Morticia
Happy in my own skin
Bit of a difficult one this. Like Minerva at the start of her thread, I feel a bit odd starting a thread all for myself but for a few reasons now I feel I need to write a few things down. To get things straight, to log my eating and to just generally mull things over. Feel free to pipe in or ignore as required/appropriate.
A bit of history first. I've done all of foundation with no lapses. I'm now in week 4 of RTM and have had no problems so far. The most outrageous thing I've done so far is have tomatoes 3 days early last week.
I'm going to list what I've had today then mull it over.
1. Breakfast was black coffee and a cranberry bar.
2. Mid morning was another black coffee.
3. Late morning I had a savoury drink.
4. For lunch I had a mushroom soup then a portion of low far greek yoghurt, with one apple sliced up and some cinnamon on top. I also had 4 strawberries.
5. Afternoon tea break saw me having a black coffee and a portion of fruit salad.
6. For evening meal I had crunchy salad with balsamic dressing, grilled salmon with lemon and herbs.
7. Out for the evening and I had a coffee with low fat milk.
8. Just home and I've had another coffee, black and 4 grapes and one orange segment (from fruit salad).
Ok here are my musings. Not sure if others think this is a lot to have. I feel I've eaten more today than I'm happy with. Normally I've only had two snacks a day and by the looks of it today I've had 3-4. I had the yoghurt and fruit at lunchtime when I'd normally just have a soup. I did this mostly because in work there have been comments about me not eating and how I have an eating disorder. So I felt it would help if people saw me eating more than just my usual soup. However I then had 4 extra stawberries, and I felt quite full....more full than I've felt in a long time, and more full than I'd like. so after lunch I'm thinking ohh I will not have anything more until I go home as it's 2pm and I'm quite full. Normally I would just have had a soup then nothing until I got home after 6. Well then tea-break comes at 4pm and I find myself having a portion of fruit salad...as it looked so nice, and well fruit is healthy anyway. And of course afterward I feel annoyed with myself as I've managed to avoid this sort of behaviour for such a long time. Tonight I'm happy with things until I came home and helped myself to another few grapes.
I'm hoping that by putting all this down here I'll get it off my chest and be able to make a different choice next time when I'm thinking the same thoughts.....cos even fruit is not good in large amounts so it's no good saying to myself ohh it's only fruit. It's the behaviour, the habit of over-eating that I want to address, not so much what I'm over-eating although that does have an impact I know.
That's about it for today. If anyone has read right to the end then I congratulate you....well done....
A bit of history first. I've done all of foundation with no lapses. I'm now in week 4 of RTM and have had no problems so far. The most outrageous thing I've done so far is have tomatoes 3 days early last week.
I'm going to list what I've had today then mull it over.
1. Breakfast was black coffee and a cranberry bar.
2. Mid morning was another black coffee.
3. Late morning I had a savoury drink.
4. For lunch I had a mushroom soup then a portion of low far greek yoghurt, with one apple sliced up and some cinnamon on top. I also had 4 strawberries.
5. Afternoon tea break saw me having a black coffee and a portion of fruit salad.
6. For evening meal I had crunchy salad with balsamic dressing, grilled salmon with lemon and herbs.
7. Out for the evening and I had a coffee with low fat milk.
8. Just home and I've had another coffee, black and 4 grapes and one orange segment (from fruit salad).
Ok here are my musings. Not sure if others think this is a lot to have. I feel I've eaten more today than I'm happy with. Normally I've only had two snacks a day and by the looks of it today I've had 3-4. I had the yoghurt and fruit at lunchtime when I'd normally just have a soup. I did this mostly because in work there have been comments about me not eating and how I have an eating disorder. So I felt it would help if people saw me eating more than just my usual soup. However I then had 4 extra stawberries, and I felt quite full....more full than I've felt in a long time, and more full than I'd like. so after lunch I'm thinking ohh I will not have anything more until I go home as it's 2pm and I'm quite full. Normally I would just have had a soup then nothing until I got home after 6. Well then tea-break comes at 4pm and I find myself having a portion of fruit salad...as it looked so nice, and well fruit is healthy anyway. And of course afterward I feel annoyed with myself as I've managed to avoid this sort of behaviour for such a long time. Tonight I'm happy with things until I came home and helped myself to another few grapes.
I'm hoping that by putting all this down here I'll get it off my chest and be able to make a different choice next time when I'm thinking the same thoughts.....cos even fruit is not good in large amounts so it's no good saying to myself ohh it's only fruit. It's the behaviour, the habit of over-eating that I want to address, not so much what I'm over-eating although that does have an impact I know.
That's about it for today. If anyone has read right to the end then I congratulate you....well done....
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