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LoChan1984
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*surfaces sheepishly*
Heys...
Heh will save reporting on London and stuff for another time probably. Just kinda checking in to prove I'm alive. It's been a pretty bad week :sigh:
I had my note extended, it runs out 5 March but my work is making me come in for an attendance monitoring review already on Monday... makes me feel a bit harrassed and guilty as if I dare to have a moment of enjoyment then I'm meant to be back at work
They wanted me to come in yesterday morning but they didn't phone me up to discuss it or anything, just sent me a letter in the post - which I didn't get until Thursday evening Not sure what I'm supposed to say and what's best to keep to myself... research I guess
Got a doctors apt the same day in the afternoon for my next prescription so I guess at least it's getting rid of two things in one day.
Heh the footman cut his hair, not so nice anymore. Hohum, such is life
Hope you're all okay xxx
Heys...
Heh will save reporting on London and stuff for another time probably. Just kinda checking in to prove I'm alive. It's been a pretty bad week :sigh:
I had my note extended, it runs out 5 March but my work is making me come in for an attendance monitoring review already on Monday... makes me feel a bit harrassed and guilty as if I dare to have a moment of enjoyment then I'm meant to be back at work
They wanted me to come in yesterday morning but they didn't phone me up to discuss it or anything, just sent me a letter in the post - which I didn't get until Thursday evening Not sure what I'm supposed to say and what's best to keep to myself... research I guess Got a doctors apt the same day in the afternoon for my next prescription so I guess at least it's getting rid of two things in one day.
Heh the footman cut his hair, not so nice anymore. Hohum, such is life
Hope you're all okay xxx
broadsbean
Gold Member
*surfaces sheepishly*
Heys...
Heh will save reporting on London and stuff for another time probably. Just kinda checking in to prove I'm alive. It's been a pretty bad week :sigh:
I had my note extended, it runs out 5 March but my work is making me come in for an attendance monitoring review already on Monday... makes me feel a bit harrassed and guilty as if I dare to have a moment of enjoyment then I'm meant to be back at work
Got a doctors apt the same day in the afternoon for my next prescription so I guess at least it's getting rid of two things in one day.
Heh the footman cut his hair, not so nice anymore. Hohum, such is life
Hope you're all okay xxx
oh how i remember the attendence monitoring interviews :sigh:
not going to say don't worry cos no matter how many people told menot to i still did
basically they are a formality that is probably detailed in the sickness absence policy, they should be a fact finding mission for them and a chance for them to offer support.
i do not really remember the first 2 i had, i was a gibbering wreck
my manager has since told me she couldn't belief that it was me and actually was really surprised i came back so quickly (i was of 17 weeks in total)
be honest, i think as long as you can show you are working at getting sorted and are waiting counselling, i am sure they will be fine
:bighug::bighug::bighug: i really feel for you honey xxxxx but am also sure it won't be as bad as you think xxxx
Pomooky125
Silver Member
Lovely to have you back Lo!
Don't worry about work. Your health is your priority and the meeting is just a formality. Hope everything goes ok for you and that you had a wonderful time in London.
Pomooky XXX
Don't worry about work. Your health is your priority and the meeting is just a formality. Hope everything goes ok for you and that you had a wonderful time in London.
Pomooky XXX
Lily42uk
Gold Member
Hey sweetie, Like Mandy said I could tell you not to worry about the meeting, but you will anyway, just remember your health is what's important...as my Nan used to say, you're a long time dead....so concentrate on you and not the job cos worrying about the job will keep you off longer in the end.
Take care lovely :bighug: xxxxxxxxxx
Take care lovely :bighug: xxxxxxxxxx
broadsbean
Gold Member
hey honey, wondering how it went today hope your ok xx
have been thinking about you today :bighug::bighug::bighug:
have been thinking about you today :bighug::bighug::bighug:
LoChan1984
Gold Member
Heyos,
The work thing went okay I think, though I can't remember what I told them about and what I didn't heh. My manager was alright but did put in a few 'look on the positive side - you might be back at work next monday' with a big grin on his face. Let's just say I didn't share his enthusiam
Getting referred to occ'health through work... dunno what's safe to tell them either.
Tbh I'm already thinking of a plan to get out of the job altogether by the end of the year, if it's possible. My brother co-childminds with my mum but he is going to uni in september to do nursing. Going to bring up with my mum if she thinks I could try taking over from him (working less hours since I don't live in the same bit of manchester as her anymore so would need some travelling time). It'll be a bit of a breather for me and would build up some work experience for the job I think would suit me further down the road - I'd like to be a teaching assistant in a primary school It's a long way off, I'd want to get my confidence built up (and a fair bit of weight off too) but I think it's something that would work for me - it's not a money maker but there's job satisfaction there (plus the holidays would work out well with my son/potential future babies). So yeah, I'm a bit of a mess but I've hatched a somewhat hazy plan
Doctors apt also yesterday - atm I'm scoring higher on the tests than lower I've been given another month of tabs but going back in two weeks to see if I'm still struggling then we're going to talk about switching to something else. I'm signed off until 19th March now, got to wait for my counselling assessment until the 15th - she offered to do things over the phone but I wouldn't be comfortable with that (plus my homeline has gone all crackly and unreliable again and my mobile doesn't work in the house 'cause of too many trees )...
Mn yeah today I'm shattered. Yesterday was too much talking reckon lol Need to stop now, back later xxx
The work thing went okay I think, though I can't remember what I told them about and what I didn't heh. My manager was alright but did put in a few 'look on the positive side - you might be back at work next monday' with a big grin on his face. Let's just say I didn't share his enthusiam
Getting referred to occ'health through work... dunno what's safe to tell them either.
Tbh I'm already thinking of a plan to get out of the job altogether by the end of the year, if it's possible. My brother co-childminds with my mum but he is going to uni in september to do nursing. Going to bring up with my mum if she thinks I could try taking over from him (working less hours since I don't live in the same bit of manchester as her anymore so would need some travelling time). It'll be a bit of a breather for me and would build up some work experience for the job I think would suit me further down the road - I'd like to be a teaching assistant in a primary school
It's a long way off, I'd want to get my confidence built up (and a fair bit of weight off too) but I think it's something that would work for me - it's not a money maker but there's job satisfaction there (plus the holidays would work out well with my son/potential future babies). So yeah, I'm a bit of a mess but I've hatched a somewhat hazy plan Doctors apt also yesterday - atm I'm scoring higher on the tests than lower
I've been given another month of tabs but going back in two weeks to see if I'm still struggling then we're going to talk about switching to something else. I'm signed off until 19th March now, got to wait for my counselling assessment until the 15th - she offered to do things over the phone but I wouldn't be comfortable with that (plus my homeline has gone all crackly and unreliable again and my mobile doesn't work in the house 'cause of too many trees )...Mn yeah today I'm shattered. Yesterday was too much talking reckon lol Need to stop now, back later xxx
broadsbean
Gold Member
odd isn't it that you can attend a meeting take part and have no real clue about what you said
its perfectly normal cos they are such stressful meetings :sigh:
occi health were really helpful to me they actually recommended i didn't return to work the first few times i saw them and then insisted on the phased return, so don't worry too much about them
your doing great honey, i still find myself really emotionally tierd after i have pushed my self xxxx
:bighug::bighug::bighug:
its perfectly normal cos they are such stressful meetings :sigh:
occi health were really helpful to me they actually recommended i didn't return to work the first few times i saw them and then insisted on the phased return, so don't worry too much about them
your doing great honey, i still find myself really emotionally tierd after i have pushed my self xxxx
:bighug::bighug::bighug:
Pomooky125
Silver Member
Hello Lochan
Lovely to hear from you. Sorry it was so stressful at work. Sounds daft, but this could shape your future in a way - you are already cooking (!) something up, see! Something positive is sure to come out of it.
Po xxx
Lovely to hear from you. Sorry it was so stressful at work. Sounds daft, but this could shape your future in a way - you are already cooking (!) something up, see! Something positive is sure to come out of it.
Po xxx
Lily42uk
Gold Member
hey Lo,
Hope you're ok hun, I am so sorry not been about, life just seems to be encroaching on my mini's time and I don't seem to be able to get about on here anymore.
How's your feet? Are the tabs doing any good? Are you going to come back and talk hun, we miss you :bighug: whatever you're doing sweetie, I hope you are ok :hug99: xxxxxxxxxxx
Hope you're ok hun, I am so sorry not been about, life just seems to be encroaching on my mini's time and I don't seem to be able to get about on here anymore.
How's your feet? Are the tabs doing any good? Are you going to come back and talk hun, we miss you :bighug: whatever you're doing sweetie, I hope you are ok :hug99: xxxxxxxxxxx
LoChan1984
Gold Member
Grr, minis just ate a big post I was writing
Heys Lily :bighug:
Having a bit of a hard time atm, concentration is a bit carp... tablets aren't really making any difference, if anything I'm probably worse with more time to dwell on the whys I'm feeling bad rather than how to get better... or I'm asleep or I'm getting in a tizzy 'cause I can't settle down to do anything which is frustrating :sigh:
Feets are a bit aggravated but I'm keeping up the physio exercises I was given and I've had two lots of ultrasound. Been referred to podiatry too to see if I need any thingies for my shoes etc
Mn one positive thingy is my mum seems keen on letting me take over from my brother with the childminding in septemberish - we're waiting to hear when I might be able to sign up for the registration and first aid courses in advance, back to school for me
It's going to be a bit stressful keeping it quiet from work though I'll try and have a minis day soon to catch up and socialise. Out at my mum's tomorrow covering for my brother while he's at a uni interview, wednesday I've got my occi health appointment and the dentist... I don't think wednesday will be a fun day
tillymax
Gold Member
Hi Lo
Just wanted to let you know that I'm on week 5 of the tablets and the side effects are starting to settle. I feel less exhausted and I'm not constantly panicking. The side effects do make you feel worse than when you first started but hopefully thinjgs will start to improve for you really soon
Just wanted to let you know that I'm on week 5 of the tablets and the side effects are starting to settle. I feel less exhausted and I'm not constantly panicking. The side effects do make you feel worse than when you first started but hopefully thinjgs will start to improve for you really soon
broadsbean
Gold Member
:bighug::bighug::bighug: xxxxx
Lily42uk
Gold Member
Hey Lo, hun it's good to see you when you're up to it, please don't feel pressured.
The tabs will settle down and start working (if they're not already), I remember years ago feeling like they wouldn't but then I took myself of them and believe me when I say Mal was screaming at me to restart them, I hadn't noticed any change but apparently I was a lot calmer, just still screwed up and trying to sort myself out and not noticing what a difference they really were making.
Good to see you keeping up with the physio exercise, if you get some relief from your feet it will help you feel less anxious and stressed too.
:fingerscrossed: it all works out with the child minding, the stress of everything concerned with taking over from your brother may be just the distraction you need.
Take care lovely Lo and keep well till we speak again :hug99: xxxxx
The tabs will settle down and start working (if they're not already), I remember years ago feeling like they wouldn't but then I took myself of them and believe me when I say Mal was screaming at me to restart them, I hadn't noticed any change but apparently I was a lot calmer, just still screwed up and trying to sort myself out and not noticing what a difference they really were making.
Good to see you keeping up with the physio exercise, if you get some relief from your feet it will help you feel less anxious and stressed too.
:fingerscrossed: it all works out with the child minding, the stress of everything concerned with taking over from your brother may be just the distraction you need.
Take care lovely Lo and keep well till we speak again :hug99: xxxxx
Pomooky125
Silver Member
Hey up Lo!
Just to say hello and hope you are feeling better.
Hope your feet are fighting fit and your head is calmer.
Miss your food porn though!
Po xxx
Just to say hello and hope you are feeling better.
Hope your feet are fighting fit and your head is calmer.
Miss your food porn though!
Po xxx
broadsbean
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:bighug::bighug::bighug:
miss you honey, hope your doing ok xxxxx
:bighug::bighug::bighug:
miss you honey, hope your doing ok xxxxx
:bighug::bighug::bighug:
LoChan1984
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