Lost & Found... Map Gone AWOL!

so... need to change that core belief? That this person was wrong? That I am wrong? All along?

Yeah, something like that. BUT, the limiting beliefs that are presented to us in childhood are welded quite firmly into our psyche. We have to constantly challenge them knowing that it's not a fact, just something that you have practised believing. I'm sure there will be others beside the punishing side. Some of mine were

Once I start, I can't stop
One packet of crisps always leads to another
I have to diet constantly to keep the weight off.
I'm not worth the effort.

What might happen then?

xxx

If you don't believe that you need to punish yourself, then you wont. Simple as that, but as I say, it takes practice and it's just one bit of the jigsaw, though it is a big bit ;)

Remember belief always precedes action. If you truly believe it, you will live it.

As for Grandmothers. Ack! Grrrr! Wonder if anyone has ever read my Grandwitch experience? Actually...forgotten about that thread. Must update :D

Fortunately Grandwitch is no longer with us. I truly believe that this is good. :)
 
OK... will have to head off again shortly, business dinner, & very busy tomorrow so may just check in early on before I set off.

Today, not much work to be done... easy and stress free. Then had time for look around Bath. Fab city, full of people dressed like Jane Austen or wearing tricorne hats. Seriously. there is some sort of convention going on here today!

Have bought some dresses...
a/ 1940s vintage black crepe dress £25 at antique market
b/ 1950s style black & white print dress, full skirt, boat neck, Laura Ashley
c/ 1960s style purple cord pinafore/shift dress, Laura Ashley.
The Laura Ashley ones were both 25% off, bargain! Both size 12s. The black 50s style one is very snug, that will have to change. But they all look lovely...

Also made a start on Xmas shopping, & all in just an hour & a half! Great place.

Feel hopeful.

Brekky today was porridge, 0% yog, tomato juice, scrambled egg.
lunch was skinny latte & CD bar
dinner will be late but lavish, I am a little wary of this but will just make best choices I can. Hopefully can avoid pud & have coffee instead.

xxx

Bath is lovely and the clothes sound great. Can you get to the Costume Museum while you are there? It's quite central. I think you'd love it.
 
As for Grandmothers. Ack! Grrrr! Wonder if anyone has ever read my Grandwitch experience? Actually...forgotten about that thread. Must update :D

Fortunately Grandwitch is no longer with us. I truly believe that this is good. :)

I have. What a horror. Poor you.x
 
Bess, you're right, we are lucky.

And yes, art, literature & music, too... definitely. Don't know 'The Land' but will check it out. Sending a hug, have a fab evening.

KD, clutching my large piece of jigsaw and the mantra 'belief precedes action.' Time will tell whether I can use it to my advantage, but I am hoping so.

My grans were both darlings, but 'grandwitch' sounds terrifying!

xxx
 
OK, now want to read the grandwitch story!

And OMG, there is a costume museum? Why did I not know that? I have to see it!!!

Better dash now & get ready, or gonna be late...

xxx
 
Have fun Katy.
I also want to hear about grandwitch!
 
Thanks Bess. Will try to look tomorrow morning, though I won't have much time... but I can get an idea, anyway.

Dinner:
rocket, pea & feta salad
cauli & lentil curry, rice, raita (left some)
1/2 choc brownie & ice cream
1 Baileys, fizzy water, mint tea

xxx
 
Morning Katy - only been to Bath once, about 12 years ago, and how funny I can remember where we went for lunch!

Sounds like you had a good day buying lovely dresses, and you started your Christmas shopping, am in awe of that!

Hope you have a lovely Sunday x

ps. I too have impostor syndrome!
 
Bath sounds amazing hun as do the new purchases!!
The food your having sounds good....good choices yet yummy!

hope you've had no more electric shocks!

xxx
 
Thanks all.

Didn't have time to get to costume museum after all, sunday was all work, but fab. Mon was all travel... not so fab! Summing up food:

Sun:
lo-fat yog, fresh fruit, small amount scrambled egg, tomato juice
berry & seed yoghurt, skinny latte
pitta with hummus, veg & green salad

mon:
porridge, prunes, skim milk latte
chips & mushy peas
cake in morrisons cafe, hot cross bun at mum's

Good choices Sunday, was on go all day & can't eat much in middle of day when doing an 'event'. Alot of energy spent which is good.

Monday, just stressful & tiring, endless train journey, & start of totm. Train was delayed by 1 hour as some poor soul had thrown themselves on line at Wigan. This really upset me, & a thoughtless posh idiot on train had a loud mobile convo with someone about it, saying 'that's the good news' and 'it'll take forever to clean 'IT' all off the tracks' which really got to me. Some poor sod who couldn't see a future and all some people can think of is the inconvenience.

Anyway, did miss all connections after that. Late into Carlisle & succumbed to chips & peas as rittata were out of veggie sarnis. Was fab, don't really regret it. (Best chips ever & luckily live very far away from them so not a constant temptation!). Finally got connection, got off train & waited for OH in Morrisons for hour till he could fetch me (live bout an hour from station). Had coffee & chocolatey cake, which again was yummy, no regrets. Knew was exhausted & good choices not available in Morrisons anyway.

Later had a hot cross bun at mum's, didn't need it, didn't like it, so THAT was a bad choice.

No tea, as the cakes were it, obviously.

Weighed this morning, 11st 2, so same. And totm finally here, yay.

xxx
 
Hey Katie, glad you are home safe and sound. You still sounding positive about your food choices and i agree with you. Its all about the choices and reasoning behind them. Have been over eating myself recently and have pulled myself back back sharpish. I haven't put any weight on but thats not the point. Have upped my fruit intake and keeping my eye on my carbs intake. I know carbs aren't the enemy but they certainly bloat me :-(. Have a great day! xxx
 
Monday, just stressful & tiring, endless train journey, & start of totm. Train was delayed by 1 hour as some poor soul had thrown themselves on line at Wigan. This really upset me, & a thoughtless posh idiot on train had a loud mobile convo with someone about it, saying 'that's the good news' and 'it'll take forever to clean 'IT' all off the tracks' which really got to me. Some poor sod who couldn't see a future and all some people can think of is the inconvenience.

Later had a hot cross bun at mum's, didn't need it, didn't like it, so THAT was a bad choice.


xxx

Poor person and what a pratt the man on the phone was. Glad your trip was good otherwise tho' and well done on the food front. Even unwise choices can be compensated for it seems.
 
Yup, suppose I will pay for the chips & cake in the end, and have to wonder, if I hadn't had them, may have got a loss. Still, onwards...

When you think about it, we are not so badly off. We have our struggles & sadnesses, but we have a future, and it can be any way we want it to be... we can create and steer our own lives. That's great. Think I am still sad about the poor suicide yesterday, an old friend once ended his life this way just after uni, so in a way it brings that back.

Sun shining, all to play for... slim(ish) with lovely minis friends to help me through this last bit... life is good. It really is.

xxx
 
Desiderata Go placidly amid the noise and haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible without surrender be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even the dull and ignorant; they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain and bitter;
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs; for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals;
and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself.
Especially, do not feign affection.
Neither be critical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is as perennial as the grass.
Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness. Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.
Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be,
and whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.
With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world. Be careful. Strive to be happy.



And here it is for you, mushy, sentimental, perhaps and old fashioned now. But I like it and it's one of the things that helps me.

Love, Bess x

My most favourite words in the whole world. Thank you for sharing xx
 
Hi Katy, bet you are glad to be home, are the builders still with you? A STS is not bad considering you have been out of your usual routine, and now that TOTM is here that might drop some next week?

I too had a friend who ended their life in that way, but I don't think you need to have personal experience of this trauma to feel the sadness and desparation of the person involved. The pratt on the phone is fortunate if they haven't been touched by something like this, or perhaps they have and are just an utter and total pratt.

Hope you enjoyed the sunshine today x
 
Oh yes, builders still here... for the forseeable future I fear. Boiler has packed up now so boiler man here tomorrow as well... then bathroom got to be done soon... feels like there'll be no end of it!

Oops Kira, crossed with you... hi honey! I'm OK, hanging on and though today has been a bit stressful, I'll be OK. Son is in kitchen making a quorn goulash, wow!

xxx
 
Hey Katy,
Glad you had a fab time in bath hon, and good to see you back......
Awww thats really sad when people do that to themselves... I bet you were upset...
Hope you have a good day today hon ............ xxx
 
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