Luv2BSlim's Slim & Save Diary

[Want2BeSlim]

I can't sleep again, it's getting too often just lately. I am gonna be knackered when my alarm goes off

OMG I just typed out a post and pressed something on my keyboard and it made the browser go back! wth! .

LOL I daydream about food, usually write it down or watch food programs soon passes!!

Some days hunger isn't on the radar its weird LOL

I would love to juddd now but I'm so far off goal, more work yet!

Xx

Me too lol. Glad I'm not the only one who watches food programs, I'm slightly addicted

I have another 3 stone to lose until I am at goal (but that could change, I'll see how I feel when I get there). A part of me just doesn't see me being able to get to goal on a VLCD, but that could change... my mind changes all the time! lol. I really just don't know what I am going to do or when. All I know right now is I am doing S&S and want to lose at least another stone on it, maybe once I have done that I'll want to continue to goal

xx

 

[RebekahR]

Yeah I have the same amount to loose, so I'm going hard now, if I can get two big loss weeks a month it should be sooner than October refeed. Happy to refeed soon as I dip under 9

Oo noo waking up is rotten hun!! My oh kept stealing the duvet! Woke up twice LOL

Have a good day hun Xx

 

[Want2BeSlim]

Lol guess what... I can't sleep again! Grrrr

Yeah I have the same amount to loose, so I'm going hard now, if I can get two big loss weeks a month it should be sooner than October refeed. Happy to refeed soon as I dip under 9]

I am sure you can do it! Especially with your gym workouts anyway. I would love to be at goal by October, can't wait to be 10 and a half stone again!!! I haven't been that weight for almost 5 years. My BMI will still put me in the overweight range but at 10 and a half stone I was a size 12-14 which is the size I really want to be. I managed to get down to 9 stone 11lb but I don't like how thin my face looked and the fact I'm 5 years older might make it look worse LOL so 10 and a half should be good for me.

Oo noo waking up is rotten hun!! My oh kept stealing the duvet! Woke up twice LOL

Have a good day hun Xx

Oh no my ex always used to do that! LOL.
Xx

 

[Want2BeSlim]

Weigh in day yesterday and I was happy to see I was down 3.5lb. So the 11.75lb I gained on my 16 days off has gone in just 12 days and a bonus extra .25 YAY. I am so glad it took me just under 2 weeks rather than 4 like I originally thought.

So next weeks weigh in will be a proper weigh in if that even makes sense

 

[RebekahR]

Great stuff hun, onwards and downwards Xx

 

[Want2BeSlim]

I have been bad today. I have not felt hungry at all and haven't had any packs, all I have had is a small piece of cheese! I know this wont hurt ketosis as practically 0 carbs but NO where near enough calories. If I feel like this again tomorrow I'll force my packs down!

I am living on 2 eggs and porridge packs now as I am trying to use up all the porridge packs I have left. I don't think I can stomach them normally so have been making them into 'biscuits'. I will have to order again soon as I don't think I can continue it this way for too long. My next order will mainly consist of shakes and a few bars though.

I just went on the Slim and Save website to see what products I haven't tried and wouldn't mind trying. I have ordered a sample of the Thai soup, Veg soup and Macaroni cheese to see if I like them. I so need something different as living on just shakes will make me give up! I know that the new meal was curry but I have no idea when it's going to be released, I am eagerly awaiting it. I keep checking the website to see if there are any updates, none so far . I hope the S&S soups aren't like the exante ones, I didn't enjoy them at all really, they just tasted really salty, way too salty for me to eat.

I can't believe in 3.5lb I'll be in the 12's! OMG so damn good. Last time I was in the 12 stone range must have been 2008 I think. Only another 2 stone and 10.5lb to go until I am at goal, sounds really good and A LOT better than 5 stones to go. So if I continue with S&S until goal then this means I will be on S&S for another 10-12 weeks... and I can't bl**dy believe it! Sometimes I forget I'm nearly half way there and still think I have at least 5 months to go.

I also think I will be able to fit in size 16 clothes now, as my 18's are loose. Although not quite a comfy 16 so will continue with the 18's for a bit longer. I started this diet at a size 22, possibly close to a 24 and I had to shop at Yours Clothing because a lot of shops I used to like (before getting this big) didn't go up to that size... in Yours Clothing I would have to get the size 22-24 in clothes as they didn't do size 22, the next size down was clingy.

My goal is to get into a size 14 (hmm, maybe even size 12) skinny jeans, Ok, so a size 12/14 isn't skinny but what the heck I'm up for it. I have NEVER owned a pair of skinny jeans before. I can remember buying the size 12's low rise bootcut jeans back in 2007, I had just lost 3 stone and first bought them in a size 14. I went over to Spain to visit my then boyfriend and they kept falling down! I had to check I hadn't got a 16 by mistake. I came home, washed them then took them back and exchanged for a size 12 and was absolutely over the moon that I could fit into a size 12 low rise jeans! I want feel like that again, it was so good.

Great stuff hun, onwards and downwards Xx

Thanks Rebekah xx

 

[Want2BeSlim]

Feeling really crap today. I just want to burst into tears. My depression is bad right now and it's getting the better of me.

I looked at myself in the mirror and realise I still look gross and will probably still think that way when I'm at goal. I hate my body! I avoid mirrors all the time, I'll look in a small one to do my hair makeup etc but that's it. I won't even look at my reflection in windows, I walk around like I have blinkers on. I had to look in a bigger mirror as I bought some new clothes and needed to see what they looked like on. Unfortunately I don't like any of them on because I just look fat and horrible. My tummy, thighs and butt are the worst - I hate them! Argh! knew I shouldn't have ordered the new clothes and definitely shouldn't have looked in the mirror! .

Because of how I am feeling I keep thinking of food and wanting to cheat but I wont. I must not!

Ok I just needed to let off steam and get that out of my system. I am too embarrassed to tell a friend or family about the way I am feeling. I really now need to try and stop feeling sorry for myself and just get on with it.

 

[Shivie]

Don't be down on yourself hun, two and a half stone off is a LOT to be proud of.
I think we all become harder on ourselves when we lose weight and keep picking our bodies apart
for faults. It's probably because we've been hiding behind the fat, almost as a comfort blanket, to
shield us from the mean old world for so long. So now, as you're becoming more visible as the real you
that's underneath struggling to get out, you're more conscious of your appearance.
The confidence will come with time sweetie. Learn to love your unique self and to be grateful for all the
things you do like. Feel better soon x

 

[Want2BeSlim]

Thank you so much Shivie your reply means a lot. It's strange to think that at the start when I weighed nearly 16 stone I thought all my issues would be answered with the weight loss but as I'm gradually getting there it's a shock to realise it just doesn't work that way. I am so glad I have got this far but maybe I just expect too much. It's weird, I know I am a size 16-18 right now but in my mind want to see a 12-14 in the mirror which would be impossible.
xxx

 

[Want2BeSlim]

Weigh in day couple of days ago and I was surprised to see a loss of 4.5lb. I have never been a fast loser on VLCD, and nothing's changed as such... that loss is so high probably because I hardly had anything last week. I had been skipping packs and meals etc because I've felt so crap and couldn't face the packs at all. The 4.5lb in a week felt brilliant, especially since it's put me into the 12 stones now (awesome!) but it's not something I should continue, not eating all my packs is bad news.

I went a bit awol over the weekend and didn't have any packs at all. I did eat food but made sure I didn't go over 80g carbs... although my calories were way over most probably.

I am not feeling the plan right now, so fed up with it. It doesn't help that all I have left is porridge and I can't stand it. I need to make an order to get all shakes but for some reason I have not been paid! so I cannot spend anything at the moment other than bills. I'll continue with the porridge and eggs and some veg, can't promise I'll be having the 4 packs, or even 3 right now as with the way I feel it's physically impossible to force them down.

I'll hopefully pick up a bit soon. I've suffered with depression for 12 years, it's become normal to me now and I just have to get on with it. Right now it's quite bad but I know that it will ease up a bit, it never goes, but does ease a little and I just have to be patient.

One thing I keep saying to myself is "I'm in the 12's! I am in the 12's" it sounds very good

 

[RebekahR]

Well done hun, I know what you mean, its tempting to skip packs but jot the best thing

I'm a slow looser too it gets so depressing when all you want is to get to that dream size!!

Chin up hun, hope you get your pay sorted. A bit of variety helps for sure. I'm a bit fed up with the packs too tbh but got to push through .. three more stone for me .. Eek be worth it, porridge and all!

Hugs hun xxx

 

[Deezer]

Hope you feel better soon!!! X

 

[Want2BeSlim]

Thanks girls xxx

. A bit of variety helps for sure. I'm a bit fed up with the packs too tbh but got to push through .. three more stone for me .. Eek be worth it, porridge and all!

Definitely. It's hard but got to keep going can't give up now even though I'm fighting the thoughts in my head daily! and after seeing a gain argh
Xx

 

[Want2BeSlim]

Just popping on in my break quick.
Well seeing the 12st 13 on the scales didn't last long. I normally have a sneaky weigh in on Tuesday even though my official weigh in is on a Saturday and mostly I'll see .75lb loss but today I'm UP 2.75lb!!!! OMG so gutted. I can't believe it. My first gain ever since being on the diet . I know I didn't have packs on the weekend but I didn't go over my carbs. By Saturday I might e able to lose the gained 2.75lb so will probably be my first STS week how poop.

 

[Shivie]

Next week will be better hun, as laydees we all fluctuate! Don't be down about it.
It's the inches you're losing that really show on the outside x

 

[RebekahR]

I get hormonal gains, hence I try to stay off the scales. But have to just do it now and know it will go

Chin up hunny Xx

 

[Want2BeSlim]

Well I have been off plan since about the 28th July, that's nearly 6 weeks. Each week Monday was meant to be a restart but it never happened. I just can't find the motivation at all. The thought of doing a VLCD again is really daunting and making me annoyed because it's so difficult and restricted and because I have no motivation like before deep down I know I'll fail really quick. Argh!

I hate to think what the scales would say right now. I've obviously gained weight because I've been eating crap and all my clothes are now tighter again.

In my head next Monday will be restart day but I doubt it will happen. I need to get back on track before I regain the 38lb I lost while on S&S... who knows maybe I have already gained it back. 4 months to lose it but 6 weeks to gain it back sounds about right for me! I am such a slow loser even when I'm on a VLCD... and that's what makes me dislike the thought of doing VLCD even more, hard and restrictive with stupidly low weekly losses.

Blergh.

 

[RebekahR]

Good to see you hun

You've got to do what works for YOU hunny, and what's sustainable. No point being miserable

Have a think and decide what plans best.

Mwah Xx

 

[Shivie]

Keep trying hun, it's hard to get back in the zone but so worth it when you finally get there xx

 

[Want2BeSlim]

Hey RebekahR and Shivie, thanks for stopping by xx

I still haven't restarted and have decided to give a different type of diet a go for a few weeks to see how I go. I kinda have my mind set on JUDDDD but I am still not 100% sure yet. If it doesn't work out and the losses are too slow then I will have to just come back to S&S. I would like to be down to at least 12 stone by christmas and at goal by my birthday 6 weeks after that, maybe that's too ambitious for most diets other than a VLCD . Anyway, at the moment my aim is to get my head in the right zone and find the motivation to lose weight again. Although JUDDDD sounds great, I can't get my head around it actually working for me... but I'm still willing to give it a go to actually see for myself. With me being a slow loser on a VLCD I have it in my head that I have to do a VLCD/restrictive/deprived diet or I wont lose weight. It's just a shame that these VLCD are so restrictive, well of course that's why they're called a VLCD LOL... but I get so grumpy and I hate it. My mum agreed when I told her that the VLCD's make me grumpy. I am not making excuses, I genuinely was grumpy and miserable while on S&S because I hated not being able to eat even a piece of bread. So pathetic isn't it. And after saying that, I find it funny that I could end up coming back to a VLCD anyway!

Whatever diet I decide to try I'm planning on starting on Monday next week.