Kat27
Full Member
My diary is an attempt to stop me from blowing all my hard work over the last few weeks! Ive lost 1st 11.5lb in the last 7 weeks, missed last weeks group because of a bad back and havent stopped eating since! :break_diet:
It's partly because my back gets so bad that I cant move so I had to stay in bed and get some rest to prevent it from going completely, which obviously meant no exercise, but also the boredom from being trapped in bed. I literally went through all my old books and magazines, watched and rewatched dvds and then started eating! Its been pizza here and sandwiches there, even ate 3 packets of crisps earlier and I dont even eat crisps! I just cant seem to stop eating! I am back on my feet again though luckily, as often my back is so bad Im in bed for up to 3 months unable to move, but even though I should be exercising I just cant seem to get my motivation back!
Think Im just having a bad week, being stuck in hasnt helped, my daughter who's on half term seems far more annoying than usual (sounds evil but yesterday the little moo flicked paint up the walls in my lounge which I cant get off, ripped a blind out of my wall and broke the tv, so to say I will be glad when the easter holidays are over is an understatement!), and seeing the weight creep back on isnt helping - its only about 2lb but it just makes me want to eat rather than work it off!
The reason I joined SW in the first place was because I was getting married and the thought of looking like a whale on my wedding day was all the motivation I needed to get going on the plan and lose weight. But I decided that my ex wasnt for me and we split up a few weeks ago and although I want to lose the weight for me now, its getting hard to stay focused because I no longer have the big white dress to concentrate on! I am ok with my decision, it was the right one for me not to go ahead with the wedding but its just the fall out Im now having to deal with thats getting to me (lucky I hadnt paid any deposits yet put it that way!), I keep getting drunken late night texts from my ex and my wedding mag subscriptions keep landing on my door mat which is doing nothing to help me stop thinking about it all!
This is probably the most moaning post any of you have ever had the misfortune to read! I just need to get it all off my chest so to speak and I suppose doing it online is easier than talking to people who just assume that Im ok, none of my friends or family have even asked me if Im ok since I broke off the engagement! I actually lost 7lb that week, and not through lack of eating, I cleaned my flat from top to bottom and stuck ridgedly to the diet, think I convinced myself that doing it for myself was better than doing it to fit into a dress, but its getting harder to do that now! Like I say Im probably just having a bad week, but not quite sure how I can get my motivation back!
I think that if I just start over again tomorrow and forget what Ive eaten the last week and a half and try and get rid of the few pounds Ive put on I will be ok. Ive got another 2.5lb to lose before Ive lost 2 stone, so if I could get that off in the next 2 weeks I would be back on track and it would probably be the boost I need to keep going again. Ive also just been invited to a wedding in June and if I could get another 2 stone off by then I would be a very happy bunny! Maybe I need to set myself some mini goals and tick them off as I go along which would make me feel better!
Sorry again for all the moaning!
It's partly because my back gets so bad that I cant move so I had to stay in bed and get some rest to prevent it from going completely, which obviously meant no exercise, but also the boredom from being trapped in bed. I literally went through all my old books and magazines, watched and rewatched dvds and then started eating! Its been pizza here and sandwiches there, even ate 3 packets of crisps earlier and I dont even eat crisps! I just cant seem to stop eating! I am back on my feet again though luckily, as often my back is so bad Im in bed for up to 3 months unable to move, but even though I should be exercising I just cant seem to get my motivation back!
Think Im just having a bad week, being stuck in hasnt helped, my daughter who's on half term seems far more annoying than usual (sounds evil but yesterday the little moo flicked paint up the walls in my lounge which I cant get off, ripped a blind out of my wall and broke the tv, so to say I will be glad when the easter holidays are over is an understatement!), and seeing the weight creep back on isnt helping - its only about 2lb but it just makes me want to eat rather than work it off!
The reason I joined SW in the first place was because I was getting married and the thought of looking like a whale on my wedding day was all the motivation I needed to get going on the plan and lose weight. But I decided that my ex wasnt for me and we split up a few weeks ago and although I want to lose the weight for me now, its getting hard to stay focused because I no longer have the big white dress to concentrate on! I am ok with my decision, it was the right one for me not to go ahead with the wedding but its just the fall out Im now having to deal with thats getting to me (lucky I hadnt paid any deposits yet put it that way!), I keep getting drunken late night texts from my ex and my wedding mag subscriptions keep landing on my door mat which is doing nothing to help me stop thinking about it all!
This is probably the most moaning post any of you have ever had the misfortune to read! I just need to get it all off my chest so to speak and I suppose doing it online is easier than talking to people who just assume that Im ok, none of my friends or family have even asked me if Im ok since I broke off the engagement! I actually lost 7lb that week, and not through lack of eating, I cleaned my flat from top to bottom and stuck ridgedly to the diet, think I convinced myself that doing it for myself was better than doing it to fit into a dress, but its getting harder to do that now! Like I say Im probably just having a bad week, but not quite sure how I can get my motivation back!
I think that if I just start over again tomorrow and forget what Ive eaten the last week and a half and try and get rid of the few pounds Ive put on I will be ok. Ive got another 2.5lb to lose before Ive lost 2 stone, so if I could get that off in the next 2 weeks I would be back on track and it would probably be the boost I need to keep going again. Ive also just been invited to a wedding in June and if I could get another 2 stone off by then I would be a very happy bunny! Maybe I need to set myself some mini goals and tick them off as I go along which would make me feel better!
Sorry again for all the moaning!