MsV
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I wasn't originally going to do a diary, but as I sit here today really struggling with my want for food I thought that if I document my feelings I will be able to come back and see my progress as the weeks go on.
Week 1
I'm not sure what was the turning point last Sunday, but it happened. Something clicked in my head and I made the decision to start on Monday. I went through all the remaining packets and found that I had 17 days left.
Monday comes and I feel positive. I get through to my CDC and arrange to meet the following week. I didn't want to waste her time until I had finally commited 100%. I get through without any hicups, kind of excited at seeing the results.
Tuesday I had a bit of a wobble on the way home. My normal routine used to be, get off the bus, pop in to Sainsburys and buy something for dinner and then head home. Whilst in there if I fancied a treat, I'd buy it, take it home and eat it before the OH gets in - herein lies the problem - eating in hiding.
I call my friend and she talks to me all the way to the front door and I make it through the night!! Well done me. I'm so pleased.
Wednesday - Friday. Work is stressful - last week before I put my sales through for the month, but it keeps me busy and not thinking about the lack of food, but the food smells of people's lunch is really getting to me.
I also worry non-stop about getting through the weekend as that's where I had the problem the last time.
Saturday. The cleaner is coming today, so that takes that job out my hands, but I have lots of ironing to do and I've kept all my programmes to watch on the plus box. Turns out I end up going for a wee swim and spent a lot of time on minimins reading people's diaries which helps me push through. No ironing done!
Slight problem is that I didn't make it through 3 packets and only drank 2 litres of water. Nevermind - took myself to bed
Sunday - today. I woke up around 7.30am and watched an episode of Drop Dead Diva. I went for my morning pee and it was nothing more than a trickle and when I jumped on the scales - I was up 2lbs!
It's my own fault - water retention due to not taking all 3 packets and not drinking enough. That will teach me.
So I get up and make my morning shake, take a glass of water and trundle back to bed.
After Hollyoaks I head off to aqua aerobics. It was a tough workout after 16 months away from the gym! I was shaking when it finished and it made me want to eat!!
Maybe I've been over zelous on the exercise front as I am now home, had my second packet, almost 2l in with water and all I want is to chew chew chew.
I think I'm going for a shower and then to have a nap. It might help.
Oh and I've never shared this with anyone before, so here it is in black and white. I want to be able to be naked for once in my life with my partner. Completely and utterly starkers. I think it's happened once and I was very careful to lie flat. As a couple we have a very active sex life, but without fail I always have a vest on. He's never complained or actually said anything, but I would love to see his face when I jump on him in the living room and not have to usher him to the bedroom and switch the light off.
The naked ambition - here I come!!!
Week 1
I'm not sure what was the turning point last Sunday, but it happened. Something clicked in my head and I made the decision to start on Monday. I went through all the remaining packets and found that I had 17 days left.
Monday comes and I feel positive. I get through to my CDC and arrange to meet the following week. I didn't want to waste her time until I had finally commited 100%. I get through without any hicups, kind of excited at seeing the results.
Tuesday I had a bit of a wobble on the way home. My normal routine used to be, get off the bus, pop in to Sainsburys and buy something for dinner and then head home. Whilst in there if I fancied a treat, I'd buy it, take it home and eat it before the OH gets in - herein lies the problem - eating in hiding.
I call my friend and she talks to me all the way to the front door and I make it through the night!! Well done me. I'm so pleased.
Wednesday - Friday. Work is stressful - last week before I put my sales through for the month, but it keeps me busy and not thinking about the lack of food, but the food smells of people's lunch is really getting to me.
I also worry non-stop about getting through the weekend as that's where I had the problem the last time.
Saturday. The cleaner is coming today, so that takes that job out my hands, but I have lots of ironing to do and I've kept all my programmes to watch on the plus box. Turns out I end up going for a wee swim and spent a lot of time on minimins reading people's diaries which helps me push through. No ironing done!
Slight problem is that I didn't make it through 3 packets and only drank 2 litres of water. Nevermind - took myself to bed
Sunday - today. I woke up around 7.30am and watched an episode of Drop Dead Diva. I went for my morning pee and it was nothing more than a trickle and when I jumped on the scales - I was up 2lbs!
It's my own fault - water retention due to not taking all 3 packets and not drinking enough. That will teach me.
So I get up and make my morning shake, take a glass of water and trundle back to bed.
After Hollyoaks I head off to aqua aerobics. It was a tough workout after 16 months away from the gym! I was shaking when it finished and it made me want to eat!!
Maybe I've been over zelous on the exercise front as I am now home, had my second packet, almost 2l in with water and all I want is to chew chew chew.
I think I'm going for a shower and then to have a nap. It might help.
Oh and I've never shared this with anyone before, so here it is in black and white. I want to be able to be naked for once in my life with my partner. Completely and utterly starkers. I think it's happened once and I was very careful to lie flat. As a couple we have a very active sex life, but without fail I always have a vest on. He's never complained or actually said anything, but I would love to see his face when I jump on him in the living room and not have to usher him to the bedroom and switch the light off.
The naked ambition - here I come!!!