LeaE
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demonp said:Omg-i go away for a few hours and come back to so much to comment on-lucky its my lie in day today so i have some peace and quiet. Ok,firstly, as someone who has also opened one of those emotional boxes on this forum, i salute you for your post above. I know how hard it is to finally admit out loud to some of your deepest secrets. Trust me, you will now be able to make better sense of it. Until i met my husband i had said i would never get married for similar reasons to you-plus i was convinced i would get hurt. Get this-even when we did get married, i told him i didn't think it would last more than 18 months. Nice huh! Defense mechanism-just like making fat jokes about myself before anyone else does. We are now approaching our 10 year anniversary but i still have wobbles-and that's not just my thighs! Big admission now-my low body image has also ruined our sex life and Im not really sure why he is still with me, but Im bloody glad he is as he is my world. When you meet the right one LeahE, your heart will take over your insecurity and you will say yes-and you will make the most beautiful bride! Next thing-smash up your bloody scales-seriously girl, how many times do we have to tell you! Stop putting yourself through it! Next thing,the christening is just one day of your life. Relax. You are stronger than you realise. Just keep offering to hold babies and then you won't have any free hands for food and drink. Next thing-good luck with wi. Whatever you get will be amazing because you are still in control! And just keep thinking about those jeans. Sometimes lost inches say more than scales. Last thing-off subject-has anyone else read,'fifty shades grey'? Someone at work recommended it to me-started reading it yesterday and boy does it make you blush. If you after some escapisim here it is-could only have been written by a woman! Anyway-good luck again hun-everything crossed for you. Try not to sneeze on all that fairy dust that Sharon is sprinkling around for youx
Ah love thank u so much for that post it was like I was chatting with myself x our sex life goes up and down too ! Maybe an over share but I feel I should say this to u because sometimes u feel as though it's just u and all yr problems are worse than everyone's else's so brace yrself for this post pip x my bf sex drive has never been high x it's got better since he has been with me an he finds it difficult to talk about but due to previous relationships his sex life consisted of no fore play him climbing on top a few mins pump and then a squirt lmao got to make this light hearted lol and that for me is def not worth having to bare my flab for lol so over time we have progressed he still has some weird hang ups eg oral but he's a little better ! Well now I have made head way with his issues I now have to defeat mine ! I like going on top as it makes me look thinner but def no doggy as I just think omg my fat ass in the air my stomach and boobs wobbling all over and to be honest that makes me feel sick x I have sex in the dark ! Under covers ! With a vest top on etc to cover all my sins and even then sometimes when we are actually having sex I can't stop thinking how sorry I feel for him having to jump on a bouncy castle like me and how he prob cheats on me to get someone prettier and slimmer how mental is that while having sex ! I have so many tactics to cover and hide my body not just in the bedroom but in all aspects of life and just yesterday I had to angrily admit to my bf and sister I wasn't booking to go to alton towers this month after my excuses wore thin because I'm too fat and I'm scared I won't fit on the rides ! It nearly killed me saying that to them but it's part of the healing process and yes it was difficult but it makes it more real so means I have to deal with my weight now x anyway pip hope that over share helped and this post is a just for u to make u feel better and hopefully help u like u do me hope it wasn't too grafic but at least yr not hungry now after me making u want to vomit lol xxxx
