Right, now for a proper diary entry. It's been a tough few days but I got through it, I had an emotional time at the funeral and seeing all my family again- including my parents and sister, haven't seen them since Christmas.
I stayed on plan, I managed a family dinner at my aunt's. They knew what I was doing, dad told them before I went so it was ok. There were 3 of my aunts, 2 uncles, my parents and my sister. They had this chicken and kidney bean thing in creamy sauce, to be honest I don't think I would have liked it anyway. As it happens my dad is on a special diet before his gall bladder op so aunt had saved some chicken for him out of the sauce, so I had some of that with the salad. I had a cheeky couple of slices of red onion, that was my only indulgance! There were two plates of halved jacket potatoes on the table and a pot of butter, they were all loving them but I just wasn't tempted. Seems I have my eye on the goal this week!
Pudding was suprisingly easy too, there was a crumble with a choice of yoghurt, cream or icecream, or a fruit salad. I'd have had the crumble with icecream! I sat while they ate and they chatted about a family friend who had lost a lot of weight then re-gained it. And then died. Thanks for that! I got through it, no blips or cheats and probably below the 200g protein. Which was a problem as I'd had a 2 shakes at home before leaving at 12, and no other pack and had had no time to fit in a bar or pack. I ended up having most of a bar sitting with my mum and sister, just having a bite when no one else was looking. Mum kept saying 'stop eating! stop eating' at me and I had to say look I HAVE to eat this, it's pack 3 and I have to have it to stay on plan and have the nutrients etc. I think she is so used to me overeating she can't just see me eat and not say anything. Anyway I didn't enjoy it, I had to leave a bit as everyone came to say good night then I cleaned my teeth before I realised I hadn't finished.
So tuesday, day of funeral, everyone was milling in the kitchen eating. I grabbed a bowl, spoon, water and did my mush in the dining room! Looks ok as a breakfast choice I think. The wake was tricky again, no chance to make a pack and saving the bar for the train home so I had.... some salad, as in most of the garnishes from the sandwiches! I grabbed a tuna mayo sandwich and scooped out the tsp or so of filling, yum yum, dad had the bread. Then I had a major yummy treat- the middle of a very small pork pie slice, just the meat which is an acheivement in itself as usually I would have had 6 slices or something. I ignored the crust, didn't touch the chips or HUGE plate of scones with pots of jam and cream. I had no bread, no quiche, no cheese, no alcohol, just water. I can do this!
BL bar on the train, nice treat. Then home to a couple of pickled eggs, some cockles (needed eating, happy to oblige!) and a choc shake. Some of my beauty products came- oils to try the oil cleansing method, lipbalms, and Mythic Oil samples from ebay to try on my hair. So far so good! On the way home I also got samples of Bodyshop primers, she gave me a nice amount to try maybe three days in each pot so I'll see if they agree with me! So far so good, am wearing vit c primer today (smells lovely, which I'm unsure about as I have sensitive skin!) with Bare Minerals over (got a sample on the weekend!) and Dior mascara, another sample, with £ shop eyeshadow. I am the queen of cheap!
My parents and sister really noticed my weightloss, no one else did because most of them saw me last during my last weightloss so I was only 1st more than I am now. That was as thin as I ever got though, till now. I wore this
Black/Ivory Leaf Print Dress - View All Dresses - Dresses - Womens Fashion - Wallis in a blinking size 14! Admittedly I wore a cardi over... and a sucky-inny vest from Primark under but I wore it and was fine! With thick tights- and no shorts! I've alwasy had to wear shorts under dresses and skirts, even with tight on I rub

but I was ok! And heels but I had to take them off on the way home!
Today has been good so far, I got my wedding invite for June! My goal date! I RSVP'd with my choice for the dinner- prawn and salmon with herb salad, and veg curry for main. I think they were lower carb choices than tomato soup with thick bread and chicken with potatoes and mushrooms. I don't like mushrooms anyway so would just have had the chicken! And yes I know that I'll be done with S&S by then, one way or the other, but I do want low-carb thinking to be a way of life. Alos I want to have pudding so will have less of starter/main to accomodate- glazed citrus tart with raspberries and mint syrup! Yum, I hope!
So all in all, emotional yes but I didn't turn to food. I had an uncomfortable meal but I didn't start eating then regret it later. I managed train journeys with water and a bar, that's big cos usually I'd go into M&S food or somewhere and get sandwiches or salad and sushi, and pork pies, percy pigs etc etc. Nope, nothing. I was seated right next to the buffet car, AND there was a trolley service but nothing!
This will power etc may not last but having it right then was brilliant. The best news I saved for last- I AM OVERWEIGHT! FINALLY! I am, today, 11st 6lb. 1lb under obese. I have reached a major goal at a terrible time of my life yet I did it and I really, really hope this doesn't tip me over like when I hit 12st, when I ate and ate and went over and it took me 2 weeks to get back. I can't believe I've lost 5lb so far this week! Since Saturday WI! I'd be so very happy to maintain that till Sat, but any further losses will be a bonus!
Right, off now to have a shake (haha, no, mush) and some celery as there are 4 bags in the fridge so I may as well get nomming.