Sorry to hear you've been poorly nina, glad you're on the mend now and your blood pressure is good! Uterine rupture, even with an IOL, is still not common - and it is VERY well watched out for, you'll certainly be watched for hyperstimulation (contracting too frequently), be guided by your team!
Well I was seen by the mw today, she was really pleased with how the patches are helping.. She's still really pushing me to wait for spontaneous labour if I can to reduce the risk of me needing a section but I dont know how much longer I can cope with this.. I can see where she's coming from - especially when she said "I'm looking at a different woman today, you're bright and cheerful" - as I replied though, this is me on a GOOD day, it's nice for her to see them for once.. Equally though, she's seen me on bad days to know how bad they get.. I've done 6 months of this and I honestly dont know how much more pain I can go through - I'll get through it if I have to but she was talking today about maybe inducing me at term if I am desperate for an induction but not having one til then ffs.. I just feel like the goal posts keep on being shifted back, I just want to start healing now.. I know once I start with an induction I could end up with a section - I'd love nothing more than a nice spontaneous labour at 38 weeks thank you very much - but I'd love a date to put me out of my misery!! She couldn't work out which way round bean was at all (she's a very very good midwife - just she wasn't palpating very hard into my pelvis to spare me pain!) but the FH was as clear as a bell down at the symphysis pubis so that bodes well! (Not at the top at all).. She also did another INR and FBC so wait and see what that says! No glucose on urine dip either, yay! (There was last time)
I'm going round and round and round in circles over this!! I think, more than anything, I would love to go into spontaneous labour and cope at home in the bath for as long as possible.. Really I would.. (But then I wanted a home birth too!!!) At the same time I'm really starting to doubt myself as to how much more I can cope with.. And on an entirely selfish note, it's my 30th birthday 4 days before my due date and, at the moment, I'll be spending it in bed, slugging oramorph.. Not much fun ay? I know that's no reason to deliver early - but it's such a "milestone" birthday and it's just another thing that makes you acutely aware that you're just stuck in a bed, unable to do anything.. I think by someone deciding for me that I'll be induced at x weeks just takes the pressure and guilt away from me making that decision, does that make sense? I've coped with it for 6 months - another 6 weeks isn't the end of the world but I dont know, I certainly dont think I'd want to wait long afterwards - if they wont induce me early then I really wouldn't be happy if they wouldn't induce me at all, if I've not gone into labour by my due date then I think I'll want this bean out.. I was saying to hubby that even if they said from 38 weeks they will give me the option but they wont leave me later than term, just so that I know if I have a really bad run of days then I can wave a white flag and someone will help me but I'll try and hang on if I can, make sense? You wait, I'll have changed my mind tomorrow and be asking for a section at 37/40 again!!
Keeping on plodding on..
