im really unsure, up until today i have been so positive with it, thinking its not forever, yet today i just want food, nothing bad, fruit, veg meat etc, and i have had some pickled onions tonight as i craved them so badly!! wtf? 
 
iv just got off the phone to my best friend, shes a super fitness freak and is at fitness first, its 5 min walk from my place, so have asked her to c what deals they have on as i dont want to pay a joining fee, i can get the monthly fee from work at 28.00 a month so not too bad. so if she comes back and says they will do no joining fee then might go for SW and gym!! tho wont do it till pay day friday lol
 
so either way this week i am on CD and need to have a good loss this week! i dont think SS+ would be great as i would begrudge the 40 a week for CD then having to buy fresh food every couple of days lol mad i know but i wouldnt stick to it!
 
i hate having an unknowing feeling inside!! god i wish this diet was easy or there was some magic pill to make me thin???? but as there isnt guess i will just have to stop eating like a pig and loose weight!!