thanks for your support
Hello and thanks for the support.
yes I still do the meetings and all, and I had a great start today but again it did not last long.
Having thought a lot about the why and how, I have to admit that the new me kinda scared me a little. She was to good to be true, and had so much attention she was not used to.
the program is great, it gives an insight about how to deal with a lot of things that you did not do right but it does not tell you how to deal with the new you.
The new you that gets hit when walking down the street, the new you that looks so good that guys you liked and did not like you before are so into you that it scares you too. the new you that can dresses in whatever clothes she fancies and also in any styles she wants too.
I know it is a self estime problem that I have, having been the fat funny one for so long I don't know how to handle the thinner version of me. What people see now is only my body, they treat me differently too. My friends are fabulous and really supportive and so is my family. But still, I sometimes sense that they don't know how to handle the new me although I'm still the same inside, at least I like to think so.
And I can't help but think that this is all to good to be true. But I really don't wanna get to the point where all will be lost and I'd be, like they say saying that I miss what I once had.
Anyway, these are just some thoughts I had to share somehow, It might seems mad and non sense, I think it is, but maybe you'd understand...
Thanks again.
Naett