caroline thanks, yeah my WI day is monday, i had my first WI and lost 6, then 3, then instead of today WI i weighed in on fri just gone and i was still the same (have been low cab nibbling, grr). so now next WI is tues morning (a week tomorrow) but because i've got extra packs from being bad at the weekend i've go enough to do me 2 weeks. so annoying as i had a really good 2 weeks and if i just got stuck in i could lose my 20lb for xmas but because i know this, i panick and end up sabotaging myself. very annoying as i know exactly what i have to do, its just the doing it thats the problem. it doesnt help that i'm currently hating my job and want to quit but am having trouble sorting out my other agency job so this erratic work lifestyle panicks me more and i freak out about it all and eat. under my tongue is covered in ulcers from worry. i just want it to be xmas and i can relax and have my HB off on holiday and have nice times hehe