicious circle. You feel rubbish you binge to make you feel better and then you feel rubbish for letting yourself binge. Its a no win situation. Glad your getting yourself back on track. Chin up hun.
Hugs
XxJulesxX
Awww, thanks Jules for taking the time to reply. I'm feeling a bit better today, had a saintly day yesterday so feeling like i've gained a bit of control back. I hate that i'm a binger, I know that it was the binging that put we where I was in the first place. I'd like to think i'm changing my eating habits for life doing SW but it just goes to show how easily I can fall back into my bad old ways. I am very much an all or nothing kind of person tbh, i'm fine aslong as i don't have anything remotely chocolately...but once I do, I can't flippin stop lol.
Well, i'm now trying to avoid anything remotely synly until WI on Tuesday. Just living on free and superfree for now. It's going ok so far, could do without it being BH weekend though lol.
Hope ur having a good week hun
Hi Saucy, thanks for your kind words. I know what you mean about the naughtiness lasting a whole week, i've been there many a time. I'm trying for damage limitation now after a very synful 3 days.
Hope you are having a good week.
Very mediocre couple of days foodwise.
Yesterday, brekkie was branflakes with milk from HEA
lunch was only an apple due to trying to save syns/calories for tea at mums
Dinner, Roast turkey with 3x roast potatoes (done in olive oil not frylight) carrots, brocolli and green beans plus some very yummy gravy (probably mega syns)
2x meringue nests with mixed berries and 3 x twilight chocolates.
I've not attempted to add the syns up as I really have no idea. I've more or less written this week off anyway due to the appalling start.
Today - brekkie was a punnet of strawberries
Lunch - bacon, scrambled egg with beans and 2 mini rolls oops!!
Dinner - is going to be a bbq if the rain holds off for the next hour.....if not then it will be grilled homemade burgers made with extra lean mince, wholemeal roll HEA with salad, syn free wedges and a dollop of hamburger relish nom nom nom
The house smells of chocolate at the moment as the kids have been baking.....will the smell be enough to satisfy my love for choccie and keep me from eating the cakes????Lets hope so.:sigh:
Yesterday, brekkie was branflakes with milk from HEA
lunch was only an apple due to trying to save syns/calories for tea at mums
Dinner, Roast turkey with 3x roast potatoes (done in olive oil not frylight) carrots, brocolli and green beans plus some very yummy gravy (probably mega syns)
2x meringue nests with mixed berries and 3 x twilight chocolates.
I've not attempted to add the syns up as I really have no idea. I've more or less written this week off anyway due to the appalling start.
Today - brekkie was a punnet of strawberries
Lunch - bacon, scrambled egg with beans and 2 mini rolls oops!!
Dinner - is going to be a bbq if the rain holds off for the next hour.....if not then it will be grilled homemade burgers made with extra lean mince, wholemeal roll HEA with salad, syn free wedges and a dollop of hamburger relish nom nom nom
The house smells of chocolate at the moment as the kids have been baking.....will the smell be enough to satisfy my love for choccie and keep me from eating the cakes????Lets hope so.:sigh:
boo68
One day at a time
Hiya Katkins
Wow I've just read your diay and to be honest you sound just like me. When I binge I really do binge and its usually chocolate that sets it off, its not nice is it
You know Kat if you ever need some extra support (I know there is a lot on here) you can always pop onto my diary and post, I've got the app on my phone so can reply quite quickly.
I'm fortunate now because Mr Boo is coming to class with me so I really can't go off the rails without dragging him off too and because we both need to lose weight for medical reasons I really don't want to. Its weird because I'm staying on track not really for me but for him, hmmm just realised that as I typed lol.
I remember one time I'd joined slimming world (I've lost count how many times I have joined tbh over the years, well ever since the kids where little and my oldest is now 19) I bought a party bag of smarties, you know the little boxes, well I had one box and ended up eating the whole bloomin party bag of them, I felt sick as a dog lol but thats the sort of thing I can do if I let myself.
Gawd I've rambled a bit lol, anyhoo, stay strong and I'll catch up with you later xx Boo xx
Wow I've just read your diay and to be honest you sound just like me. When I binge I really do binge and its usually chocolate that sets it off, its not nice is it
You know Kat if you ever need some extra support (I know there is a lot on here) you can always pop onto my diary and post, I've got the app on my phone so can reply quite quickly.
I'm fortunate now because Mr Boo is coming to class with me so I really can't go off the rails without dragging him off too and because we both need to lose weight for medical reasons I really don't want to. Its weird because I'm staying on track not really for me but for him, hmmm just realised that as I typed lol.
I remember one time I'd joined slimming world (I've lost count how many times I have joined tbh over the years, well ever since the kids where little and my oldest is now 19) I bought a party bag of smarties, you know the little boxes, well I had one box and ended up eating the whole bloomin party bag of them, I felt sick as a dog lol but thats the sort of thing I can do if I let myself.
Gawd I've rambled a bit lol, anyhoo, stay strong and I'll catch up with you later xx Boo xx
Hi Boo,
Thanks for that, its kind of reassuring to know i'm not the only one fighting the devil chocolate all the time. Sometimes I read through peoples diaries on here and am amazed by how strong they are, it kind of makes me feel like i'm the only one who finds it so easy to go off the rails.
I do love it when i'm in control, I feel so empowered but its just soooo easy for me to fall off. I think alot of the time its emotional, if i'm feeling a bit low I comfort eat. I do realise that this isn't good but its so hard to get out of the cycle.
Thanks for posting hun. Wishing you a happy Tuesday
Kat x
Thanks for that, its kind of reassuring to know i'm not the only one fighting the devil chocolate all the time. Sometimes I read through peoples diaries on here and am amazed by how strong they are, it kind of makes me feel like i'm the only one who finds it so easy to go off the rails.
I do love it when i'm in control, I feel so empowered but its just soooo easy for me to fall off. I think alot of the time its emotional, if i'm feeling a bit low I comfort eat. I do realise that this isn't good but its so hard to get out of the cycle.
Thanks for posting hun. Wishing you a happy Tuesday
Kat x
boo68
One day at a time
Hiya Katkins
No problems, I know what you mean tho, I read through some diaries and I can't believe how strong they are when its so easy for me to slip. I also usual chocolate or a glass of wine or 2 as a comfort food, lordy knows I've had enough stress this past year to send me over the edge a few times. You have a good Tuesday too Katkins, its our weigh-in tonight so wish us luck lol. Stay strong, Boo xx
No problems, I know what you mean tho, I read through some diaries and I can't believe how strong they are when its so easy for me to slip. I also usual chocolate or a glass of wine or 2 as a comfort food, lordy knows I've had enough stress this past year to send me over the edge a few times. You have a good Tuesday too Katkins, its our weigh-in tonight so wish us luck lol. Stay strong, Boo xx
Julslynne
No pain, no gain
Hi hun. STS - that's ok considering. Like you said. Draw a line under it and start afresh. Keeping a food diary is a good idea and make sure you get plenty of super free in. I've got my WI tomorrow night. Not holding out much hope either. Went a bit haywire during my marathon night shifts lol. Well here's to hoping anyway. Have a lovely evening chick.
Hugs
XxJulesxX
Hugs
XxJulesxX
Oooh, good luck for WI tonight hun, will keep everything crossed for you.
I'm well and truly back on the straight and narrow lol. I had a truly angelic day yesterday and have only had branflakes so far today. I've had a filling this morning and i'm still extremely numb so can't eat at the moment.....am so thirsty its untrue though.
Let us know how WI in goes
Kat x
I'm well and truly back on the straight and narrow lol. I had a truly angelic day yesterday and have only had branflakes so far today. I've had a filling this morning and i'm still extremely numb so can't eat at the moment.....am so thirsty its untrue though.
Let us know how WI in goes
Kat x
